Of all the things, I was so tired last night I thought I would fall asleep quickly, but NO, I laid here for a good hour or more before finally falling asleep, so figure around 12:30 or 1 o’clock before sleep took over. Then I woke up at 6:30. Now some of you might be saying, I do that all the time, well I don’t. As a matter of fact, to keep my bipolar stable, I TRY to keep a very stable sleep schedule 11-8 or 9. Yeah, I try to get 9 or 10 hours of sleep a night, so 5 1/2 or less really sucks. So far mentally, I am handling this well enough, but if this whacked sleep continues, I will go manic. The thing that none of us want to happen. So, Chris takes Tuesdays off, so I will go see him tomorrow and try to get him to write me a script for Restoril. He probably will, he’s a good Physician’s Assistant and a good guy. So, I am not too worried about that.
206 is the weight of the morning. Getting back down to a reasonable weight. No more lasagna in mass for me for a while, maybe just 1 or 2 pieces over the course of a few days. I teetered too close to the 210 mark for a while. 208 is too close in my opinion. In reality, I would like to be back down to 200, but I do not see that happening cuz I like to eat.
I cancelled Aravas tonight. Well, I cancelled it yesterday for tonight. It sounded like 2 people weren’t gonna show. Chris C is buying a new/used car tonight and Edward got a job. Probably going to have to replace Edward, but that should be no problem as Dave B has said he’d love to play in my Tuesday game. So everything will work out just fine. No game tonight, Chris gets a new to him car, Edward got a job, and Dave will get to play after all. I love happy endings/beginnings.
I’m still at a loss of where to go with Neven. I’m gonna end up throwing some crap together at the last minute or just cancelling this week. Technically I am having a medicine reaction, well coming off a medicine reaction. And it’s totally messing me up. I am so tired I can’t think straight. Neven is unfortunately falling under that issue. I am having problems thinking about what the have them do. That is so unlike me. Oh well, if I have to cancel I will. Until I stabilize, I am useless. And a useless DM is just a sad thing.
I’m probably gonna miss my brother’s summer party. It’s just a week and a half after my last stem cell infusion. I will still be dealing with GvHD at that time. Not a good time for me to go party. Kind of bummed about that. I really enjoy my brother’s parties and it gives me a chance to see some of my friends and family that I wouldn’t normally see. But I will get my infusion on the 13th of June and his party is on the 22nd, not going to happen. I wish it was otherwise.
I’m going to talk to Teresa real soon about school, but for now, still no talking to her about it please. I called admissions yesterday. I found out that I have been admitted to the web development program. That I have to do orientation AGAIN (but I think its online this time.) And official letters go out mid-April. So everything is on schedule. Yup, I am just under 5 months away from starting school. I really want to do it this time. It’s exciting and it’s scary. But I am optimistic about it. And if worse comes to worse, I just drop out again and no one is the worse for wear.
I wrote out my tentative schedule for Fall. All my classes fit into a nice little 4 day block, Monday thru Thursday, no class on Friday. Gotta like that. Only 1 class is web-blended, which means it meets on campus for part of it, then the rest you do online. I wanted to avoid web-blended and online classes, but it’s the only wat Digital Marketing is offered. So, I got 1 web-blended out of 6 classes. 16 credit hours. I can do it. No 8am classes either. My tentative schedule is good. I’ll post the full schedule after I get to register and actually get into all the classes I want to.