His bark is worse than his bite.

Well, the good news is I feel a bit better.  Not coughing as much.  No fevers, no chills.  Just sitting here chilling trying to learn CSS.  I didn’t sleep much last night cuz of coughing though.  And I failed miserably on first attempt at napping.  Then second attempt at napping was interrupted by Mojo going nuts cuz he heard something outside.  Mojo likes to bark, he’s not yippy like a lot of Chihuahuas, he barks a real bark considering he is only 7.5 lbs it’s pretty impressive.


Learning CSS isn’t going so well for me.  I watch the video, I try to follow along, my html and style sheets look just like the ones from the teacher.  Why in the hell won’t mine work?  I am not a complete neophyte to the web design world, this should come easy for me.  I’m too far out to blame it on chemo brain.  I blame it on sloppy coding on my part.  I have a tendency to miss a lot of > keys.  That means the thought doesn’t close and it screws everything after it up.  I’m sure if I take a short break I can go back and find my mistake and get it right.  UGH.  Should be easy.


The last thing on the video that the instructor said was “Get it, Got it, Good.  See you in JavaScript.”  Eek.  I am still back in CSS 101.  But it’s all good.  I am sure I know what I need in CSS for JavaScript, if I do need something.  Confused.  Teach me to try to learn from a series of videos.


Way back when, I had created  desert-rat <dot> net.  (that url goes to someplace I don’t have permission to see now) I did everything I wanted to do on that site purely in html (there was no CSS then).  The only resource I used was a 13 year old girls page where she explained it all for us older (I was 21ish) folks.  Now to make a good website you have to use HTML, CSS, and apparently JavaScript.  So, I breezed thru the html part of this video series.  Heh, CSS not so.


Glutton for punishment me signed up for next class in the series, ADVANCED WEB  DESIGN.  It said it was for intermediate web developers.  Well, after I finish the first class (got a lot to go) I should be able to handle the second one (HA HA HA).  The good news is, I have forever to take the 2nd class, so if I don’t feel I am ready I can’t just put it off.


I want to be outside, it’s a gorgeous day, but alas, I am sure the minute I go out the door <COUGH COUGH COUGH>.  I said I was feeling better.  Not well.  But better.  Mama Campbell didn’t raise any stupid children, I am not gonna try outside yet.


it’s 3 o’clock and I haven’t eaten anything except a couple handfuls of Gummi Peaches.  Well, I am not hungry.  I wonder what Teresa is going to bring home for dinner.  I hope we can agree on something we both like.  What I am really in the mood for is lasagna, not just any lasagna… the world’s greatest lasagna.  But it takes too long to make, so it can’t be done on a weekday.  Maybe I can convince Teresa to go to the store and get the stuff for it.  She still is a little on the sick side too, so she will probably say she isn’t up to going to the store and I totally understand.


It still feels kind of weird logging back into WoW.  I quit with zero intention of ever going back.  I guess I never should have said never.  A good portion of my characters were booted from their guilds which was not surprising.  All that guild rep down the drain.  Heh.  I deleted a few characters that I was never going to play last night, and I am probably going to delete more today/tonight.   Perhaps I will get to play Pugno with Teresa’s Death Knight tonight, if we are collectively feeling up to it.  She knows this new expansion fairly well.  I quit like 2 days after the expansion went live.  I still don’t like the Legion expansion, but I am gonna play it, cuz my wife asked me to… sorta.


OK, I couldn’t pick a single song to post today.  So here is WatchMojo’s worst cover songs.

Another day, more coughing

New day, same sickness.  I cough, therefore I am.  I think I am getting better though, as long as I don’t get up.  Getting up makes me super dizzy.  Even when I get up slow.  This is my biggest complaint about this illness, dizziness sucks.  But the cough is sounding better and the nose isn’t running quite as much, so I should be better by Monday, I hope I am better by Monday.

Teresa at times seems to be feeling better but at other times she seems to be worse.  I don’t know if I trust these doctors you can see online.  But the doctor did get her amoxicillin and that is what a real in your face doctor would have probably given her.  So I shouldn’t complain about him.  I just hope she gets better soon, I hate seeing her suffer like this.


I feel bad about cancelling Friday night D&D last night.  I think my players are more than ready to end this story arc.  And no, the current one didn’t suck, it’s just I think the next piece of the campaign is a little cooler cuz I know more about balancing fights/party.


I got a new project in the works.  I can’t talk much about it yet.  But I am pretty excited right now.  Get me off my butt and out into the real world again.  That will make me happier and make my therapist happier too.  And it might make me a little money to boot.  But until it is a little more than thoughtware, I am not gonna say any more.


It just dawned on me that Light the Night is next weekend. They still need a lot of volunteers.  I hope the local LLS chapter gets the people they need to fill the volunteer roles so they don’t have to cover stuff themselves.  Oh yeah, I have the link to my page if you want to donate to the Light the Night walk & the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.   http://pages.lightthenight.org/ia/DesMineL17/JCampbellahi   It’s nice that WordPress sees that as a url and makes it clickable.  Any donations will be greatly appreciated.


I am sure I made the right choice decided NOT to go to school in the Spring.  Especially if this winter is going to be as bad as they are predicting.  Yeah, every year they say it’s going to be bad, but after last years non-winter, I think this year we are due for a doozy.  We shall see in a couple months.


Pucky and Mojo have completely recovered from their teeth cleaning.  Mojo’s mouth was puffy til late last night, but he had 5 teeth extracted, and if you had 5 teeth extracted all at once, you’d be puffy for a few days too.  But now they are playing and chewing on things and eating dry food and generally back to normal.  No more vet visits til December when Mojo’s shots are due.


Got our furnace fixed yesterday.  Took the repair guy less than 1/2 hour to fix it.  Somehow water got into a tube that is not supposed to have water in it.  He was confused, I felt like crap so I didn’t offer any theory and still don’t have a theory as to how that happened.  But he found the problem and boom it was blowing hot air.  NICE.  He only charged us for 1/2 hour service call too.  So doubly NICE.


I haven’t played any computer games for longer than 5 minutes in the last 3 days.  I must really be feeling rotten cuz that is so unlike me.  Lack of attention span.  Even these blog posts are taking me a LONG time to write cuz I keep getting distracted.  LOL.  Yesterday’s took me over 2 1/2 hours.   This one, at least, is gonna be done in about 45 minutes I think.


I did go to play Mutant Football League today and for some reason the game wouldn’t see my controller.  The computer did, but the game didn’t.  I have no clue how to fix it.  It’s obviously not the controller or the computer, so its something with the game.  I’ll try it again tomorrow and if it doesn’t work I will appeal to the beta board.


It seems the Publisher’s Clearing House did not have a winner match this time for 1000 dollars a day.  They sent me like 4 things stating this fact.  I have no clue when they are gonna draw it again or even if they are gonna draw it again.  But heh, I could use 1000 dollars a day.  Even if after the government got done I would only 570ish.  It would still be nice.  But what has really piqued my interest is the December giveaway, 2.6 million upfront and 5k a week for life.  Yeah, I could be happy with that kind of money and income even after the government takes their share.  I will never win, but a boy can dream, right?


The first puzzle arrived today, neither of us felt like working on it.  So the box is sitting on the table, basically untouched.  Well, wait, I think Teresa looked at the box when she was passing by it.  But beyond that, I touched it getting it out of the bigger box it was in, Teresa touched it when passing by, and the rest of the time it just sat there.  Maybe I’ll break into it tomorrow if I am feeling better.


I still have a lot to talk to Teresa about, and she still isn’t healthy enough for me to talk about everything I want to talk about with her.  She actually took a 1/2 hour nap at 8:45pm tonight.  1.  She never takes naps 2.  She never nods off and 3.  She never naps that late at night if she does nap.  She is still very sick in my opinion and hardly getting better.


Well folks, it’s late.  I am late taking my meds.  So I will leave you with a video again… which one will it be?

I’m alone and it’s weird

It is quiet and lonely in the house this morning.  The dogs are at the vets, Teresa is at work, I am here, possibly for the first time ever, totally alone in my house (we have always had pets since we moved here).  It’s a weird feeling, I almost don’t know what to do with myself.  I don’t think being this alone is good for me.  Weird stuff is running thru my brain.


Teresa’s car needed a jump this morning.  We jumped it, I let it sit for an hour, even took it for a little drive around a couple blocks.  Teresa took my car to work.  After the hour, I turned the car off and it started right up.  I am like cool.  I shut it off again, then went inside for a while.  Did I mention it’s 43 degrees and raining fairly hard?  I went back out 20 minutes later.  Tried to start it, DEAD again.  Luckily we live only a few blocks from the place that fixes our cars and they are cool people.  Called them up and they sent a guy over with a jump pack to jump the car.   We jumped it real quick and then I drove it over to the repair place.  They then gave me a ride home after telling me they will check everything and give me a call with a price.  What a morning.  I am waiting now for said call.  Alone, in my home, having weird thoughts.


My lunch that was tomorrow, got moved to Thursday, but then I was reminded that I have a cancer blood check appointment on Thursday, so that rules Thursday out.  Friday is shrink appointment, so that rules Friday out, so we are now having lunch some time next week.  LOL, it’s ok, he is a good friend, we will get together.  It’s his turn to buy lunch anyway.


We actually turned the heat on last night (and its gonna probably stay on).  Cold and wet is most of the forecast ahead for the next week.  Thank the gods that the furnace didn’t have trouble again when we turned it on.  It’s all good when it works, but a couple times over the last several years the furnace has had problems with a little gizmo inside it.  Same part every time.  Heh.  The repair place for furnaces sends the same tech out every time and he had actually not charged us labor for the last time, he just walked in with the little gizmo and swapped it out and walked out like 3 minutes later.  It’s almost ridiculous.


The dogs were really nervous when we dropped them off this morning.  They always get nervous over visits to the vet.  But when the vet tech picked them off to take them to the back, they both got super nervous.  I don’t think Mojo has ever been taken back, and the last 2 times Pucky went to the back, he had knee surgery.  This time they are just having their teeth deep cleaned.  But that does take putting them under, so I’m a little nervous for them.  By now, they are probably done and in recovery.  Won’t know how it went til later this afternoon.  But for now, no news is good news.


The high-level D&D game starts back tomorrow night.  I posted what the Paladin detected as his last action last time.  The reactions have been humorous.  Undead to the right, Devils to the left, Vampire in the middle.  LOL, if they play it right, it’ll be a challenge but not impossible.  If they screw around, there will be a total party kill before they get to the final guys.  I nerfed every encounter a little bit, so they should be able to handle this.


The low-level D&D game starts back on Friday night.  This will be the final adventure of the story arc that actually started like 4 months ago.  It might even be delayed another week due to the player whose character is the main focus of the finale might have to give his daughter a birthday party thing on Friday night.  I really should ask him if that is the case so we can announce that the game will be postponed 1 week.  I don’t want to run this final part without him actually playing his character as his character has a significant role in this set of encounters.


Flexeril is still keeping my back feeling pretty good.  But I can’t seem to do any stretches without a lot of pain.  My physical therapist said that’s not good, so he told me to stop going to him.  So, I called my pain doctors office to get on the list to try to get a sooner appointment, right now I am set to see him December 22nd.  DOH.  Anyhow, I am now on the list, that’s good.  Plus they called me in a refill on my Flexeril, I don’t know if I am gonna be on it forever, but for now, it’s good to have a supply.  And the grumpy lady who answers the phone at the pain doc’s office was actually pleasant with me, I made her laugh, I’m good at that.


Blood check is Thursday morning.  I’m not looking forward to my platelets (and rest of blood levels) going down more.  I feel nervous enough about where the platelets are, I don’t need added stress about them going down more.  And like I mentioned before, no one but me is noticing the other stats are going down a little bit each month, not as noticeably as the platelets, but still it is happening.


Teresa just Skyped me that she is coming home in an hour or so and finishing the day from home.  Can’t say how happy I am that she is going to be here sooner as opposed to later.  She is still sick, she shouldn’t have went to work in the first place.  I’m sure that the workers around her are making her leave.  I’m not afraid of her germs, heck I’ve lived thru all of Teresa’s illnesses over the years and only got 1 worse than her, most I have somehow magically evaded them all, only feeling bad for a day or so compared to her 4 or 5 days of being SICK.


Gonna mention this here.  I am toying with the idea of trying school one more time.  Starting in the Spring.  January actually.  I filled out the FAFSA.  I have figured out a schedule.  I know I can’t do online in the summer.  But I think I could do in person during a real semester.  I still have to talk to Teresa about it, so PLEASE no one mention this to her.  I will bring it up when she is feeling better.  This is very much in the kicking around the idea stage.   I think I could do a real semester.  Not sure.  But dammit, I think I am gonna try.


Of Pokémon and other things…

Went on a spontaneous date with my wife tonight.  We first set out to go to Red Lobster, but then changed our mind and went to the Texas Roadhouse in Johnston.  After dinner we went Pokémon hunting / Pokestop cruising thru our town.  I must say it was nice just getting out and having dinner and then getting some laughs in as we did the Pokething.  I would love to go out more often, but she often gets stuck at work late or is just too tired.  I understand totally.  But tonight was a great evening with the one I love.


Pokémon, the game on cell phones.  Yup we have played on and off since launch, but its been like a year since we touched the game.  Today I just fired it up on whim and caught a couple Pokémon.  When I was catching them tonight, Teresa decided she was going to start again.  So we decided together to cruise the Pokestops here in Adel.  She even got 1 new Pokémon out of the night.  My Vileplume ran away.  It happens.  Anyhow, again I point out that this was a lot of fun with the one that I love.


Texas Roadhouse is one of our go-to restaurants.  The service always rocks, the food is always great, and the whole atmosphere is fun.  Unfortunately, other places have Texas Roadhouses that aren’t up to that standard, so I can’t recommend the chain to everyone.  But if you are ever in the Johnston, Iowa area, and you want a excellent steak dinner, go to the Texas Roadhouse.  It’s right off the 80/35, easy to get to.


My physical therapist has decided that physical therapy isn’t working for me.  I tried to do the simple stretches yesterday and the day before and they caused pain in my back.  The stretches are NOT supposed to cause pain.   Therefore I was told that I shouldn’t be in physical therapy.  My ex-Physical therapist is going to send a letter to my pain doc to that effect.   So, on Monday or so I will call my pain doc’s office and try to get in sooner as opposed to later which is what my current scheduled appointment is.  Heh, I need more Flexeril anyway.


Been reworking some of the stuff I had set for the D&D campaigns that are resuming next week.  I really made adventure that the high level group is doing way too hard I think.  And the low level group has had it way too easy.  Now if I can middle ground both groups I’ll be doing good.  Taking difficulty away is so much easier than adding difficulty.  I have 6 days to get the high level stuff worked out and 8 days to get the low level stuff worked out.  No worries there, I don’t have jack other things to do, so prepping for D&D can actually be a priority.  lol.


I accidently took 2 Flexeril this morning, slept and slept and slept.  Well, my back didn’t hurt today.  So, other than sleeping til 2:30 in the afternoon, there were no really bad or odd effects.  Just have to be more careful about if I have or haven’t taken one in the morning.  I do not have this problem with the one at night as it gets taken with all the rest of my pills.


This coming April is our 25th Anniversary.  I wanted to throw a party and invite all our friends.  Teresa pointed out that she doesn’t have any friends.  I felt (feel) sorry for her.  Then I realized that she really doesn’t have anyone she can call up and make lunch plans with.  Anyone she can just hang out with.  Sure she has coworkers that she is kinda friendly with, but they aren’t friends as the only thing they have in common is work.  Ick, boring.

I, on the other hand, have a large handful of people I call friends.   People I could call up and any one of them would be happy to go to lunch or hang out with me.  No, I am not a social butterfly, but I got friends here in Iowa.  Then when you get out of Iowa, I have friends in lots of places.

So, if we threw a party for our 25th anniversary, it would just be my friends and our collective families.  That would be awkward for Teresa.  So we won’t be having a party.  I am still gonna pitch to her the idea of just getting away for a few days to the Hotel Pattee. It’s a fancy old time hotel in Perry, IA.  Just a short drive away.   It would be nice to just slip away and not worry about anything.


Disneyworld trip is solidifying.  A short trip in February of next year.  The aforementioned trip to Hotel Pattee, is a trip doing nothing specific.  Disneyworld is a serious undertaking.  We haven’t firmed up plans, but we want to hit Epcot, the Magic Kingdom, and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Orlando.  But we are only going for 3 or maybe 4 days.  That will be a little more fast paced than either of us are used to.  Heh, way more walking than either of us are used to.  Maybe pick one or two for this trip and go back in a couple years to do the rest.  Don’t know, but I am pretty damn sure we are going.


Same old, same old story about my issues with Civ4 warlords.  Still can’t beat it on conquer mode without nukes.  Same story on Mutant Football League, haven’t won a game yet.  Same about Skyrim, still haven’t went back to it, but I did delete all my saved games (some 3000+ saved games), so I will be starting over when I do go back.


I am concerned about this coming Tuesday.  On Tuesday we take Pucky and Mojo to the Vet for deep teeth cleaning.  Pucky has had anesthesia twice before, so not so worried about him, but Mojo has never been put under and he is so small.  I am sure Dr Beeman knows what he is doing, I shouldn’t worry.  Just if anything were to happen to Pucky or Mojo, we would be devastated.


texas-roadhouse

Luckiest Man Alive

Mom being here is going great.  We went to HuHot on Thursday night.  HuHot is always a good dinner and being with my wife and my mother is wonderful.  Friday night we stayed in and had this potato/sausage/cheese stuff that my wife makes.  Tonight, mom took us to the Machine Shed.  The company I am with is great.  They both really enjoyed their dinners.  I had flavorless mac and cheese, big disappointment.   But hanging with the 2 greatest women in the world makes it all worth while.  I love my wife, I love my mom, and I am so happy that they get along so well.


I am doing the stretches that the physical therapist gave me.  Doing them according to his instructions.  Not hurting while I am doing them.  But a half-hour or so after I am done, I am in a lot of pain.  As of day 3 of doing the stretches, I don’t seem to be going anywhere with them.  I see my physical therapist again on Monday.  Should be an interesting conversation.  But like I have said, I am giving this a go.  Really trying PT this time.  I hope this works.


My back is still thrashed.  Even Teresa has given up trying to get me to use my desk, at least right now.  So I am playing everything on my laptop right now.   It’s all good.  My new laptop has a more powerful processor and a similar video card to what my Desktop has.  Translation, with the exception on not seeing things on a 34″ monitor, it’s pretty much just as good playing games on my laptop.


With my back being thrashed, I can’t sit out in the living room with mom very much.  I feel kind of bad about that.  But I do go out and visit when I feel up to it.  And Teresa has really stepped up and is sitting chatting with my mom a bunch.  I wish I could go out there and join them, but after sitting for 2 hours at dinner, I just don’t have it in me to sit any more right now.  I know that mom understands, she is cool.


Mutant Football League is FUN.  I got good in practice, so I decided to try a game.  Every time I made a 1st down, I got a stupid penalty called on me.  EVERY TIME.  I wonder if this is a glitch or something I am doing wrong?  I had 3 touch downs called back for penalties.  But I did win the first game I played, by surviving longer than the other team.  Wow, it was wild, the field we were trying to play on was super deadly.  There was 8 yards of offense for the whole game.  lol.  Then I went to play another game and that is when the penalties started.  Really frustrating.  Gonna try another team and see if it was just the team I was playing or something else.  But even with the penalties, I was having fun playing.


I am not liking Rocket League very much.  Car soccer is just not my thing.  But it looks really pretty.


Still taking a break from Skyrim.  I think I burned out on the game for a while.  I know it’s there when I want to go back.  And I will go back, I have no question about that.  Civ4 Warlords is still my go to game.  That and screwing around with MFL.  Talk about 2 very different games.   MFL is a wild, intense, hands on game… while Civ4 is a turn based, mellow, casual game.   But hey, I am having fun with both.  So screw it, I will play what I like when I like and no one can say anything bad about it.


We finally got around to making an appointment for Pucky and Mojo to have their teeth cleaned.  Their teeth are not bad by any means, but it is time for a professional job on them.  Plus they both have teeth that have to be extracted.  It’s gonna cost us a minor fortune, but we love out fur babies and this is needed.


It’s the middle of September,  Thanksgivingfest is 2 months away and Sam and Shel who are hosting this year haven’t let me know if it would be ok to bring Pucky and Mojo to their house.  I asked originally in July or so.  I bet Sam forgot to ask Shel and thus the reason no one has gotten back to me.  They were so good last year at John’s house.  No accidents whatsoever.  But I would never assume it was ok to bring them.  So I guess I will get ahold of Sam and ask again.  Or maybe go straight to Shel.  One way or the other, I will know in a couple days.  Yup, I won’t put it off, or forget


Looking forward to seeing the Gang again at Thanksgivingfest.   It’s a tradition that I look forward to every year.  It’s the only chance I have to see the Gang every year.  And now that Teresa has taken to coming with me.  It’s doubly good.  I don’t miss her terribly and I still get to see my friends.

And the lunch with Andi and Shawn the day after Thansgivingfest is looked forward to as well.   Shawn is NOT going to cancel on me again.   Even if he has the bubonic plague from his kidlings, he has to come.  Andi has only cancelled on me once, and that was because it fell on her brother’s 40th birthday.  Anyhow, it’s always great to see the two of them.  And one year Tommy met up with us.  Brian said he might want to drive down to join us this year.  But Brian barely spoke to me last time I was in the Region, I don’t know if he is mad at me or if that just happened cuz it happened.  Oh well, no matter who shows up, it’s always a nice lunch.


Oh, my mother-in-law has decided that she can’t come to visit right now.  So, D&D might resume much sooner than I originally announced.  No promise to that at this point, but things are definitely looking that way.   I will be installing Mumble on my laptop, and getting things ready to run here on the laptop as opposed to the desktop cuz I can’t sit in my chair for 2+ hours.  It’ll be fine.   I actually have more room here in bed that I do at my desk.  Go figure.  I will let you all know as soon as its been decided.


Oh, for those keeping tabs, my platelets, white blood cells, and hemoglobin were all down yet again.  Biggest concern being the platelets.  I barely had a little cut on my thumb and it bled for 6 hours, not gushing but oozing blood for 6 HOURS.   This sucks, I am scared of where this appears to be heading.  I don’t want to go back to the infusion center.


And finally, I have an x-ray scheduled Monday morning.  Then a Cat Scan Tuesday morning.  All to find out IF I have a kidney stone or something else wrong with my right kidney.  A little scared about this too.  Especially scared at what can be causing the pain if it is NOT a kidney stone.  But hey, it’s me, and I am weird.  What does not kill me only makes me wish it did, sometimes.


Peace, Love, and Gummi Bears.

 

6 of 13. And my doggies too.

My back is really bad, especially since coming off the pain free existence of prednisone.  I knew my back was going to hurt again, but OMG, this pain is ridiculous.  Sitting gives dimensions of pain and now laying down causes my back to hurt too.  I can go to sleep relatively pain free and wake up with my back hurting again.  Lounging in bed is the only position that I can get in that doesn’t cause pain, you know, propped up of a couple pillows.

Add to that pain, my right kidney, where I have the kidney stone took to hurting like hell again today.   Just seems my day for pain.


To that end, I am finally going to Physical Therapy on Thursday afternoon.  I have talked about my feeling about PT, but I am going to give it a real go this time.


I picked a new regular doctor place today.  Going to give the Physician’s Assistant who got me an earful when he asks me about my conditions.  I asked to see the actual doctor, but she is not taking new patients directly.  So I get he PA.  Heh.  Well, last time I went to a PA I really liked him.  Perhaps this guy will be just as good.  I will give him a try.  Instead of 10 minutes to get to see the doctor I am now about a minute away or 5 or 6 blocks.

I haven’t told my old regular doc that I am leaving her care.  I am leaving because her assistant left.  Her assistant is the only reason I went to see that doctor in the first place.  I wish I knew where the assistant ended up, if it was a family or general practitioner, I would drive for her.  She was that good.


So Wednesday I see my new PA, then Thursday morning is blood work and nurse to check my blood levels (especially platelets) at the cancer doc’s office, then Thursday afternoon is Physical Therapy.


Today is my 6 year Anniversary with WordPress.  My first WordPress blog, the one in which I blogged like 3 times and quit is still alive.  Go figure.  This blog is like 6 months old I think.  I guess I will know when it is one year when WordPress sends me a bill for next year.

I am finding this blog very therapeutic.  I will continue to post when things are going on, I find it really cool when people I don’t know read my blog, the little counter thing that WordPress supplies is pretty cool for keeping track of how many visitors come to your blog and where they are from.  I like it.


OK, I have mentioned Music Choice on cable before.  I have said the 80s are my go to.  Then classic rock.  I added the 90s after my brother introduced me to it.  Well, recently I check out Y2K and found music I really enjoy.  Depending on the year of the song,  It either reminds me of life after Vegas (VEGAS SUCKS) and then here, the early years.  We are about have been here 13 years.  WOW.


That is the longest I have lived anywhere.  We moved when I was 8 as a kid.  So 8 years and 11 years respectively in my childhood homes.   This is a strange concept for me to wrap my head around.   Not that I don’t like it here, I just never expected this to be perma-home.  Now, we have been here a lot longer than I ever guessed we would be.


I figured that some headhunter would have swooped in with an offer that Teresa couldn’t refuse and zoom off we’d go to somewhere else.  She gets the offers, but she doesn’t even look at them (Facebook offered her more money than she is making and we wouldn’t have had to move, but she doesn’t want to leave where is she is), she is happy where she is, enjoys what she does, gets paid decently, has above average insurance, and her “boss” is in New York.


Pucky has to go in for all his blood work and shots.  His elderly check up and his yearly shots.  Then both dogs will be going in for teeth cleaning.   That’s 500+ bucks per dog.  OUCH.  But hey, they need it and it’s worth it.  That includes tooth extractions for the teeth the are loose or falling out.  Chihuahuas are notorious for having bad teeth.  The only drawback of the breed that I have found.  But all things considered, they don’t really have bad teeth, Pucky had 2 (1 feel out) and Mojo had 1 tooth that is loose, that’s not bad at all.


I reported erroneously that Skyrim wouldn’t see the correct video card on my laptop.  When I installed updated graphics drivers, the graphics driver told Skyrim that it was here, and tada, major graphical upgrade on the laptop.  From Intel Mobile 630 to Nvidia 1050 TI.   Things look as almost as good as they do on my desktop.  ALMOST.


Can’t play Rocket League until I buy a Xbox controller.  We threw ours out when the Xbox died.  Anyhow, it appears that the game recommends/requires a controller for full enjoyment.  So it is installed on my machine, looks really pretty, but I can’t/won’t play it until I buy a controller.  No biggie.


The Facebook “On this Day” is really funny.  Last year, I was sitting in an open house for a house that wasn’t my listing being bored to tears.   The year before, I was starting my FINAL round of chemo.  Boy what a difference between those years.  Now this year, I am totally retired, medically and mentally.   I gave up on trying to work.  I just can’t do it.  Funny though, recruiters are looking at my information on LinkedIn.  I think if I wanted to get back into the computer service industry, I would have a much better chance than I originally thought.  But since that was the industry that caused my mental break and subsequent badness, NO, I don’t think that is going to happen again.


My wife thinks I need to talk to my therapist.  She says I have been depressed for a long time.  Well, I can tell you why I have been depressed, I have been in pain a long time.  Pain = Depression.  Don’t need to pay 30 dollars to come to that conclusion.  Been in pain basically since I moved my office into the bedroom and started sitting in the chair, that triggered all the pain, thus causing my mood to plummet.  I was grumpy/angry on prednisone, but I was actually happy when neither of those was going on.  No pain at all.  Now I am back to hurting most hours of the day, and depressed because of it.

Maybe Physical Therapy will give me some relief.  (A boy can dream).  Or if they declare me a hopeless case, then maybe my pain doc will give me something for the pain.  (A little more realistic).  Either way, I will happily pay to get OUT OF PAIN.


Well, I have written close to 1200 words, by now you guys are probably BORED with my babble, so I will say goodbye now.   Well I will when I hit 1200 words, which is now.


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So, I slept thru most of today

The title says it, I slept from 12:30am-6:30am, 6:40am-9:40am, 10am-11:30am, noon-4pmish.  Then finally forced myself to get up.  Seems that all the lack of sleep from the prednisone escapade finally caught up with me and I SLEPT.  I know your body needs to recharge after a prolonged period for lack of sleep, seems today was my day.   Mentally more aware of what is going on, physically I hurt a lot.


I hurt, therefore I am.  Where I got the epidural shot in the shoulder a month ago is hurting again already 😦  The rest of my back is hurting too.  And for something new and exciting my left side hurts (probably worse than the rest of it).  I have no idea why my left side hurts, but sitting triggers it too.  I wonder if my back problems are causing the side issues too.  Anyhow, I HURT.


I keep forgetting to call the physical therapist to get started on physical therapy.  Well, that’s not totally accurate, I remember, just too late in the day to call.   Perhaps tomorrow, I put a notice in my phone to remind me.


In 4 days, we will have had Pucky for exactly 7 years.  Pucky is technically an elderly dog according to the Veterinarian.  He gets around pretty good for an old dog.   Chases 2 year younger Mojo around the house.  Pucky is such a good dog, he likes to go out in and lay in the sun on the porch.  There is a tiny sliver of sun that comes thru and hits the deck and he has claimed it as his.  More power to him.


Mojo, on the other hand, poos and pees wherever he feels like, occasionally hitting a puppy pad, but mostly the kitchen, living room and bathroom floors for poo, pee is kinda random but he doesn’t like to pee on tile or linoleum.

This all comes from us not getting him until 16 weeks instead of 8.   He would be as well trained as Pucky had we gotten ahold of him during those 8 weeks.   But alas, it wasn’t meant to be and Mojo is a very affectionate Chihuahua once he accepts you.  Until he accepts you, it’s stand off, growl and occasionally bark.

Neither of our Chihuahuas are barkers really (though both will bark if deemed necessary), but Mojo does like to bark at people walking by on the street.  So during the day when I am trying to nap or concentrate on a game or anything, he gets locked in the bedroom with me away from the windows that face the street.   Then he only barks at the doorbell (like a good dog) or if the mail lady makes too much noise.


I downloaded Diablo III to my laptop tonight.   I occasionally still like to play it, so having it on here makes sense.  I also downloaded/installed Rocket League.  I got that free when I bought this laptop, not normally a game I would try, but I am all for checking out free games.  Who knows I might find something I enjoy playing even as a rare occurrence.


I am intentionally NOT installing any MMORPGs on my laptop.  I am currently not enjoying any of them, so why waste disk space?  Some day I might go back to WoW or ESO, but for now, I am enjoying playing solo games.  Civ4 is my current game of choice.  Skyrim is still probably the best game I have played in a long time, but I kinda burned myself out on it.  2500+ hours since Dec 26, most of them in the last 2 months.


Hmmm, I wonder if my car will start.  It hasn’t been started in like a month.   Yeah, not good.   Tomorrow I will go try to start it, even though I have no where to go.  If it starts I will let it idle there for a few hours, if it doesn’t, when Teresa gets home, we will jump start it.  Seriously I got no where to go.  I am becoming a homebody again.  Not a good thing.


Teresa says she is gonna make me go out this weekend.  We will probably end up at Texas Roadhouse for steak and cheesy fries.  Then we might go to a movie, but having to sit for 2 hours for a movie might be pain than I want to deal with.  Plus an hour sitting for food.  3 hours plus sitting for the drive out there and back, so 4 hours of sitting in 1 shot.  I don’t think I can do it right now.


I’ve been having memory dreams of stuff the DID NOT HAPPEN.  But these dreams feel so real when they are going on, and all the players are people from my past.   It’s weird.  I wouldn’t call them nightmares but the do always wake me up.   Not good dreams either, but not necessarily bad either.  But disturbing enough to wake me from deep sleep.


I am impatiently counting the days until my mom visits.  Like I have said many times before, I really miss her.  I wish she lived closer than 6+ hours by car.  Yeah, it’s only a hour flight, but that is expensive.  Driving is so much cheaper and if I can Teresa to go with me, I get to relax in the car while she drives.  She does not allow me to drive if she in the car, she says I am not a bad driver, I just cause her anxiety when I drive.  I can say the same thing about her driving.   But since I am ambivalent about driving, let her drive I say.


The severity of my cough has lessened for some reason.  Nothing in my life changed.  Just stopped coughing so hard for so long.  Not complaining, just observing.   Probably lessened cuz my cancer doc is referring me to a pulmonologists.  That’s my luck, bad bad bad, then when I see a specialist I am fine.


Also my pain doc will want me to get an MRI of my shoulder.  That will be fine, as long as I double up on clonazepam before going in.  No, not anxious, just my head shakes from the lithium I took 3 years ago.  It shakes whenever I am supposed to hold still.  Sucks.


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