I need a shrink

I went to bed at 9:30pm last night, fell asleep about 9:45, slept good till about 3:45 and then kept waking up every few minutes, checking the clock, and then going back to sleep cuz it was too early.  Only to do that again 3 minutes later and then 3 minutes later and then 3 minutes later and so on.  Very frustrating, I am very tired this morning, hopefully a nap or perhaps naps will be had today as I have a game to run tonight.  I just wish I could go back to sleeping like I used to… go to bed at 11pm and sleep till 9 or 10am.   I don’t think I am asking too much to just go back to how I have slept for years.  Bleh


207.7 was the reading of the scale this morning.  And the extra weight wasn’t even worth it last night.  It was a Screamin Sicilian Pizza Company Meat Pizza.  I am not a big fan of the all meat pizza, I like their Pepperoni one much better.  But I cooked the Meat Pizza cuz it was for Teresa and I.  It wasn’t bad, but I just don’t care for all the Meat.  Now, the Pepperoni comes with more Pepperoni on it than I thought a frozen pizza would ever have and it takes great.  And for 5.98 at Walmart, you can’t go wrong.


The Augmentin is doing something.  My sinuses feel better already.  Chris (the PA) lied to me and said if I took the Augmentin while I ate it would keep me from having diarrhea.  Guess again.  Oh well, to get rid of said sinus infection, I will live with having to run to the bathroom every now and then.  I do feel better and that was the whole goal of going to see Chris, to feel better.


Neven is so on for tonight.  I figured out what I was going to do with them, wrote it all out so I have a clue tonight.  Once I felt better things just kind of flowed.  So, the party will be ask to do something, and that something will be tough to do.  Yeah, Cori and Chris H both read my blog, so I can’t spill out what is gonna happen here.  Wouldn’t want to spoil their fun.  Leave it to be that they are gonna be facing Giant obstacles (but not Giants).  It’s all good.  Not gonna be much role-play, just a little to keep the “kids” happy, I hope.  Lots of glorious combat.  Right now, I think they are out matched, I think I got to go lower some hit points of monsters.  Heh, I do that every game night, dink with things.


Aravas still sits waiting to be ran.  You miss one week and it seems like forever since you played.  It’s a weird phenomena but you talk to anyone who plays a weekly Dungeons and Dragons game and they will say the same, if you miss a week for whatever reason, the time before the next game is like quadruple time.  It’s strange.  But this will all be fixed on Tuesday.


I still can’t believe that Teresa was so whatever you want to do about school.  Heh, I was all geared up for a long discussion with a lot of good arguments as to why I should get to go only to be deflated by her going, “if that’s what you want to spend your money on.”  Yep, talk about getting prepared for nothing.   But it’s all good.  I should be able to pay for everything after financial aid with the money I get from April, May, June, July, and August.  I should have extra money leftover even.  So I should be fine to pay for everything for 1st semester.  Then 2nd semester will be paid from September, October, November and December.  2nd semester will be 400 dollars cheaper cuz I don’t have to buy the software again.  So should be good there.  Summer will be cheap and I will actually get ahead a little bit.  So, like I have said, financially it’s all good.  Now I just have to be able to do this mentally.  Bipolar and school has never worked well for me.  Not even high school went very well for me.  I am like super intelligent and can catch on to things quickly.  But sitting in a classroom is going to be tough.  BTW, Composition is next summer, so hopefully my paragraphs will stop running on and one.  Anyway, as I was saying, a few weeks, I can handle, but a full semester might be rough. But that is why I want to see a shrink before I try this.


I saw a commercial on TV that talked about a new med for mania but I didn’t catch the name of the med.  It wasn’t important at the time.  However, I can’t find mention of a new mania med online.  So I might have heard wrong, so I want to pick a shrink’s brain for information.  See if he/she knows of a new mania med.  And hopefully doesn’t want to dink with my med cocktail that I take now, that would be bad right before school starts.  Anyhow, I really need a new shrink to prescribe shrink type meds cuz soon Dr. Alkhateeb is gonna start asking why he is still prescribing shrink type meds when supposedly I have been seeing a shrink all along.  (NO, we did not tell him that.  Initially, we told him I was seeing a shrink, and didn’t tell him when I stopped.  So we are guilty of omission not of lying to him).  But really, I am fine as long as someone writes scripts for my meds.  Simple as that.   And if there is a new mania med, I want to try it for school, and hopefully its not a sleep inducing med.  I don’t want to snooze thru my classes.  Anyhow, I am waiting for contact from the Mercy (you remember them, the ones who cured my AML is 2015) Mental Health Coordinator.  His job is to get me all set up with a shrink who is Mercy approved.  I just don’t know how long that is going to take.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 49 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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