Feeling better about lots of stuff

Dr. Alkhateeb said, “We will do the biopsy is platelets are single digit, so don’t worry about it.”  I wasn’t worried about that.  I knew they’d do the biopsy one way or the other.  My concern is what the biopsy is going to discover.   That is what has me anxious.  And I know that I won’t find out those results until the end of February at the earliest.

I’m not as freaked out as I was yesterday.  There is nothing I can do if it’s bad except hold on and hope for better.  So there is no reason to be freaked out.  Anxiety is still here, but its not horrible.   I’m just gonna hope that the test was anomalous and everything is still going to be ok.

Mom and Jim are here, but with the weather coming in, they are talking about leaving tomorrow.  Which is a bummer.  I don’t get to see my brother or mother often enough.  And Jim finally took some time off to come visit, and it has to Snow.  Not just little snow 6 – 10 inches back in Portage.  They want to get there before it hits.  I don’t blame them, just wish they could stay longer.

Tuesday’s D&D game starts back next Tuesday, which is exciting.  We were on hiatus for over a month, I think everyone is ready to resume.  At least I didn’t lose any players during that time.  Lost one when we were getting ready to go again, familial obligations, but replaced him almost immediately.  So, we are ready to go.

Sunday’s D&D game is set to start on the 27th.  Not doing the Elite Monster Killer Squad, instead starting over at level 3.  It’s gonna be fun.  I like the low levels cuz there are so many options.  At high level the options dry up.  I now know why there are no high level games on reddit, high level stuff sucks.

Then I am playing in Jason’s game on Friday night.  This coming Friday will be my first game with him as DM.  Its on roll20 and Discord.  I’ve ranted about roll20 enough here, so I won’t bad mouth it again for a while.   I got my character made, except a background.  Jason specifically asked for a background too.  Oh well, I will come up with something.

I got no other games in the works.  I don’t know if I want to run Call of Cthulhu online.  Seems a bit long in the rulebook to try to run online.  I know there are Keeper’s who do it, but they have experience in person before trying it online.  Maybe a fluff game like Tachyon Squadron will be what I need to put the spring back into my gaming step.  Who knows what is gonna be after February.

Cori said she is gonna work on getting her game going.  That’s set for Wednesday nights.  Looking forward to seeing what she can do as a DM.  Especially since she chose to not go the roll20 route and instead is going Theater of the Mind.  It requires a different sort of a lot more work to the ToTM.  You have to be creative in a whole new way and then be able to verbally explain your vision so the players can get the same picture.  I envy her, I wish I could go back and do my first ToTM sessions over again.  I would do things so much better.  Cori knows I got her back though, and any questions she has I will be happy to answer, and any help she needs, I am happy to give.

Supposed to get brutally cold this weekend. Wind chills down to -30ish. So glad I don’t have to go anywhere or do anything Saturday or Sunday.   I mean I go the super coat, but I prefer to not to have to use it.  Hopefully, Teresa won’t chose to go out in it either.

I read too slow, always have.  Never could keep up with the reading in English class in high school.  Always feel behind.  Always failed the quizzes.  Yeah, I would eventually get done, but it would be too late.  Now they would call it a learning disability I believe and give more time for the reading part.  But I have incredible retention.  Even after chemo brain twice, I still have excellent retention.  I have been reading the Call of Cthulhu’s Keeper’s Rulebook and I can remember everything I have read.  And that is heavy reading.  Just what should have took a week or so to read is going on multiple weeks.  No one else I know has any speed problem reading, so its specific to me.  Yay rah.  I’ll get thru the books eventually.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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