I don’t think I can do it…

I’ve went over my proposed schedule for the next 2 1/2 years and frankly, I just don’t think I can do it.  Too much new material, too much hard material, just too much of too much.  Plus there is the whole getting into Med School issue, no good Medical School will want a 50something year old 1st year, when they can take a 20something instead.  I want to be a doctor, 25 years ago.  That being said, I am student without a goal, I have decided NOT to kill myself and try to become a doctor.  This bums me out a bit, but it’s reality, there is no way I can do it.

Which brings me to the realization that I don’t want to do anything else really.  Yeah, I can become a teacher, even my therapist said I would make a good teacher.  But that now sounds like settling (in my head).  Maybe I am just being a butt about it cuz I am bummed about the doctor thing.

I have looked thru DMACC’s other options for degrees and nothing seems interesting at this point.  To get Financial Aid, you have to be striving towards a degree, which means Undecided isn’t a viable choice.  I just don’t know what to do.

I could talk to my adviser, but if I change majors, I will have to change advisers.  Heh, even Undecided has a different adviser.  DOH.

And on a school related note, I am gonna do the learning module thing and retake the math placement.  I want at least a 30%, up from my 25%.  I am pretty sure I can do that.

I guess I will go back thru the majors at DMACC and see if there is one that triggers something in my head or heart.  I am going to school starting this summer and I will have a major.  Just right now, I have no clue what that major will be.

It’s all good, all the classes I am registered for summer are core requirement courses.  So, even with changing majors, I won’t have to change my schedule.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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