Well, I asked for my mood to stop rapid cycling, it did. Today I am terribly depressed. It’s fall. I just got back from vacation and see nothing to do in the near future (nothing really in the long future either). I miss my family. My platelets still are really low and there is currently no clue as to why. All sorts of things are piling up on me and dammit, I am down. I said something to Teresa via Skype, it was horribly bad for me to say, I feel like crap for saying it, just more to feel bad about.
My bone marrow biopsy is scheduled for Monday with check-in at 7:30am, guess no sleeping in on Monday morning for me. Will get the results (if it isn’t leukemia) on Thursday at 10amish, a much more reasonable time. If it is leukemia, I will be informed as soon as they know and things will move ridiculously fast again. I don’t want to do leukemia round 2 in Iowa, so it’ll be a temp thing here before getting me into Mayo up in Minnesota. I really don’t think it’s leukemia though. I have zero other symptoms. This test is just to rule leukemia out.
After this test, I will be contacting Mayo Clinic to get into their Hematology department. I wrote about this before.
I just want to be better.
I am beginning to doubt we will be starting that D&D game on Friday. As of Tuesday at 6:30pm Eastern Time, we still can’t enter our characters into the game. I looked it up, should be a no brainer. I pointed the DM to what I found, he has to do stuff before we (the players) can do anything. I am beginning to think he isn’t going to get it done in time for us players to get our characters in. I hope I am wrong.
I ordered a SoClean cpap cleaner today. I’m supposed to use my cpap, you can go back and read my complaining about it on Facebook and probably a bit on early posts in this blog. Anyhow, I was never able to get it clean, and it was making me sick. SoClean says you just hook it up and hit the button on it cleans the whole system. I am all for that. So, it’s supposed to be here on Friday, maybe I will start getting better sleep again this weekend. I know it can’t get worse.
I have a fairly wicked cough again. It started while I was in Indiana, and is not getting better. BLAH, it totally sucks to have a strange cough. Hopefully it will go away or turn into a cold or something so I can either forget about it or get treatment for it. I really only cough during the evening. Just another sucky health issue.
Do I have any good news to share? Not really at this time. I’m sure if I wasn’t so down, I would have something positive to share. But where I am mentally everything sucks. Sorry.
I sat in the dark all day, until I tried to plug in a small usb plug. Then I was too lazy to turn the light back off, besides Teresa gets upset when I sit in the dark. So, I sit here, unable to do much but type this short blog entry, and even this was a challenge. I hope you all are having a better day than me.