not quite randomosity

I finally crawled out of bed for the day at 5am this morning.  A little less than 5 hours sleep.  A nap or two will be in order today.   I don’t know what is up with my not being able to sleep like I used to.  I think I am going to start trying to go to bed a little earlier, then when I wake up ridiculously early, I will have at least gotten 6 or 7 hours of sleep.

I’ve taken to getting up and going to my computer and turning on just 1 of the monitors to try not to disturb Teresa’s sleep.  The TV at the end of the bed blocks most of the light and it takes a lot more than a little light to disturb her.  So, yeah, I just quietly play my game until she wakes up.

The depression still has me in a chokehold.   This is the longest active depression that I have had in a long time.  Even if I got to see a shrink, I don’t know what they could do for me.  I can’t take anti-depressants because they make me manic.  And manic is worse than depressed.  So mostly, we just watch and wait for something to change.  I supposed I can do that without paying a shrink as long as Dr. Alkhateeb still continues to write my mental med prescriptions.

OK, my cough is primarily asthma.  Yeah, it sucks to have that back after 25 years of not having it.  But I really believe that reflux is exasperating the cough.  I cough in general little minor coughs all day, but cough a ton right after I eat.   The Prilosec seems to be helping a little.  I need to go in for an upper GI and see if I really have reflux.  It just makes sense though.  My surgery was “guaranteed” for 10 years in May of 2004.  So, I would have gotten 15 years out of it.  Now I probably have sprung a leak.  Nothing major, just causing me to cough.

Teresa made chicken and broccoli last night for dinner.  Like beef with broccoli, except with chicken and chicken appropriate flavoring.   It was delicious.   She is such a great cook.

Right now I weight 207.8 lbs.   I’m happy with that.

Skyrim:  Catya, my newest Kajiit warrior/thief got the Oblivion Walker achievement yesterday, getting the wood elf blood while doing the quest for the ebony mail.  Worked out beautifully.  Now she is level 35 and just returned the skeleton key to the Twilight Sepulcher.  I had been using Marcurio as my follower.   But somehow he disappeared in the mid-20s and was never seen again.   So instead I got the follower guy from Raven Rock who kicks butt even better than Marcurio did (I forget the guys name though).   I am about to embark on doing the little jobs to become guild master of the thieves’ guild.  Then I will do the Dark Brotherhood questline.  Then I don’t know which questline I am going to do, maybe the imperial unification quests.  Get rid of Jarl Ulfric.  I should be well into my level 40s by the time I finish the Dark Brotherhood questline.

I will check and see if there are any more achievements that I can pick up easily with her.   Maybe the unlock all 20 shouts.  I’ve come close before but never actually done it yet.  That means I will have to do the Dawguard questline and take on the vampires, probably do that before the imperial stuff.  Don’t want to take on the head vampire tuned up to level 50+.

Next Mayo appointment is on June 10th.   Another pulmonary function test and a visit with a pulmonologist are on the schedule.  I don’t want to do either.  I do not think they are necessary.   Perhaps I will send Dr. Alkhateeb a message saying I don’t want that test or visit.  Yeah, that is what I will do.  Also, with my depression in full swing, my pulmonary function test will be all messed up.  So, shouldn’t do that then.

Dr. Alkhateeb also is going to be upset that I never got the blood tests he wanted.  But he doesn’t live in my head, so nertz on him.  He can be upset.  He’s a big boy, he’ll get over it.

The lowering of my hydro-cortisone is going well so far.  Well, as well as a depressed person can show he has energy.  I’m not dragging butt.  I can get up and move around and such.  I think we are good this time.  Just 3 more lowerings to go.

I’m hungry, I am going to go find breakfast.  You all have a day.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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