in 10 hours and 29ish minutes, I will be playing Mit Haustieren, the gnome Battle Smith, in Jason’s Dungeons and Dragons Eberron game. Not like I am counting down or anything. I am just excited about playing in this game. I have heard some great stories from Cori and now that my mind is in the right place, I want great stories too. I am excited about the game, but I am more excited about getting to play Mit. He is just so cool, with his steel St Bernard Rufus and his owl Osiris. Gonna be a blast paying him. His main mission in life is to find magic item recipes and then find the rare items to make these recipes. And to kill some bad things on the way. Yup, Mit is going to be fun and the game is gonna be great. I will, of course, have a review/summary of the game here tomorrow.
I have felt like crap the last 3 nights. Just totally exhausted/fatigued. Today I am planning a day of rest until game time. Not that it will be much different than any other day, but today I am going to sleep, just waiting for 9am to take my meds, then its off to sleep again. Maybe I will eat something before 9am, maybe I won’t. I have put on some weight I can afford to lose. Skip breakfast, lite lunch, good sized dinner. Yup, that sounds like a plan. Just sleep, maybe that’ll make me feel better tonight.
I did cancel my running of one shots of Dungeons and Dragons on Friday nights. Dr. Wehbe said I was trying to do too much and the new me doesn’t have the energy of the old me,, so something had to give. So I will play on the Gang Gaming Server, but I will not run. Too much mental stress involved in getting even a one shot together, for me, its tiring. So, until I am off chemo and have some energy, I won’t be running games on Friday night.
That also means that my plan to run games on Sunday afternoon is gone. Right now there is no way I could run a Dungeons and Dragons campaign on Sunday afternoon and then play on Sunday night. I would be so wiped out. So, I have come to the conclusion that unless something changes in my metabolism, I will NOT be running a game on Sunday. Which is a bummer.
That leaves my Tuesday Dungeons and Dragons campaign, Maloon. I figure running one game won’t hurt that bad. Maybe. I hope. So far Maloon has been a breeze for me to set up and run. I know what I want to do and where things are going. I’m actually ahead in preparation (which will probably all be change right before execution, but that is just how I roll). So, its minimal stress. It’s all good.
So, to sum up all that. No running on Friday or Sunday. Running on Tuesday and playing on Sunday and maybe Wednesday if Cori ever gets her stuff together.
On April 1st, 2015 I was diagnosed with Acute Myleoid Leukemia (AML), over the course of 3 days I went from being tired to get chemo. My 30 day induction started before I really understood what as going on. I have very few memories of induction because I got very sick during it, like life or death sick. So my mind has totally taken all those memories away. But I survived it (obviously).
Over the course of the next several months, I spent alternating weeks in the hospital for infections and consolidation chemo. I have memories of the consolidation chemo runs. But they are all jumbled together and mixed with the infection hospital stays. So, I can’t separate one from the other.
I finished consolidation in October of 2015. At the time 2015 was the worst summer of my life (2018 topped it with 108 days straight up at Mayo). I survived it and even thrived a little in 2016. But all hell broke loose in 2017 and that brings me to where I am now 5 years after the cancer was first discovered I am still plodding along. Not may people live 5 years past AML. Not many people live 2 years past transplant with MDS. I live still. Not exactly sure how or why. But I live.
I know my days are numbered. That each treatment that works adds a few months, maybe a few years to my life. But eventually my luck will run out. And that will be the end of me. Until then, its chemo and all that stuff I talked about yesterday. I did this kind of backwards, should have talked about 2015 first and then the future. Heh. Oh well.
So, instead of being down about this crap. I’m gonna throw a party every August. First one was the NOT DEAD YET party last year. This year will be the STILL NOT DEAD YET party (assuming there is not a relockdown from the Corona Virus). Last year, I had friends from as far back as 2nd grade show up. These parties are my F*CK YOU to death and I plan on having one every year until I can’t. So buckle up boys and girls, we party on August 8th this year.
And so it goes. Tonight I play.