Hey it is not sad this time

WordPress just informed me that I have made 500 blog posts to Hectic’s Blog About Stuff.  Considering I have tried blogging before and never got past 5 or 6 posts, I think this is an accomplishment.  It started as a blog about school and the anxiety I had about going, which I never did.  This blog has helped me think through a lot of things.  I am sure I would have ended up in a wacko ward at some point had I not been able to write it out.

My writing style has changed considerably over the last few years.  Significantly because of the 2 bouts of cancer I had (3rd one is gonna kill me).  But also because I got a lot of practice in writing.

At the end of the year(beginning of next year) WordPress is going to charge me like 70 dollars for this url and hosting for a year (instead of the $30 I was paying).  Something about they aren’t doing free urls to bloggers who pay anymore.  BAH.  Oh well, I will still have time left to write so I will kick up the cash so to speak.  But I don’t have to like it.

I woke up at 6am this morning cuz my back went back into spasm.  Lots of pain again.  Not happy about that at all.  I recall Teresa waking me around 4am to give me a Tramadol for my back, so I cant take one of my Norco for another couple hours.  DOH.  I guess I will just hurt for a few more hours.  I’d rather be sleeping, but laying down hurts worse.

Well, it looks like I am Never going to get to use my Ordainship credentials.  By the time I got my name out there and got everything set up, I’ll just get sick again.  So, I just have them and that is that.  Reverend Father Jeffrey A Campbell will have done nothing.  I’m okay with that I guess.  Just more money I spent towards the end.  Heh, I could have spent it on more worthless things.

Teresa found her prescription for clonazepam.  Last night is the first time she has taken it in quite a while.  Last night was really bad for her, so I am glad she found something to take away the pain and sacredness and anxiety.  Anyhow, after she took it, she got sort of funny with gallows humor.  So, we laughed and cried together.  It turned into a pretty good night after that.  (Not counting my back).

I turn 49 in 3 days (on the 6th).  Stuff is happening before that this week and after than this week.  Monday at 1pm I get my permanent crown installed.  Then at 3:30pm I see my shrink.  Hope the crown goes in easy and quick. Tuesday I am doing absolutely nothing, until Teresa gets home from work, then we are driving to Ankeny for Fong’s Pizza.  Wednesday and Thursday are open, might try to snag lunch with Drew since I didn’t get to last week and maybe I will give Jon Liebl a call for the other day lunch.  It’s always nice to get out of the house.  Then Friday… Teresa has a doc appointment at 8am.  After that we drive to Mayo so I can get #15 tooth pulled, have to be there at 3pm so we have plenty of time to get there.  Then it’s the 8 hour drive to the Region from Mayo.  It’s a long drive that we have done the other direction before.  Then Saturday night is the party.  No, I did not choose to have tooth pulled the day before my party, they are squeezing me in as it is.  Then, depending on when my appointment for the DLI stuff is on Monday is whether we leave Sunday during the day or Monday EARLY morning.  I am voting for Sunday and taking our time.  But Teresa is in charge of driving.

I better end this now.  My mind just went into a sad sad place and I don’t feel like crying.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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