went to bed too late, up way too early

Went to bed at midnight, got up at 5:45am.  Yeah, pretty stupid of me.  I am one tired dude.  This is after a no nap yesterday.  In my defense, I tried to go back to sleep at 5:45 but couldn’t.  I WILL be napping later.

But the real question is, why was he up at midnight…  The guy who goes to bed at 9pm sometimes.  Well, I started playing Skyrim again and got into the main storyline where you have to go kill Alduin.   Well, I killed Alduin and then looked at the clock and it was 11pm and I hadn’t taken my night pills yet.  DOH.  Well, my night pills do two things for me, give me a little burst of energy and then usually let me go to sleep.  So, popping my meds at 11pm, I finally went to sleep at midnight.


Again, another promised storm day that kind of fizzled, well not kind of, I am not even sure it rained.  Yesterday was just cold, high of 55.  Today is supposed to be in the 70s again.  The weather is being weird, welcome to Iowa.


Teresa does not want me to go see Chris for my knee, which has been bothering me for almost a week now.  She keeps saying “Welcome to getting old.”  Well, I agree it’s a getting old issue, it’s not getting better.  Resting pain is a 2 or 3, bending pain is a 4 or 5, and pressure on a bended knee is a 7 or 8.  Nothing like coming back to bed in the middle of night and crawling in with my right knee in the front.  OH CRAP, well, now I am awake and in pain.  And for the record, it is slightly swollen.

Anyhow, seeing Chris will cost 30 dollars and the price of the X-ray(s).  30 dollars today, they will bill for the radiology.  It’s not like we can’t afford it, and it’s not like I am not going to reach my minimum anyway.   I really should go and at least get it checked out.  I still don’t know what I did to it, how I hurt it, but it hurts and I’d hate to think I really hurt it.


Hopefully today I will get to take my ALEKS math placement test.  If it doesn’t let me I call the Registrar and see if they can do something for me.  My old placement expired yesterday, hopefully it has cleared the system.  I want to get it done and over and get registered for my Bus 112 Business Math class.  After I finish my blog entry here, I will go check.  I am too tired to do math right now, but I can go see if it’ll let me.

As of now, neither my English class nor my Philosophy class have enough people signed up for them.  Would suck if either of them (or both) are cancelled.  It would totally screw my big schedule up, not to mention I would have to scrambled to find classes to fill the blanks.

Anxiety is very high.  I hate having an anxiety disorder.  It makes normal things seem impossible.  But I conquered Cancer twice, I should be able to do this.  I am strong.  Screw anxiety and screw bipolar, I refuse to be defined by them any more.


Dr. Alkhateeb’s office moved our appointment from the 22nd to the 10th of May.  Had to be moved cuz school starts on the 21st.  They still have use at blood draw at 7:20am, and they still have my bone marrow biopsy early in the morning which we asked them the change.  But at least there was no hassle in changing the day.  Oh, the 10th was chosen because I am getting my first immunization shot and It takes 10 days to be effective.  The 11th was a Saturday.

Dr. Alkhateeb said after this biopsy we are going to see him every month, they’ll have to get used to seeing me on Fridays again.  Because that is the only day I have free in Summer or Fall.   I actually made my schedule with 1 day free specifically for medical reasons.  That kind of is sad that I had to think of that.  But it’s my reality.


Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 49 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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