Out with the old…

The old laptop has been replaced.  Not sure what I am gonna do with it.  It still does word processing and business stuff really well, just doesn’t and never has ran games well.   I am writing this blog post on my shiny new laptop.  It plays Civ4 like a champ.   Tomorrow, if I get some sleep tonight (HA HA), I will fire up Skyrim and give a dragon fight or two a go.  I really like this new laptop, its a Republic of Gamers Game Notebook Strix.  I am slowly transferring all my hardware over to ROG hardware, I really like the stuff they put their tag on.

Sleep has been elusive for the last couple weeks.  Stupid prednisone side effect.  My meds knock me out ok, but I am awake after 2 or maybe 3 hours.  Wide awake all day until my meds hit again at night.   So I am doing 21-22 hour days for over a week.  Makes for one tired, grumpy guy.  Hopefully when I come off the prednisone on Friday, I will be able to sleep on Sunday maybe.  I don’t know how long prednisone stays in the system…  With my luck, it’ll take a week to get out of my system and I won’t sleep even when not taking it.  Eventually my system will just shut down and I will SLEEP the sleep of the dead for like 36 hours.   I used to have really bad insomnia issues, I remember doing these kind of things and then crashing for a couple days.  Hopefully I come off prednisone and my body goes back to normal quickly.

Wife is worried that since I have a gaming laptop now, I will spend all my time in bed again.   I spent less than 5 hours in bed playing tonight, will she was home.   Beyond that all day I was on my desktop gaming system with the 34″ dual monitor setup.  I still prefer to game on that than this laptop and it’s 15″ monitor.  This laptop is primarily for when I go out of town, so my games can travel with me.  Or when Teresa is sitting in bed playing on her ipad, I will break out the laptop and spend time with her.  Otherwise, its gaming desktop all the way.

Can’t wait for mom to visit.  I really do not get to see her enough.  Now I will get a whole week with her, without the distractions of the Region.   Even though she thinks Des Moines is the single most boring place on the earth, I hope we can find some stuff to do together.  I’ll make her drive everywhere.   I don’t care to drive much anymore.

I had a twinge of back pain today.  I am on the minimum dosage of prednisone now, so the pains might be coming back.  That’ll mean physical therapy starting for me.  I don’t want to do physical therapy (AGAIN) but my pain doc won’t give me anything for the pain in the lower and mid back, so I will give physical therapy a real try this time.  I have never went into physical therapy for my back with the thought in my head that it should work.  This time, I am going in with the hope and thought that it is going to do what it is intended to do and strengthen my back so I am not in pain all the time.  I may add acupuncture to the back cocktail if physical therapy works.  Double the treatment Eastern Medical practice and Western physical therapy.  Best of both work perhaps?

Been too tired of late to play Skyrim.  Skyrim requires thought to a certain extent, and my mind is a terrible fuzzy wasteland right now.  So instead I have been playing Civ 4 Warlords.  I own multiple copies and all the DLC of Civ 5, couldn’t stand it.  Civ 6 looks interesting but I am not into how they changed combat.   It’s all right I guess, but I like Civ 4, build big stack of badness, go squash little stack of meekness, take city, laugh hard, rinse, repeat as necessary.

OK, I have talked about Music Choice on here before.  I discovered a new channel (new to me), the y2k channel.   They play 2000-2011 music.  The stuff I listened to on the radio cuz there was no classic rock station or because it offended Teresa less.  The dogs stepped on the remote and put it on one day and I didn’t even notice it was something different until a couple hours later.  It’s cool.

I am new to this blog stuff, I don’t know how often I am supposed to publish.  I went thru a phase where I published multiple a day or at least one a day, but that was when things were going on for me.  Now that I have accepted that I am to do much of nothing short of gaming for the rest of my life, there just isn’t a whole lot to say.  There is only so much you guys would want to hear about my low blood numbers and no hope of them improving.  Lots of stress there, but nothing about it has changed since the last 2 times I mentioned it.  Back pain going on was cool, now its coming back, not cool.  So forth and so on, lots of the SSDD for me, so I tend to save a bunch for a big post.

D&D will resume after my mom comes to visit and maybe after my mother-in-law’s visit.  Anyway, it is looking like the first week of October.  Yeah, long break again.   Sorry folks but it is how my life has went, severe depression, then anger, rage and general foul moodiness, the it will be too much pain to sit for 2 hours straight, then company staying at our house that I need/wamt to be attentive to.  D&D will resume just in time for my fall Seasonal Affective Disorder.  Yup, sucks to be waiting on me.  Sorry, so very sorry.

Oh, it is 10pm, time to take my nightly meds, sleep comes in a couple hours.   Then I will sleep for a couple hours, then I will be up playing some game or the other.   I am drag-ass tired, been this way for a while now, hope is in sight, just have to reach out for it.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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