Good Night but not good bye

Heh, the only thing Happy about this New Year is I am spending the time with Teresa. Other than that 2020 is over, and 2021 is about to begin. Yay. rah. 2020 was another in a long line of sucky years following other sucky years. And no, I did not die in 2020. 2021 will be the year thanks to Cancer #3.

Now, there is no more chemo to try. There is no miracle cure for Cancer #3. As a matter of fact Cancer #3 is 100% fatal. So you are now reading the blog of a might as well be dead blogger. Lucky you.

I should, however. live long enough for my mom’s visit in January. not sure if Jim is gonna make even part of said trip. Mom plans to stay 2 weeks. Tying my 14 days I spent on vacation when they lived on McCool in Portage.

I really would love to see the mountains where they live now in Colorado. But I am grounded. No going anywhere non-medical for me. And even then, most of my medical stuff is done by Shanon, the home health nurse.

Next medical thing is blood infusion Saturday at 10am. 1 unit just to hold me over the rest of the weekend. 3 hoursish including cross and matching of my whacked out blood. Computer goes along on that trip. Still playing Skyrim: Special Edition.

Tuesdays plan thru me for a loop. Teresa and the home health people are coming to discuss Hospice Even the though of Hospice care sends me for an anxiec loop. I broke into tears trying to tell my mom about it. Oh well, I got til Tuesday at 2pm to get my crap together and not freak out at the word Hospice.

So, 2021 is starting out crappy, why shouldn’t it? The only difference I see between 2020 and 2021 is I won’t survive 2021. Don’t worry about knowing or not, I’ll show Teresa how to do a blog to say my final good bye.

Speaking of good bye… good night. I would say I will try to write more often, but truth is I suck. So just good night with no inferred promises

Author: Jeff Campbell

I am 50 year old guy, who beat blood cancer but is getting his butt kicked by bone marrow cancer. At this point it appears I am dying. Married and in love with the most wonderful woman in the world (27 years). She has stood by me thru a lot of crap and I love her so.

One thought on “Good Night but not good bye”

  1. Jeff don’t let anyone choose your actions but you & Theresa. I keep praying for you. You made it through 2020. Still praying for a miracle. I hope you have sunshine there. Here in Indiana it is freezing rain and icy. Stay warm with Theresa and you fur babies. When you look at the dragon I gave to you know I will continue to pray for that miracle for you. Peace & Love to you both.


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