OK, so I was wrong, I thought all day yesterday was Sunday and mom was coming today. Turns out today was Sunday and mom comes tomorrow. It’s all good. So I don’t always know what day of the week it is… is that necessarily a bad thing. Mom comes to see me on Monday, tomorrow.
Still fighting the battle vs. Pay for Play RPGs. Yeah, it will probably be a fight I am having until I die. Someone had a bad idea and a lot of people ran with it. I just can’t believe that people are paying what some people are asking… 20 bucks a session is obscene, yes they had a full group. 120 bucks a week from that game alone. Yeah, you can’t make a living as a DM, but you can make some nice pocket change. Ridiculous. I will continue to run my game for free so none of my players have to worry about it. But players be ware, when I am gone, I’m afraid I am one of the last of my breed, prepare to be paying whatever the going rat for roll20 adventures is.
So needless to say, as of right now, I have not found a game to play in. No big loss. I haven’t had one for a long time. And the last one got cut short cuz of cancer. Boo. Oh well, I probably won’t find a game sitting on butt. Gonna have to hit up Mayhem on a Wednesday evening and see what I can find. I am amazing in 3D. People either love me instantly or hate me totally. It’s a gift, tells me who I don’t have to deal with quickly. Anyhow, Wednesday’s are D&D day at Mayhem Comics and Games. So I figure not this Wednesday, but perhaps the next Wednesday I will drive down and see what there is to be seen. Maybe get into one of the games there. That would be fun I think.
I didn’t sleep well last night. I had been doing so much better with everything. Lasts night was just bad. I kept waking up. Finally getting out of bed around 9am (which for me in ridiculous). Tried to catch a nap or two today, not sure if I slept of just drooled. Way tired now.
Teresa gave me back control sorta of my medicine, but not my night pills (cuz they are confusing). Anyhow, I have now messed up twice, I don’t want to be a responsible person as far as taking my meds myself, I liked it so much better when she just handed me my pills. I get confused real easy with these meds. Oh well, should sleep better tonight.
The following is very personal: Part of me is ready to be dead. This not knowing and screwing up is not me. I just want to die and get it over with. Please don’t share this with Teresa or my Mom. They wouldn’t be able to understand.
OK, enough of that. Tonight was a bummer cuz I had to officially say Can’t Go to Thanksgivingfest. Might very well be the last one I could attend and I had to say No, I will be receiving chemo then. I want to say Forget the Chemo. The good news is that quite a few of the Gang have committed to AINT DEAD YET. So I will see them one last time.
Haven’t done crap to get AINT DEAD YET going except the deposit on the American Legion Hall. Well, I did email AL @ BIG AL’S CATERING but he never got back to me. I will email him again tomorrow. I really need to get the discounted hotel rooms. SLACKER ME. Need to talk to Drew about what I need to set up a PA, I know nothing. Gonna rent a couple speakers from Rent a Center instead of a DJ. Cutting costs.
