Bah, the downward march continues

I still haven’t slept.  I am on a  week with a grand total of 3 hours of sleep, and those 3 not together.  I am super tired and I don’t think I am making complete sense when I speak.  As I write this I am going back and reading what I type 3 times to make sure I am not typing nonsense.  Last night I took 2 Restoril and I might as well have taken nothing.  I have this happen, this insomnia streak, every so often, longest has been 14 days, so I am half way to breaking my record.  So just a heads up, if you chat with me, don’t expect sharp and funny Jeff, cuz he checked out a few days ago, replaced by incomprehensible babbly Jeff.

Got my weekly blood test today instead of yesterday cuz I am in no shape to drive and Teresa couldn’t take me yesterday.  Well, my platelets went from 41 on Monday to 38 today, my white blood cells are down a whole point, and my hemoglobin is down .4.  Meaning that my celebration for the DLI working was very premature.  My blood numbers are still on the way down.  Part of me was thinking these DLIs would catch quickly and stop the downward trend and keep me from having to get platelets and blood.  Silly me, thinking something good would happen to me.

My mom didn’t even get to look a the house she wanted to see.  The house was on the market for 3 days before being gobbled up.  So, she is back to looking, hopefully her realtor will be on the ball and taking her to houses on the day they become available.  Mom says not to worry, she will have a house and be moved in before my party in August.  I am not worried about my party, I just want my mom to be happy and safe.  All those stairs at my brother’s house are too much for her knees.  No offense mom, but you are not a spring chicken anymore.

Speaking of Mom and Jim.  They have volunteered to drive me to Oklahoma to fulfil my little Bucket List.  I guess they are going to drive here, rest for a day or two, then drive me to Oklahoma for my Western Bacon Cheeseburger at Carl’s Jr.  Then crash the night.  Get up late and go have a Macho Combo Burrito and Chili Fries for Del Taco.  Yeah, silly bucket list, but when you aren’t rich, you do what you can.  We haven’t discussed dates for this yet or particulars about the trip.  I just think it is cool that it’ll be the 3 of us doing something silly again, just like in the old days.  It’s going to be fun.

My friend Cathy volunteered a place for me and someone to stay (I assume her home) in Oklahoma.  It was cool when it was me and a friend, but since it’s my whole family (minus Teresa) I think we would be imposing.  Thank you Cathy but I think we will get a hotel room and all will be good.

Now the question on the table is will I run Aravas, my Dungeons and Dragons campaign on day 11 of no sleep.  No, by day 11 I will be in the ER going slightly crazy begging for something to knock me out.  Maybe the will happen on day 9.  And I will get some sleep with hospital sleep meds.  I just don’t want to be put in a wacko ward.  I’m not crazy(er than normal) I just can’t sleep.  I just need some sleep.  Something has to break and I hope it’s not me.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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