Just a guy trying to go to College

Still going to bed too late and getting up to early.  Seems to be a pattern for me.  I was up till 11pm (which for me is late) and then woke up at 6am for no reason.  You may think 7 hours of sleep is enough, not for me, I am one tired dude.  I plan on napping at sometime today, maybe half way thru this blog entry. lol.  No seriously, I got hit with a wave of tiredness just before I started writing this entry and probably should have not started writing and taken a nap right now instead.  But since I started, I guess I will write this and then take my nap.

Still playing Skyrim.  Still having fun again.  Playing an Orc this time instead of a Khajitt (or however they spell the cat persons).  My orc is a heavy armor wearing, Warhammer wielding, enchanting machine.  I started him last night, got him to level 4, now he is level 11.  But he is dropping most bad things with one hit of his Warhammer, so it’s all good.  I am very glad to be back playing Skyrim and again I say if you have never played, pick it up off Steam, whatever you pay, it’s worth it.  And obviously, according to Hectic, it has replayability after being away from it for a while.

Beautiful day out today, the sun is shining, the birds are actually singing,  It’s a nice spring day.

I am gonna go see Chris (my PA) on Monday or Wednesday if my knee doesn’t start feeling better.  It hurts all the time to varying degrees, and Pucky keep trying to lay on my knees.  10 pounds of chihuahua is a lot on a bad knee.  I need to find out if I somehow really screwed it up or if it’s just I am getting old and things are gonna hurt.  I think and x-ray is in order and some careful poking and prodding of the knee.

I tried to take the ALEKS test yesterday but it still wouldn’t let me take it again, so on Monday I call up to the school to see what can be done.  I guess I start with Registration and they can send me to whoever I need to speak to.  I really thought that the day after expiration of the old ALEKS test would let me in, but NO, not me, says Test Expired 4/18/19 but gives no option to take it again that I can find.  Stupid ALEKS test, I didn’t want to take you yesterday anyway.

I have looked, there are no classes I need this summer that will work to fill the English nor the Philosophy classes.   So, if either gets cancelled, I drop till Fall.  Will take me hours to figure out where to stick them and the Math class in my revised several times over schedule.  I really have no wiggle room anywhere, it worked out to perfect semesters.

Anxiety is going up every day, as is my resolve to do this.  All the little things that keep adding to the anxiety (the ALEKS test, possibility of my classes being cancelled) just are adding to my resolve.  I can do this, I will do this.  Screw the anxiety,  Screw the Bipolar.  I think this time is the time I actually get to do this.  Get there, get busy, forget about anxiety, quit using bipolar as an excuse.  Yeah, let me at it.

Teresa wants to get up at 3am on the 10th and drive to Mayo to be there by 7:20am.  I want to drive up on the 9th, sleep in a bed at the transplant house, and attack the day after I get a good nights sleep.   I will lose this debate as I always do.  It’s so not worth getting into an argument over.  And Teresa is the one who does all the driving, so she should get to decide.  So, calculations, to get sleep to get up at 3am, I have to go to bed about 7pm.  Restoril to the rescue if I am not tired.

And we get to go thru this every month for the next several, cuz I have to get ALL my baby shots (immunizations) and they can’t or won’t give them all at once.  So, like a baby, I get my shots slowly every month.  The one I want is MMR and that one in normally given last.  I better not get measles or I am going to be pissed.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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