how to say nothing in 1003 words

The plan to wake up and lay in bed till I fell asleep again failed.  Today I woke at 4:20am and laid there till 6:20 before finally saying screw it and getting out of bed.  I know what is causing my sleep problems, but there is nothing I can do about it.  After Wednesday it should be better or a whole lot worse.  If it gets worse, I go to see Chris for sleep meds.  Right now I can handle 4 or 5 hours at night and a couple naps during the day.  But I can’t last like this.  Got things to do, places to go, people to see.  I don’t want to be a walking (or worse driving) zombie.  I need to start sleeping right again.  I will crawl back into bed in an hour or two and take my first nap.

3 days till Spring is officially here.  YAY.  I know some parts of the country are still getting walloped, but here its warming up, and finally drying up a little.  There is still a bit of snow on the ground, especially where it has been piled over the winter, but that is melting, just slowly.  I’m very happy winter is finally over for us.  And Spring is going to be so nice.  I kind of wish I was still throwing the party at the end of the month, but can’t afford it because of medical expenses.

Ya know that problem I was having with my work project that had me totally befuddled.  Teresa sat down and fixed it in like 2 minutes.  Now before you ask why didn’t I ask Teresa before for help… she said she wanted NOTHING to do with it.  Yesterday she just, out of the blue, volunteered to help.  Said she would watch the video class I watched and help me in any way she can.  My wife is the greatest person alive.   TTRPG.ORG will be up by April 15th with her and google help.

According to the first weight in the morning scale step, I am 208.4.  Still heavier than I want to be, but not at my panic weight of 210.  I really should go back to walking every day, but I have been sitting in my desk chair a whole lot lately and that causes my back to hurt a lot, and then walking makes it worse.  I can take a pain pill, but I don’t like taking the pain pills.  I do not like how they make me feel.  So pain pills are last resort.  So maybe I will go back to walking after I wake up at the ungodly hour in the morning, before I sit, before I start to hurt, something more constructive than catching up on Facebook and Twitter.

A couple of my Aravas players know what is going to happen on Tuesday night, I mean I posted it here and then told them.  They are actually excited about it.  I’m actually excited about it.  That is cool, before my hiatus I didn’t want to touch Dungeons and Dragons, went to ArctiCon and it refired my gaming impulses and zoom I am off running not one but soon to be two campaigns.  The new Hectic, Dungeon Masters to the masses, isn’t afraid to kill characters.  It might just happen on this Tuesday night.

Neven is almost all set to go.  Just have to come up with some non player character names and occupations.  Cuz the plan is for the game to start with running around the city following a family who stopped in various spots on their way out of town and then following them out of town.  Then stuff happens.  Yup, I have been asked by the players of Neven to have “a lot of roleplay”.  So, there will be a lot of roleplay, but there will also be combat and exploration.  It’s all good, I am rating this coming Friday as 50% role play and 50% combat, maybe 60/40.  They got roleplay, combat, then more roleplay.  Should make my players happy.  Oh, and they are young, early 20s, I call them “kids” in a non-negative way.  I just feel old when they get talking about kid things.  Oh well, that’s my problem not theirs.

Danny’s game starts in 10 days.  WOOT.  I have decided to leave Isilva using sword and board.  Matter of style.  I have to design his shield holy symbol. I think I can handle that.  It’s all good.  I guess I am the tank for the party. I am ok with that role.  I am not sure if I will be the leader of group as I am technically an outsider to this group of friends who call themselves Nerds in the Basement.  Technically, I am a Nerd in the Bedroom, but hey those are just words.  Anyhow, I was invited in but I only know Danny, so he is my in guy.  The rest of the Nerds are new to me and I to them.  So, I probably won’t be the leader of the group, and I am fine with that.

So, it turns out that I have a very aggressive form of MDS.  Well, it’s in remission right now so it’s all good for the time being.  However, it can come back at any time and wipe me out.  Fun.  Thus is the reason I am getting these stem cell infusions.  3 of them over the next 3 months.  April, May, and June.  Unless there is a problem, it’s a 2 days thing each time.  And it seems the 2nd day is when I get the infusion, it take 6-8 hours and then they send me home if that is no visible issues.  They are going to start with a “very small” amount to see how I take it and then increase the amount monthly.  So by June I should be getting about half of what I got in the first place.  This is all being done to hopefully make me live longer, I don’t want to die yet, so I guess it’s a good thing.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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