I am still alive

I firstly want to post that I am still alive.   I haven’t been posting and barely reading Facebook much the last several days.   The chemo I had two weeks ago has me wiped out.  When I am able to function, there are other things that I have to get done, so please don’t be upset with me for not posting every other day and maybe making a few of my friends begin to really worry.  And also, for the future, I will be showing Teresa how to make a post in case I do pass away, but we are hoping that is not too soon.

Even baby chemo sucks, but at least it won’t make me lose my hair or give me those terrible mouth sores.  Just dealing with quite a bit more fatigue than usual.  And as most of you know, I was a lazy bum before the chemo, now I am just a bit more lazy.

Had a blood test today, my hemoglobin was 10.6 but my platelets are down to 62.  Weird, both of those were suppose to crash hard last week and only the platelets did.  We shall see how it turns out next week when I have my blood test done again.

I have played some Skyrim: Special Edition, got to have some fun in my life.   I have a Khajiit dual handed warrior up to level 41.  Almost has all the parts of all the shouts.  Has 42 dragon kills, and really kicks butt.

I have a level 20something Orc Warhammer warrior.  She is mean and green.

and I finally got around to seriously playing a Nord.  Currently level 9, but has at least 3 levels stored up.  I didn’t want to trigger a quest/event I wasn’t ready for.  And I probably will leave her at level 9 for a while, because its not level 10.

This morning I tried a mage for 14 levels.  I was bored.  I like slice and dice or smash, that is my style.  However, I should be able to play a rogue (lockpicking/picking pockets), would probably be Argonian ( Lizard folk) or Khajiit (Humanoid Cat).

I have lost a lot of weight.  I dropped from size 40 pants down to size 36 again.  The size I was when we got married.  Yes, I still have a gut and yes, I still have the second chin (both are hereditary), but I decided I dont really care about my weight anymore.  I will weigh what I way and that  is that.

Oh Christmas happened.  I got Teresa a new iPad, that was my big secret.  We also got ourselves a new UHD 55″ Samsung TV (55″ is what fits at the end of the bed or we probably would have went bigger, but 55″ is fine for us).  I got CD holders, a new holdy thing for my cell phone in my car (not that I have driven since September), a charger for my cell phone/Airbuds, and watch, and a thingy that was supposed to hold things next to the bed, which was too tall for our bed, so it went to the couch instead.  And of course, I got myself this new laptop which lets me play Skyrim: Special Edition on Ultra.

The only TV I have watched in recent history (not counting TV just being on, I mean actually watching) is the Mandorian on Disney Plus.  I haven’t watched wrestling or anything else I really enjoyed before.  I don’t know why I haven’t watched TV, it’s not like I don’t have plenty of time.  TV just isn’t a priority now.

I’m fatigued but not sleeping well.  In the last few weeks I haven’t slept past 5:30am and I have been staying up till midnightish most nights.  I haven’t really been napping much either,  It’s beginning to get to me.  I need something to help me sleep.  Chris (the PA) won’t prescribe Restoril for me.  So, it looks like I might be going back to Ambien.  It’s all good, I was on Ambien for 16 years with no weird effects and quit it without any withdrawal, so I am not afraid to go back on it.  The question is which doc (or PA) will prescribe it.

2019 sucked.  But I said that about 2018 and 2017.  2020 has to be a better year.  Even though I have at least 3 months of chemo in 2020.  It also potentially has a second stem cell transplant which would mean another 100 days in Rochester.  All that is ok, puts it on par with 2018, which sucked, but not as bad as 2019.  I have made decisions that will help 2020 be a better year.  I hope that it come to pass.

So, with well over 750 words, I will now depart.  Let me go find a video to include.  It’s just not right without a video.

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

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