I give up

OK, I give up.  School is not for me.  I totally had a freakout meltdown today when I looked at the syllabi for my classes that started today.  It thru me into a serious depression.  I just can’t do school.  It is definitely not that I don’t want to, it’s that I can’t.

So basically all these months of talking about it was just that talk.  I am very sorry for wasting your time.

In good news, we bought a big thick mattress pad for our new bed.  Now maybe I will get a good night’s sleep.  Or a night’s sleep without waking up with a huge backache.

In chat news, there was a big dust up last night.  We lost one moderator and Ant, the guy in charge, said she would get her moderatorship back over his dead body.  It wasn’t pleasant.  We almost lost the other moderator too.  Which would have left  just me and Ant, not good.  Luckily she decided to stay.  And we have found a replacement moderator for the one we lost too, she is from Belgium but you wouldn’t know that English wasn’t her first language.  We are still looking for a couple more mods cuz right now I am doing like 12+ hour days and I would like a break.

Vacation plans to go to the Region are still on.  Will be there on the 31st, but since I am flying out at 6:05am I will not be in any shape to see people until I get a good nap in.  I will be there for my brother’s party on the 3rd.  Then I will be leaving on the 7th.  It’ll be so good to see my mom and brother again and to see my Region based friends.

Not going to school means Thanksgivingfest and Thanksgiving are back on.  I am happy about that.  So, whoever is hosting Thanksgivingfest, we are coming this year after all.  Bruce and Cori, I hope the bed is still available, if not let us know, we can afford a hotel if it comes down to it.

Teresa will be cooking for Thanksgiving proper at Ruby’s house.  Ruby asked her last year and Teresa said yes, so now Teresa will be able to keep that promise.

So, this is way cool.  I still would have rather done school (no offense to anyone aforementioned) but these 2 events make for a very happy replacement.

My therapist is gonna be upset at me for deciding not to do school.  She was all excited for me. I probably should text her and let her know it was a bust.

Tomorrow I go to the school to return my books so my financial aid account will go back to zero.  Would hate to drop everything and still owe them money.

I still plan on going on Weight Watchers when I get back from the Region.  Gym plans have changed since I don’t want to pay and drive to Ankeny.  There is a small gym here in town with all the required stuff and personal trainers I can hire.  OK, its not that small (according to their website) and it’s an Anytime Fitness with a 4.8 star rating.  I personally can afford the 36.99 a month to be a member.  And if that one doesn’t work for me, there is a Lifetime Fitness HUGE gym just down the road a piece.  One way or the other, I will be going on a diet/exercise regime to lose 35ish pounds starting sometime mid-June.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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