Heh, I forgot that complete strangers can trip across this blog.  I received a comment from someone I don’t know on an earlier post.  I wonder if these blog posts get scanned by google or something cuz it seems really odd that someone would just trip across hectic.blog in the randomness that is the internet.  Oh well, it amused me.

Spent an hour trying to figure out what I screwed up on my 2 1/2 year schedule only to discover I didn’t scroll down far enough on the document to see the classes I thought I had left out.  Doh, that is what I get for trying to check things when I got a blaring headache.

Speaking of my headache, it has been going on all afternoon.  It was bad enough that I would have taken a shot for it, but I am out of the shots, so instead I had to use 2 Tylenol and wait 6 hours for 2 more.   Tylenol doesn’t really help these headaches, but makes me feel better that I am trying something.  The headache has lessened as the evening has progressed (I wouldn’t be typing this had it not).  I was actually somewhat worried that I’d be making a trip to the ER for a shot or something.   Oh well, that crisis is mostly over.

I looked up how much my books are gonna cost for summer session.  36, 120, 180 and nothing.  Yup, I actually have a class with a “No book for this class” tag at the bookstore.  WOO HOO and Hoo.  No book I can afford.  Like I said before, financial aid releases funds to buy books on May 15th.  I will be there bright and early to get my books on the 15th.

I have no clue when financial aid is releasing the rest of my funds.  Well, they pay for classes on the 22nd, then I will have money left over.  No clue when it’s gonna be released.  Some blah about 45 days but 2 pay dates because I am a first time borrower and an online only student this semester (not my fault the school cancelled my in-class English class).  Anyhow, its a good thing I don’t need the money, cuz otherwise it would suck eggs having to wait so long.

17 days now and school will start.  It’ll be good actually doing something constructive with my life.  It has been too long since I have felt like I was actually being a productive human.  I know I have tried working as a travel agent and tried the real estate gig, but I made zero money on both things and never felt truly like I was doing anything productive.

Funny thing is I am still not remotely anxious about school this summer.  I will do it, and do well at it, I am sure.   However, the Fall semester is looming hardcore, and anxiety is going up for that and it’s 3 months away and my problem won’t start til the end of 4 months away.  I thought I had faith in my shrink, but that has dwindled.  Whenever I think of Fall semester, I think how bad I have done in the past trying school.  Got to somehow trick my mind into thinking this is not those times and I will do well in the Fall too.  Easier said than done I guess.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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