I wish I was a fish

Of all the things, I was so tired last night I thought I would fall asleep quickly, but NO, I laid here for a good hour or more before finally falling asleep, so figure around 12:30 or 1 o’clock before sleep took over.  Then I woke up at 6:30.  Now some of you might be saying, I do that all the time, well I don’t.  As a matter of fact, to keep my bipolar stable, I TRY to keep a very stable sleep schedule 11-8 or 9.  Yeah, I try to get 9 or 10 hours of sleep a night, so 5 1/2 or less really sucks.  So far mentally, I am handling this well enough, but if this whacked sleep continues, I will go manic.  The thing that none of us want to happen. So, Chris takes Tuesdays off, so I will go see him tomorrow and try to get him to write me a script for Restoril.  He probably will, he’s a good Physician’s Assistant and a good guy. So, I am not too worried about that.


206 is the weight of the morning.  Getting back down to a reasonable weight.  No more lasagna in mass for me for a while, maybe just 1 or 2 pieces over the course of a few days.  I teetered too close to the 210 mark for a while.  208 is too close in my opinion.  In reality, I would like to be back down to 200, but I do not see that happening cuz I like to eat.


I cancelled Aravas tonight.  Well, I cancelled it yesterday for tonight.  It sounded like 2 people weren’t gonna show.  Chris C is buying a new/used car tonight and Edward got a job.  Probably going to have to replace Edward, but that should be no problem as Dave B has said he’d love to play in my Tuesday game.  So everything will work out just fine.  No game tonight, Chris gets a new to him car, Edward got a job, and Dave will get to play after all.  I love happy endings/beginnings.


I’m still at a loss of where to go with Neven.  I’m gonna end up throwing some crap together at the last minute or just cancelling this week.  Technically I am having a medicine reaction, well coming off a medicine reaction.  And it’s totally messing me up.  I am so tired I can’t think straight.  Neven is unfortunately falling under that issue.  I am having problems thinking about what the have them do.  That is so unlike me.  Oh well, if I have to cancel I will.  Until I stabilize, I am useless.  And a useless DM is just a sad thing.


I’m probably gonna miss my brother’s summer party.  It’s just  a week and a half after my last stem cell infusion.  I will still be dealing with GvHD at that time.  Not a good time for me to go party. Kind of bummed about that.  I really enjoy my brother’s parties and it gives me a chance to see some of my friends and family that I wouldn’t normally see.  But I will get my infusion on the 13th of June and his party is on the 22nd, not going to happen.  I wish it was otherwise.


I’m going to talk to Teresa real soon about school, but for now, still no talking to her about it please.  I called admissions yesterday.  I found out that I have been admitted to the web development program.  That I have to do orientation AGAIN (but I think its online this time.)  And official letters go out mid-April. So everything is on schedule.  Yup, I am just under 5 months away from starting school.  I really want to do it this time.  It’s exciting and it’s scary.  But I am optimistic about it.  And if worse comes to worse, I just drop out again and no one is the worse for wear.

I wrote out my tentative schedule for Fall.  All my classes fit into a nice little 4 day block, Monday thru Thursday, no class on Friday.  Gotta like that.  Only 1 class is web-blended, which means it meets on campus for part of it, then the rest you do online.  I wanted to avoid web-blended and online classes, but it’s the only wat Digital Marketing is offered.  So, I got 1 web-blended out of 6 classes.  16 credit hours.  I can do it.  No 8am classes either.  My tentative schedule is good.  I’ll post the full schedule after I get to register and actually get into all the classes I want to.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 49 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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