Nothing going right

Well, I asked for my mood to stop rapid cycling, it did.  Today I am terribly depressed.  It’s fall.  I just got back from vacation and see nothing to do in the near future (nothing really in the long future either).  I miss my family.  My platelets still are really low and there is currently no clue as to why.  All sorts of things are piling up on me and dammit, I am down.  I said something to Teresa via Skype, it was horribly bad for me to say, I feel like crap for saying it, just more to feel bad about.

My bone marrow biopsy is scheduled for Monday with check-in at 7:30am, guess no sleeping in on Monday morning for me.  Will get the results (if it isn’t leukemia) on Thursday at 10amish, a much more reasonable time.  If it is leukemia, I will be informed as soon as they know and things will move ridiculously fast again.  I don’t want to do leukemia round 2 in Iowa, so it’ll be a temp thing here before getting me into Mayo up in Minnesota.  I really don’t think it’s leukemia though.  I have zero other symptoms.  This test is just to rule leukemia out.

After this test, I will be contacting Mayo Clinic to get into their Hematology department.  I wrote about this before.

I just want to be better.

I am beginning to doubt we will be starting that D&D game on Friday.  As of Tuesday at 6:30pm Eastern Time, we still can’t enter our characters into the game.  I looked it up, should be a no brainer.  I pointed the DM to what I found, he has to do stuff before we (the players) can do anything.  I am beginning to think he isn’t going to get it done in time for us players to get our characters in.  I hope I am wrong.

I ordered a SoClean cpap cleaner today.  I’m supposed to use my cpap, you can go back and read my complaining about it on Facebook and probably a bit on early posts in this blog.  Anyhow, I was never able to get it clean, and it was making me sick.  SoClean says you just hook it up and hit the button on it cleans the whole system.  I am all for that.  So, it’s supposed to be here on Friday, maybe I will start getting better sleep again this weekend.  I know it can’t get worse.

I have a fairly wicked cough again.  It started while I was in Indiana, and is not getting better.  BLAH, it totally sucks to have a strange cough.  Hopefully it will go away or turn into a cold or something so I can either forget about it or get treatment for it.  I really only cough during the evening.  Just another sucky health issue.

Do I have any good news to share?  Not really at this time.  I’m sure if I wasn’t so down, I would have something positive to share.  But where I am mentally everything sucks.  Sorry.


I sat in the dark all day, until I tried to plug in a small usb plug.  Then I was too lazy to turn the light back off, besides Teresa gets upset when I sit in the dark.  So, I sit here, unable to do much but type this short blog entry, and even this was a challenge.  I hope you all are having a better day than me.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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