I have no idea if WordPress is working this morning.

Well, 2 seconds after I hit Publish on yesterday’s blog pots, Jennifer (the endocrinologist) sent me a message thru the Mayo portal.  I responded.  She responded.  I responded.  Then she called twice.  Increase in Hydro-Cortisone and no Cortisol level on Monday.  I really wanted to be off the Hydro-Cortisone but it doesn’t look like it is going to be happening anytime soon.  Not if coming off it makes me so damn tired that I can’t even think straight.  So, I think I am 8 pills away from being where I was pre-transplant and those eight will stay with me through the stem cell infusions, so I might come off some of them in July/August.

10:15 to 6:10.  So close to 8 hours.  I would have slept longer but I had to use the restroom and when I came back the dogs were all excited for food.  So I had to turn on the desk light and feed the dogs, then I had to take them out for morning doody duty, then treating them for doing said duty.  Yup, a lot happened between 6:12 and 6:19.   Now they are back asleep, and I am awake, but that won’t last long,  I’ll hopefully be back asleep by 7:30, after I write this blog entry.

Scale say 207.2, I ate right before going to bed last night and had 2 Krispy Kreme doughnuts before I stepped on the scale.  So, that is not a completely accurate scale reading in my opinion.  But I’ll take it, it’s still not 210.

I have decided I am gonna wait to see what everyone else is playing, then decide between the Paladin or Rogue for Danny’s campaign.  That is if Danny ever gets around to finding a 5th player, he didn’t try yesterday like he said he would, but that happens.  It’s ok, he has a life and the right to live it.  He’ll find someone, he always does.

If anything, I am feeling even more anxious about the impending stem cell infusions.  Well, not the infusions itself, getting an IV, oh no, what will I do?  Sorry.  It’s the aftermath of the infusions that has me anxious.  I don’t want GvHD again, I rolled those dice once already, I don’t want to roll them three more times.  Just doesn’t seem logical.  Take what appears to be a healthy man and make him sick again.  It has to be a certain form of crazy to be doing this.  And I am going to be doing it THREE times.

Ah, I love my adviser up at DMACC.  I called and emailed him yesterday asking to be squeezed in next Monday, Tuesday, or Wednesday.  I need 2 minutes of his time.  I told him I was going to be in and out of the hospital this summer (truth) and I wouldn’t be able to meet with him until the semester practically started and then I might not get the classes I wanted.  He wrote me back saying he understood my need, but he didn’t need to see me, he wrote (and did) that he opened my account up to be able to register on Monday, yes a couple days from now.  Way cool, Junior.  He broke all sorts of rules for me.  I won’t have to do orientation (again).  I am registering as a returning student (I’m actually a new student).  I’m gonna get all the classes I want.  WOOT.  All thanks to my adviser.

Oh yeah, I cut Management out of my schedule and went from 5 years and 1 semester, to 4 years and 2 semesters.  So, but cutting Management out of my schedule I got back 2 whole semesters.  But I save a lot of student loans, so its all good.

My schedule looks good if you ask me.  I got a lot of semester with just 12 credits.  After the Web Development AAS, the load gets spread out more.  It’s 4 years 2 semesters because I want to do the Video Production Diploma.  If I took that out it’d be less than 4 years I think.  But I want to do it, so bleh, I will be at DMACC for 4 years and 2 semesters.

I talk like I am definitely going, but the reality is, anxiety might rear it’s ugly head again.  And I might not be able to do it.  Odds are definitely against me on this one.  The only times I succeeded was when it was one shots, short classes over the summers.  Every time I have signed up for real school, I have freaked out.  Sylabi are evil.  They tend to cause panic attacks.  I am hoping by spreading them out I won’t have said problem.

My schedule will be Monday – Thursday.  Giving me 3 day weekends.  Which means I fly to Thanksgivingfest this year,  I will look into tickets soon.  Fly out on Friday back on Sunday.  Yeah, I can do that.  So, I should be a Thanksgivingfest this year.  Assuming Bruce will pick me up and drop me off at the airport.

Classes start August 21 and go thru Dec 12 (I think).  Then school starts back up mid-January and goes till beginning of May.  Then Summer is from End of May till Beginning of August.  I am already dreading winter, even if we have a nice winter this year, within the 4 years I will be there, there is bound to be one really nasty winter.  Summers are gonna suck too, the heat and humidity are gonna be killer.  Am I sure I want to do this?  Sure, cuz Fall and Spring in Iowa are really nice, wet, but nice.

Oh, sidebar, I found out the name of the anti-mania med.  But I forgot it.  LOL, anyway its apriprozole the same med that is abilify, just at 3 times the dose.   So, when I finally get into see said shrink, I will hit him up for the anti-mania med to get me into school.  That is all I want.

Right now, school anxiety is practically zero, stem cell infusion anxiety is thru the roof.  And I still have quite a bit of worry anxiety for that which is not mine to share.  I just hope it’s not a serious problem.


WordPress isn’t allowing me to link a video.  Weird.  I’ll try one more time.  NOPE.  Sorry, no video this morning.  The video I was trying to post is Simple Plans, “Welcome to my Life”  Well, you actually get the video twice.  LOL.  I dont see it at all.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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