Phil didn’t see his shadow

Well, its Groundhog Day, and Phil didn’t see his shadow which supposedly means we have an early spring coming.  For some reason I am awake this morning and watched it on Facebook.  An early spring would be nice, I am already so over winter.  I don’t like being cold.  As I have explained before, since my leukemia, when I get cold, I stay cold.  So bring on Spring.

The temp today is supposed to be mid 40s.  Gonna cause fog as the snow pack starts to melt.  Today should be spotty fog, but tomorrow when its 50 it should be a blanket of fog. Mid 40s and 50 in February, nice.  It’s supposed to be 40something on Monday too.  Then the temp drops back out and we have below normal temps for the foreseeable future.

If everything goes right, I am going to lunch with Drew on Monday.  We are going to the Hildago Mexican Bar and Grill, which is getting incredible reviews.  Looking forward to their fajitas.

4 Days till Biopsy day.  Although its not supposed to be raining or snowing on Wednesday, its still a long drive that I am not looking forward too.   And the ride home is worse cuz I will have a fresh hole in my hip and all the aches and pains associated with that.  They’ll give me a couple ice packs and send me on my way.

I took a break from the web development class yesterday.  I had to decompress all the info that I had learned.  I figure I got about 30% retention, not bad for chemobrain.  I am gonna redo a bunch of the class now that I have the MacBook Air to use.  Today I plan to resume my learning.  I have no clue what we were on when I stopped the other day.  Probably APIs, but we might have gotten past that and I just don’t remember.  Yesterday’s decompression was needed.

Now Amazon is recommending Kingdom Hearts 2.8 Prologue for me to order.   How many Kingdom Hearts did they come out with between 2 and 3?   Oh well, that gives me more gifts to get Teresa.

I am thinking of cancelling all my D&D games.  My heart just isn’t into it right now.  I was all jazzed to run these 2 campaigns, but right now, I am actually dreading game nights.  I already quit Jason’s game, not for any real reason, just didn’t want to play.  Now I am not sure I want to DM.  My players are gonna be upset.  I am sure the reasoning has to deal with my medical issues.  Everything gets messed up due to the cancer.  The anxiety is effecting my mind and causing me to make weird non-normal decisions.  Anxiety sucks, Cancer sucks, not knowing sucks.

In less than 25 days, I will know whether my idea is gonna fly or be squashed.  I found the webhost I am gonna use, Mochahost.  They have the best deal for what I need.  I started collecting content from sources online.   I have actually started working on my idea.  I wasn’t going to put any effort into my idea until I got the results, but I was there and it was there, so I copied some content from a wiki.  Not a lot yet, got a lot more to get.  I figure a little a day then I should have it all copied (there is a lot) by the time I get my results.  Timing everything is what I am trying to do.  I won’t start developing the website until I get the results (or I might, who knows when I am looking for distractions).

In less than 25 days, I will know if I am gonna live or if I am gonna be flogged to death by Dr. Alkhateeb.  Yep, I strongly believe that even if these results are bad, Dr. Alkhateeb will NOT give up.  He will put me thru chemo and do whatever else to try to put me in remission, in the meantime I will probably die.   I’m gonna say it again, I don’t want to die.  I want to live to be crotchety old man.   It’s not going to happen, but I can want it.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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