Well, that didn’t work

The prednisone plan didn’t work.  I went to instant jerk and full of hate for nothing.  I took the prednisone like I was ordered, and nothing changed.  So, the great plan to fix my blood numbers is a failure.  As a matter of fact, now I have to go in monthly for blood work to check my platelets (specifically) and other numbers as well.  I still only see the doctor every 3 months (we will get it back to 4 months) but I get to pay for a visit every month to talk to a nurse.   Heh, what a racket.

Prednisone did help my back pain.  Steroids are great for aches and pains.  With the exceptions of a new problem (which I will get into shortly) my back hasn’t felt this good in ages.   Shame that the prednisone make me a jerk, cuz I could stay on it forever to feel as good as I do.

Regardless of its good effect and its not working for the main reason we put me on it, we are bringing me off it rather quickly.  This is causing more moodiness on my part.   But hey, the only one that has to live with it is Teresa and she has seen me much worse than this.

New development (or old development finally identified), I have a kidney stone.   My right kidney hurts and sitting for long periods makes it worse.  I have hyperparathyroidism, which is a huge cause of kidney stones.  I had chemo, which is a huge cause of kidney stones.  I had the gastric bypass surgery, a third and final major cause of kidney stones.   So, I am guessing that its a kidney stone.   I will be going to a new doctor next week.  Since my favorite CNA has left my regular doctor’s office, I have no reason to stay with my regular doctor, so I am switching to a local office of the same company.  Heck, I can walk to their office as long as the weather is nice.  Funny thing, I used to see a Dr O’Donoghue, now I am gonna see a Dr Donahue.

I am not looking forward to passing said kidney stone.   I have heard that this is an extremely painful thing.   And that they don’t do a whole lot for you unless the stone is really big.  Then they just bust it up to let it pass naturally.  Only if it’s really huge and they can’t bust it up will they actually do something drastic to get rid of it.  But they probably wouldn’t do that for me, cuz I am a bleeder now.

On the good news front.   I ordered a new gaming laptop today.   I mentioned that my old laptop has been dying for a long time.   As a matter of fact, it never worked quite right.  Well, this is a true gaming laptop.   Got a really good deal thru ibuypower.com.   We have bought many desktop’s thru them, this is the first laptop, but hey its and ASUS ROG, how bad can it be.   They are just configuring some of the stuff for me (more ram, bigger SSD).  It should arrive right before….

My mom is coming to visit.  She arrives on September 19th and leaves on September 26th.  It will be so nice to see her.  I miss her so much.  She is coming just because she wants to.  Which is the coolest reason to visit someone I think.  And since Teresa (we) cleaned the spare room, mom will even have a place to sleep.

I should be back to running my D&D games in a couple weeks.   I shouldn’t go back into a funk when I come out of this steroid induced anger period.   I hope that is the case.  Would totally suck if I went back to where I was before the steroids started.  But that would be my luck.

Today I feel like crap.  I feel like the weight of the world is on my chest.   I took a 2 hour nap, because I didn’t feel like facing the world.  I may take another nap here before long.   Today is just sucking wind and I want to break things.  But everything within range is expensive or valuable in other ways.  I should just sleep and wake up tomorrow and hope for a better day.

Oh yeah, tomorrow is Summerslam, I hope it doesn’t suck.   I haven’t watched any WWE since the last PPV and really any WWE between the PPV before that PPV and that one.  In reality, I haven’t watched any weekly WWE stuff since WrestleMania and even then I was only sort of watching occasionally.  I haven’t watch Impact Wrestling either, definitely not since they broke up the wolves and hired Alberto Del (Rio) Patron and made him champion.

I have watched ROH almost every week though.  I like Ring of Honor, really does remind me of what got me hooked on wrestling in the first place.  Less showy, more show.

Teresa is gonna shave my head again tonight.  Down to a 2.  This is our break even shaving.  The razor will officially have paid for itself vs what it would have cost at Supercuts.  I never thought I would like really short/shaved head, but hey, it’s nice.  And Teresa lets me get away without really shaving (my beard is down to a 1ish).

My cancer doc says that come year 5 or 6, you are declared cured of AML.  But then is when you run into another form of (sort of) leukemia caused by the chemo you had to get those 5 or 6 years.  BLAH.   What doesn’t kill you still has a chance to kill you.   Fun Fun.  Not.

2 weeks until I don’t win the Publisher’s Clearing House big prize again.   The drawing for 15 million dollars is August 31st.  I hope whoever does win has a good life with it and doesn’t blow it all immediately and end up broke.  That is what happens to like 90% of people who win big anyway.   Spend it all real quick, then have nothing to live on.   Heh, karma can only do some much.

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It’s been a while

Hey guys, sorry it has been a while since I posted here.  My bipolar kicked in and my mood went into the crapper.  I didn’t have anything new to say, or if I did I blew it off as non-important and went on with my life as it is.

So my blood numbers all went down and that freaked my regular doctor out.  She contacted my cancer doctor who ordered a bone marrow biopsy to find out that I do NOT have leukemia again.  He had no valid reason as to why my numbers all dropped at the same time, but at least he had some sort of plan.  And boy does his plan suck.  —-  100mg of Prednisone a day for a week, then go in for a blood test, then 90mg for a week, another blood test and so forth and so one til I finally go down to 10mg a day for a week, then maybe my blood production will go back to behaving like it is supposed to.

Prednisone is my instant-asshole med.  Turns me into a total jerk.  Makes me want to destroy things.  100mg is causing severe stomach pains.  I can’t eat enough in the morning to circumvent this pain.  Or so it sure seems, today I ate more than I ate for dinner last night and still had the pain.  So maybe food isn’t the answer and the answer is just deal with it.  I really do want my blood numbers to go back to normal normal, as opposed to the weird normal that had settled into.

Anyhow, I am fighting really hard to not take it out on my wife, my mother, my brother, my friends, my dogs, anyone I have to deal with.  It is being really difficult.  I want to scream and shout and break things, instead I am just cruising thru life, trying not to offend.

To that end, I have put both of my Mumble D&D games on hold.  Initially because of the depression I was in…  now because of the pent up rage I am feeling.  I hope that the people who didn’t know me before don’t bail on me.  As soon as I level out I plan to resume the games.

I cancelled the cruise next year for lots of reasons.  The biggest being my fear that the leukemia would come back right before we were supposed to sail.  That would be my luck.  Holland American Cruise Lines rocks though.  They could have kept 20% of everything I put in (I did read the paperwork).  Instead the refunded the whole amount or are refunding the whole amount rather.  That is super nice of them if you ask me.  I would guess that were I feeling physically and mentally better now, I wouldn’t have cancelled.  But with such extremes going on now, things could still be worse.

Oh yeah, remember my complaining about my back hurting.  Well it still hurts.  Of course it is my own damn fault for moving my desk into the bedroom and my computer from beside my bed.  Although, I do have to say that the desk setup looks marvelous.  Anyhow, my point I was making, it hurts my back to sit.  Lounging back on pillows with a keyboard in my lap was much better on making my back not hurt.  —  So, I start physical therapy next week.  Goody.  While dealing with pent up rage issues, I get a therapist telling me how I am supposed to stretch and move and sit and stuff.  This physical therapy is to make my pain doctor shut up.  He did give me a short in my nerve damage area of my neck and that feels 110% better, he did nothing for the rest of my back.  Not even pain pills of a minor form.  He said, physical therapy so off I am gonna go.

Skyrim is still my go to game to pass the day away.  I lost interest in the character I was playing last time, when I said this would be the one I would play to beat the game.  Heh.  I started an Orc Warrior who is now Master of the Assassins guild, Master of the Thieves guild, Archmage of the Mage school, and a Bard, oh yeah, he also collected all 24 special gems and the crown for the game killer quest.  That quest was not fun.  The resulting Prowler’s Promise or whatever it was called like that is an amazing result.  All the gems that keep showing up, where there used to be maybe 2 on a whole dungeon, there would be 40 or so for a run.  Not silly little cheap gems either, but flawless ones worth big bucks.  But I am bored with him now too.

Tried to play a caster AGAIN.  A Breton Conjurer.  Someone online posted it was the most fun he had playing the game ever.  I say he levels too ridiculously slow.  He is level 17 now and if he were a warrior or thief that did the same quests, I would have been level 30.  It’s the way you gain xp in the game that is screwy.  You don’t get xp for completing quests, you get it when you skill up any skill.  Well a Conjurer, conjures, the rest of his skills just kind of flounder.   There is no armoring to do.  Enchanting has minimal usage.  It was fun, but I am definitely a results for time spent kind of guy I guess.

I don’t know right now what new class/race I am going to try.  But I seriously doubt it will be a caster from the go.  Since anyone can learn to cast spells.  And even with a base starting out magic ability you can become Archmage of the mage school, even while carrying a 2 handed axe and wearing a full suit of dragonplate armor.    Heh, the game is a little screwy I guess.

I have given up on the diet and exercise thing I was going to try.  Well, the physical therapy will include some exercise I am sure.  But not joining a gym is part of my plan.  And not going on weight watchers is also part of the plan.  Why?  Because I don’t like brown rice.

So anyhow, to sum up my life.  I am an angry, sick, pained, Skyrim Junky, who would rather just be left alone right now.

Normally, I would be off to find a picture to put here.   But laziness has claimed the call.  So, no pic today.  Just a honest hope that everyone who reads this is having a better life than I am right now.

 

 

A Leukemia scare and a lot of pain

Since last I posted to this blog.  I have been in a lot of pain.  My back is still messed up royally.  Luckily I don’t have to wait til August 17th anymore, I am seeing the pain doc this morning (not why I was up at 4:30am, that was cuz of pain, not to get ready to see the doc).  The nerve damage in my neck/shoulder area is really working me over.  At times a pain level of 7 or 8.  It also messes with my right arm and causes my right hand to tingle.  Really annoying.  The rest of my back is doing ok on Flexeril, but my regular doc only gave me like 10 days of the stuff and my original appointment was a month away.  Oy.  Anyhow, I get to see pain doc today.  Hope to get some relief from that.

Seems I am not getting enough sun (surprise).  Furthermore, for some reason my hemoglobin, white blood cells, and platelets all decided to do a downer.  Combine the two and ta da you have a pale guy.  This prompted my cancer doc to order a bone marrow biopsy.  This one didn’t hurt like the last few.  Nice tall doc had leverage to get in and get it done without all the moving around.  It was achy for a few days, but its better now.   The results of the biopsy said my blood contains 4% blasts.  Blasts are the bad white blood cells that come with being leukemic.  According to my cancer doc’s nurse 4% is normal for a leukemia patient so I dodged a real bullet this time.   I wonder what the %age is that prompts concern?  And if this means that I will have problems in the future?

I put my D&D games on hold during this leukemia business.  I couldn’t think of anything else.  But we are set to resume August 2nd and August 4th respectively.  Gives me time to think and be prepared.  Even though it was only a week we missed, it seemed like longer.  I really enjoy running these games.  I know I have mentioned that many times before, but it’s true.

Teresa had decided that if I did end up back in the hospital she was gonna buy me a new gaming laptop.  I found what I wanted for 1299 at http://www.ibuypower.com a really nice Asus Rogue 15″ laptop, 17″ laptops are just too unwieldy.  Well, I guess that I won’t be getting a new laptop any time soon.

I am thinking of cancelling my vacation plans for next year.  Get the money I have invested back.  Leukemia is a real concern and I really don’t know if next year I will be able to go.  I have other things I could use that money for (see aforementioned gaming laptop).   And I wouldn’t have to worry about if I get sick between now and then.  I know it’s a once in a lifetime chance for me to go on this trip, but what fun would it be if I got all excited and ready and then life smacks me upside the head again and says No, you can’t go.  I hate planning my life around potential health issues, but this one is seriously a when and not an if.  I need to talk to my cancer doc, I need to talk to my mom.  Cancer doc to see if he thinks there is any chance of problems within the next year (hmmm, he just did a bone marrow biopsy, so I think his answer would be yes).  Mom because this is her once in a lifetime chance to do the cruise too and I would be squishing it for her as well.

Teresa is in New York again for work.  She went even before we got the good news about the biopsy results.   Her work told her if they came back bad they would fly her back immediately.  I thought that was cool of them.  Mediacom has treated us good over the years.  I know why Teresa is against the idea of starting over anywhere else.  Facebook offered her a lot more money to come work for them in Altoona.  She politely said “No”.

The little office area we set up for me in the bedroom is working out great.   Plenty of storage for all my stuff and all the electronic stuff (computer, printer, etc…) is now up off the floor.  Which is a good thing.  Even old(er) computer stuff is being put to use or will be rather.  Gonna set up an apache server (http/web) and mumble server on an old(er) pc which had a problem running dual monitors.  Well, since I only need it to run 1 monitor, it’s all good.

Been playing Skyrim a lot again.  I really love the game.  I think it’s the best PC RPG to come out in a long time and I don’t think any have come out since.  Yeah, the graphics are kind of outdated, but its a 6 year old game.  I tell ya, it still holds it’s own.  I picked it up cheap last Christmas and I have probably 2000+ hours logged into it.  I am a Skyrim junky.  I am currently playing the highest level character I have played and still having fun with him.  I normally have the attention span of a gnat when it comes to games like this, but I think I found the guy I want to play to the end so to speak.  A dual wielding lizard with dragonscale armor and dragonbone swords.  He started as a thief, but has evolved into so much more.

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The dark dots are Blasts in a leukemia patients blood.  Blasts are immature white blood cells which are released in the blood stream.   It takes 20%(or more)  blasts to be considered having leukemia, I was at 4%.  So, for now, I am good.

The waiting is the hardest part

OK, I had been in remission from Leukemia for 2 years.  Life had been going great.  Things had all been falling into place.  I have been happy.

Then a few days ago, I went to my regular doctor and asked for some flexeril to hold me over until I get to see the pain doc.  No problem there.  She just comments that I am looking a little pale and asks to do another blood test (after having one 3 weeks earlier).  I was all “sure, whatever”.

Turns out that all my blood numbers are down.  Hemoglobin, WBC and Platelets were way down.  This prompted my regular doctor to contact my cancer doctor who ordered a bone marrow biopsy, which happened Yesterday afternoon.

Now is the long weekend wait for the results.  Waiting sucks and over a weekend it just ruins the weekend. Not that we had anything planned, but the potential that we could have done something is there.

Waiting to hear the bad news that my Leukemia has had a reoccurrence. Waiting to hear that I am going to have to have a bone marrow transplant.  Just waiting.

I put both of my D&D games on hold until I find out if I am sick again.  Can’t concentrate on anything.   Luckily, everyone has been cool about it.  I have such great plans for both campaigns. Just glad I hadn’t started finding people for a third game just to tell them, oh, never mind.

I think I feel most sorry for my wife.  This is being really rough on her.  She is supposed to go on travel on Monday.  She doesn’t know if she is going to go.  They offered to fly her out and fly her right back if needed.  That would suck.  I should know Monday but it might not be until Tuesday.  She just wants to know too.

Thank the gods that the republicans haven’t repealed Obamacare yet.  Obamacare put a cap on how much out of pocket that it can cost for treatment of leukemia.  Neither the House nor the Senate versions of the new health bills have any such cap.

I just hate the not knowing.  Simple as that.

Still hurting after all this time…

Pain is still the operative word of the day/week/month/months.  My back is still killing me.  I think on Monday I will call the pain doc’s office and double check that there hasn’t been any cancellations and I am still on the list.  The pain is getting worse.  All I really want is to be able to sit in a chair for 2 hours without a lot of pain.  I don’t think that is asking too much.  2 hours, 2 measly hours.

When I went to the pain doc in June, I had one point for trigger point injections.  Now I have like 6 spots on my back.  Easier to point on where it doesn’t hurt.  Plus my neck issue is acting up and its shooting pain down my right arm.  Grrr.  Pain sucks.  Sucks very much.  And it all started with one jerk who barely tapped my back bumper at a yield sign back in 1999.  Yup, for most of almost 20 years I have been in mild to severe pain, that is the back problem.  Not sure when I messed up my neck, possibly as far back as high school, so 30 years for that pain.

The first time I got trigger point injections they last 3 months.  This time the pain relief in that spot was 6 days.  Not good.  I am gonna end up back on pain meds, I just know it.  I am not happy about it, but if that is what it takes to get me to where I can sit, so be it.  So be it.

Pain was so bad tonight that I had to cancel my Friday night D&D game.  It was to be the final session of this story arc.  But no, I could not sit at my desk for 2 hours to run the game.  I just was hurting so bad.  I needed to be laying pretty much flat in bed, which is what I am doing now.  My laptop might be a POS, but it works for writing this blog when I can’t sit at the desk.

Mojo had a slight infection in both ears.  Got goop put into each ear and smeared around.  Was kind of expensive, but the little guy is worth it.  Next vet visit is for Pucky to have a deep teeth cleaning, one where they knock him out, he’s officially elderly now, he turned 7 on the 4th of July.  Beyond having his teeth cleaned they are gonna remove 2 loose teeth that aren’t/haven’t fallen out on their own.

I called to confirm with the movers for Monday morning.  The guy was all shocked that I called.  I guess no one else ever calls to make sure.  I also wanted to make sure to remind him that the place doesn’t open til 9:30.  I lost the keys to the lock, luckily the place I rent the storage locker at will cut locks off for customers as long as they have proper ID.  So it’s all good.

It’ll be cool to have nice furniture to set up on.  A big desk 72″x36″.  And the 2 cabinets and a bookcase.  I have a lot of stuff that needs to be stored.  Getting these pieces into the bedroom is going to be interesting.  Glad I am not the mover.  We just have to move them into place, once we figure out how the are gonna be placed.  For the desk and the printer cabinet we have a good idea of where they are gonna go.  So it just matters if the other cabinet and the bookcase will have enough room to sit side by side next to the desk. I think there is enough room, not sure.  I don’t remember exact measurements.  So its all gonna be put in place on the fly so to speak.

The remainder of the stuff from storage is going downstairs.  Not that there is a whole lot of space down there, but there really isn’t that much in storage after you remove the big furniture pieces.  A small fridge.  A toaster oven.  A 36″ round table (would have went in the bedroom, just ran out of room).  4 visitor chairs.  Probably a box or two.  A 4ft folding table.  I don’t remember much else.  The giant map of the world is going on the ugly wall here in the bedroom.  Basically anything else besides the earlier mentioned furniture and the map are going to the basement.  I guess this weekend I will go make some room down there when my back will let me.

I cancelled my therapy appoint, my shrink appointment, a dentist appointment and lunch with a friend so far cuz of this problem with my back.  Something has got to give.

Have I mentioned how much I love my wife lately?   Well, for the record, I love my wife.

While cleaning the back 40 we came across some old pictures of us and had a nice chuckle about how skinny we used to be.  LOL.  Oh so many years ago.  Now plump is the polite word for us.  But then again, most of us around my age are plump.

Disturbed’s – Sound of Silence.  It’s kind of my wife’s new go to song for testing anything electronic.  She got a new Bluetooth speaker for her Echo Dot.  She is testing it out in the bedroom, its 11:35 at night, we share a bedroom wall with our neighbor.  The song gets LOUD.   Teresa, I love her dearly, has little to not concept of how loud is loud.  I hope Gordy and his wife (whose name I have forgotten again) don’t complain about how loud it got tonight.

Speaking of Disturbed’s Sound of Silence, here ya go.

The weirdest thing, my brand new headset started having issues that my old headset was having.  Not being able to use the mic.  So I pulled the old one out of the trash and gonna play around with it some more and see if I can get it working.  Could just be a windows 10 patch issue.  Anyhow, it took my about 10 minutes to get my new one to work again and I am naturally not sure what I did exactly to make it work.

One person had something come up, so we started the Wednesday night D&D game without him.  The 4 that did show up had a great time, they missed out on some story elements, but got the main storyline down and got to where they were supposed to go.  The 4 of them fought 14 Dire Wolves.  Should have been a no brainer of a fight, but they almost all got beat on a little.  My rule about everything doubles on a crit made the rogue do 70someodd points in one hit.  Yup, I make criticals hurt in my game.

With the success of tonight and the continuing success of the Friday night game, Sunday afternoon is looking more and more promising.  I don’t think I will have any problems finding players, just everyone seems to want roll20 (bah, paint the picture in your head, old school).  I still don’t think it’ll be much of an issue really.  I think our Canadian friend would be willing to play on Sunday afternoons too.  He called my first DMing of high levels “EPIC”.  I love hearing those kinds of reviews.

Looking forward to Friday night, all the players should be there and its the finale of this storyline arc.  Not a great storyline, but its not bad either.  So, I doubt I will get any “EPIC” reviews, but everyone should enjoy themselves.  And that is all I really want is to have fun for a few hours and bring 6 people along with me.

I did well on Prime Day, my first new monitor is incredible. 28″ Samsung super monitor, works with my super video card.  Sweet harmony together.  I’m so happy I bought it.  My second new monitor arrives tomorrow.  A 32″ Samsung curved monitor.  It won’t be taken out of the box til after Monday.

We took out trash and recyclables tonight.  Took us about 10 minutes to get it all.  And tomorrow with all the rest of the Amazon stuff coming in, we are gonna have a boat load of recyclables for next time too.  Hopefully Amazon will merge what they can so we don’t have a bunch of little boxes.

OK, to sound like a broken record… my back hurts.  Even with the ibuprofen, it still hurts, just not as bad.  Just waiting for the pain doc’s office to call.

Mojo is going to the vet on Friday morning, we think he has yet another ear infection.  He basically gets one every summer.  Sucks for the little guy.  But the vet is only 2 blocks away and Dr B is really great.  So it could be a lot worse.  And I always take Pucky along too to help keep Mojo calm.

Teresa got an Echo Dot and instead of naming it something different, she is calling this one Alexa also.  Now she could have named it echo, dot, or amazon, but she chose Alexa, just like our Echo.  So right now with both in the room, they both respond when you say Alexa, but you can only interact with the closest one.  Weird.  Anyway, the dot is going into the kitchen so Teresa can stream music while she cooks.  Pretty cool.

A few 80s nostalgia acts have came thru Des Moines recently.  I should have went to a few of them, seeing as I am a huge fan of 80s music.  Def Leppard and Tesla were here.  I forget who else.  I didn’t find out about them until a friend of mine posted about the concerts on Facebook.  I guess I hang out with the wrong friends.  LOL, just kidding, I love all my friends.

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A much better week so far

I actually made it out of the house on my own today.  I know, stange occurance.  I went to the Family Dollar down the stree, the pharmacy to pick up my med, and even to the grocery store in Waukee.  No depression, no anxiety, no nothing except hot, it was really hot and humid here.  Heat index was 106.  As I have mentioned before I can’t control my internal body temperature, once I start to get hot it takes a long time in the cold to bring me back to a normal temperature.  No difference today.  An 1 1/2 hour nap after getting back from the store in the AC did the trick.  I was back to comfortable by the time I got back up.  Anyhow, it felt good to get out, even if it was for just an hour or so, I really should get out more often.

All set for try #2 on starting my Wednesday night game.  Assuming no one has an emergency, we will begin at 5:05 central time tomorrow.  Not exactly night, so evening.  I am very much looking forward to this.  I even did things for this one that I did not do for the low levels.  Heh, I am more prepared.  Go figure.

I have been preaching to my players to check their headsets with the mumble server.  Good thing I listened to my own advice.  My old headset lost its microphone ability, the light comes on but it doesn’t hear anything, and yes, I checked mute both on the headset and in mumble and neither was clicked.  So out with old.  Luckily, I had a mostly new back up headset all charged and ready to go.  I bought it several months ago when my old headset lots its ability to talk to the little usb plugin.  I fixed that problem and decided to just keep using my old until it died.  Well, it’s in the trash now.  The new set works perfectly, so no mistep here.

Friday’s game looks to be back on too.  Not sure what happened, but magically the guy with the broken computer (the one who was the center of the story line) has a working computer again and can get back on mumble.  WOOT, yay.

My big monitor (well, 27″) is dying, whenever I  am actively using it, it flashes off then back on, but never losese signal.  So thanks to PRIME DAY at Amazon, it is being replaced by a bigger badder better monitor and the little monitor I am using right now is being replaced by a bigger badder monitor too.  Yup, I ordered 2 new monitors.  Well, actually I accidently ordered 3.  But 1 will be going back costing us a minor fortune to return.  My bad, shouldn’t try to do things on the computer at 3 in the morning.

Speaking of 3 in the morning, my sleep has SUCKED recently.  I used to get 7 or 8 hours with the CPAP, now I am luckily to get 4.  Then I am wide awake thinking I should get more sleep.  That has me waking up at 3 or 4 or 5 when I am lucky.  Makes life rough.  I end up taking naps, which end up messing with my sleep.  Viscious cycle.  BLAH.

For those that care, with the exception of my back, I feel great.  Yeah, my platelets are obviously low (bruises taking forever to fade, unexplained bruises) but that doesn’t make me feel bad, just makes me be more cautious.

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