Been really down the last couple of days. Like almost suicidal down. This whole issue with my blood platelets has thrown me crashing down. Right now, I was I would just die. No, I am not going to do it, just wish it would happen. I know this is just temporary and that my mood will swing back up, but in the interim things just plain suck. Today is the same as yesterday and the day before, except today I have petechial bruising again. Having petechial bruising again means my platelets are at 20 or below. Which in turn means that on Wednesday or Thursday I will go get my blood drawn and see where my platelets are and probably get an infusion. Yay rah. This is how my life is going to be from now on. Exciting, ain’t it.
Last night’s D&D game was fun, wish I had been in a better mood as I probably would have described it with a better adjective. We achieve our goal, found out the information we needed, and 3 of the 4 of us who didn’t have our super items got them. The thief took mine or it would have been 4 out of 4. She found these items, and doled them out to who they were for but liked my item too much and decided to keep hers and mine. Exactly as a rogue should do. So now, the DM has to scramble and come up with a new item for me and find a logical place for it to be in the campaign. I think it was kinda funny that the rogue took my item too. Anyhow, the DM asked me what kind of item I want and in my depressed state it’s hard to think of rewards or super items. So I bowed out for coming up with my item until I got out of this funk. Which hopefully will be soon.
Next week is supposed to start out cold and then get into the 40s again for Saturday. Heh, I don’t think Mother Nature has a clue what to do with us in central Iowa anymore. We had a 1 day snowstorm and then it’s supposed to be nice… Cold but nice until it warms up in a few days. Then we will probably have a few days Above Average Temps and then another 1 day snowstorm and then nice days, rinse, repeat. That is how winter has been so far. There are only like 7 more weeks of winter anyways. Heh.
Teresa bought another big light for the bedroom. Then I get the smaller big light for the other side of my computer desk. As the lighting in the room now stands, I get light on half of my desk and zero on the other half. I have a little portable lamp, but that light is just glaring, I want the smaller big light, just not sure where I am gonna put it yet. In the mean time, I have to figure out how I am gonna move a big light into the small corner by Teresa’s side of the bed. I guess I will figure it out. Maybe we clear it out and she just assembles the big light in the corner, that is probably the BEST idea.
I’m definitely less fatigued taking the higher dose of thyroid medicine. Still get tired pretty easy, but I am not needing hours and hours of naps. Don’t get me wrong, I still love a good nap, just on my terms, not because I feel I have to.
I have to feel better mentally by Tuesday, cuz Tuesday’s D&D game is going to be fun to run. The players are going to face a huge decision with great consequences. And I want to be able to seriously laugh at them why they try to decide what to do. They got themselves in a big mess, so they have to pay the penalty for the mess, right?
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I never did make it out to Quality Marble and Tile to look at tile. I know I posted I was gonna try to go last Friday, but depression grabbed me and I stayed in bed. Getting out there might be one of those February things.
I am still hoping that my new Therapist isn’t an old lady. I don’t mind older than me, but I don’t want one who is my mom’s age or close to it. I want someone who can relate. I really wish her phone connection wasn’t so screwed up so I’d have a clue as to her age. But it’s all good I guess. I just need to vent a lot of frustration and fear and anger out somewhere and I won’t hit Teresa with all that (some of it, but not all), I’ll save that for a paid professional.