Still hurting after all this time…

Pain is still the operative word of the day/week/month/months.  My back is still killing me.  I think on Monday I will call the pain doc’s office and double check that there hasn’t been any cancellations and I am still on the list.  The pain is getting worse.  All I really want is to be able to sit in a chair for 2 hours without a lot of pain.  I don’t think that is asking too much.  2 hours, 2 measly hours.

When I went to the pain doc in June, I had one point for trigger point injections.  Now I have like 6 spots on my back.  Easier to point on where it doesn’t hurt.  Plus my neck issue is acting up and its shooting pain down my right arm.  Grrr.  Pain sucks.  Sucks very much.  And it all started with one jerk who barely tapped my back bumper at a yield sign back in 1999.  Yup, for most of almost 20 years I have been in mild to severe pain, that is the back problem.  Not sure when I messed up my neck, possibly as far back as high school, so 30 years for that pain.

The first time I got trigger point injections they last 3 months.  This time the pain relief in that spot was 6 days.  Not good.  I am gonna end up back on pain meds, I just know it.  I am not happy about it, but if that is what it takes to get me to where I can sit, so be it.  So be it.


Pain was so bad tonight that I had to cancel my Friday night D&D game.  It was to be the final session of this story arc.  But no, I could not sit at my desk for 2 hours to run the game.  I just was hurting so bad.  I needed to be laying pretty much flat in bed, which is what I am doing now.  My laptop might be a POS, but it works for writing this blog when I can’t sit at the desk.


Mojo had a slight infection in both ears.  Got goop put into each ear and smeared around.  Was kind of expensive, but the little guy is worth it.  Next vet visit is for Pucky to have a deep teeth cleaning, one where they knock him out, he’s officially elderly now, he turned 7 on the 4th of July.  Beyond having his teeth cleaned they are gonna remove 2 loose teeth that aren’t/haven’t fallen out on their own.


I called to confirm with the movers for Monday morning.  The guy was all shocked that I called.  I guess no one else ever calls to make sure.  I also wanted to make sure to remind him that the place doesn’t open til 9:30.  I lost the keys to the lock, luckily the place I rent the storage locker at will cut locks off for customers as long as they have proper ID.  So it’s all good.


It’ll be cool to have nice furniture to set up on.  A big desk 72″x36″.  And the 2 cabinets and a bookcase.  I have a lot of stuff that needs to be stored.  Getting these pieces into the bedroom is going to be interesting.  Glad I am not the mover.  We just have to move them into place, once we figure out how the are gonna be placed.  For the desk and the printer cabinet we have a good idea of where they are gonna go.  So it just matters if the other cabinet and the bookcase will have enough room to sit side by side next to the desk. I think there is enough room, not sure.  I don’t remember exact measurements.  So its all gonna be put in place on the fly so to speak.


The remainder of the stuff from storage is going downstairs.  Not that there is a whole lot of space down there, but there really isn’t that much in storage after you remove the big furniture pieces.  A small fridge.  A toaster oven.  A 36″ round table (would have went in the bedroom, just ran out of room).  4 visitor chairs.  Probably a box or two.  A 4ft folding table.  I don’t remember much else.  The giant map of the world is going on the ugly wall here in the bedroom.  Basically anything else besides the earlier mentioned furniture and the map are going to the basement.  I guess this weekend I will go make some room down there when my back will let me.


I cancelled my therapy appoint, my shrink appointment, a dentist appointment and lunch with a friend so far cuz of this problem with my back.  Something has got to give.


Have I mentioned how much I love my wife lately?   Well, for the record, I love my wife.

While cleaning the back 40 we came across some old pictures of us and had a nice chuckle about how skinny we used to be.  LOL.  Oh so many years ago.  Now plump is the polite word for us.  But then again, most of us around my age are plump.


Disturbed’s – Sound of Silence.  It’s kind of my wife’s new go to song for testing anything electronic.  She got a new Bluetooth speaker for her Echo Dot.  She is testing it out in the bedroom, its 11:35 at night, we share a bedroom wall with our neighbor.  The song gets LOUD.   Teresa, I love her dearly, has little to not concept of how loud is loud.  I hope Gordy and his wife (whose name I have forgotten again) don’t complain about how loud it got tonight.


Speaking of Disturbed’s Sound of Silence, here ya go.

Need a new desk

Painwise I have hurt most of the day.  My back can’t take sitting or standing very well.  Only recourse is to lay down, which will lead to excessive napping, which will mean I won’t sleep at night, which means I will disturb Teresa. oh, this goes on and on.  Basically, any way I work this I end up hurting.  I’m hoping that the pain doc’s office will call soon so I can get the pain taken care of.


My mood took a turn down today.  I guess I look forward to the D&D games more than I realized and it thru my bipolar brain into a not so slight downswing.  Everything is going so well in my life, got nothing else to complain about.  Has to be cuz of the stupid D&D games being cancelled.  Trying to look forward to next week, but its blah this week.


We did get a second monitor hooked up to my system today.  That was a bright spot in an otherwise gloomy day.  Now I can be doing stuff on one screen while reading Facebook on the other.  Cool Cool, so very cool.


My new computer set up is kind of nice.  Although my desk is entirely too short (hey, it was free).  Gotta replace the cardboard box table with another table from the Family Dollar store.  But beyond those 2 little things, its very comfy and very practical.  Maybe for Christmas or my Birthday I will get a big boy desk (craigslist) and then I wouldn’t need so many small tables.


I think I may be crazy, but I am thinking seriously about setting up 1 more online D&D game.  This time on Sunday afternoons, so that my west coast friends that play have the option of joining the game.  Gonna probably switch to DISCORD for voice chat software.  Then I won’t be tying up my friend mumble server and using his bandwidth.  DISCORD is free and somehow runs locally on everyone’s computer.  Really beyond my feeble brain capacity to figure out how it works.  Anyhow, if we use DISCORD we won’t be able to record the sessions.  So, I gotta think about this.  And furthermore, gotta think about if I really can handle a 3rd session a week.  Heh, it’s not like I have anything else to do with my time, might as well play D&D.


Our dogs are definitely getting used to me not being in bed all the time.   They still get confused when Teresa tells them to “Go see Daddy” for a treat.  They start to run to the bed, then turn around slowly, and then run back to me.


I still miss my Mom and Brother, but not as much as I have recently.  It’s right after seeing them when it’s bad, now its just a generalized miss.  I tell ya though, if Jet Blue flew in to/out of Des Moines, I would have flown to see them again on Jet Blue’s special they are having.  But nope, no Jet Blue around here.  So, it’ll be November when I see them again.


We LOVE the new stove.  It rocks.  We have barely touched what it’s capable of doing, but it’s wonderful.  Had to cut down cooking times of everything we cooked in our old stove.  3 to 5 minutes usually.  The difference from the old stove which wasn’t close to correct temp or the new stove which holds the correct temp like a champion.  Whirlpool made a great product there.


Oh hell, I almost forgot.  I got a big adult type desk in storage.  Don’t really know how to get it here or how to put it together.  But hey, I own a big desk that would hold all this stuff and then some.   It’s totally the wrong color for this room, but hey, it’s already paid for.  I guess it might be time to bug Drew to come do me a solid.  Below is the desk I have in storage.  Would be nice to put it back in use somewhere… why not here?


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Blah… with promise

In what promised to be an excellent week of D&D gaming, both games get cancelled.  Yup, the Wednesday night game was cancelled due to 2 people having family emergency issues and the Friday night game was cancelled due to the main player of the storyline’s computer being ill.  Technically we could still play on Friday but I don’t have time to redo the storyline so it would just kinda be a blah ending to 3 weeks of good adventure.  I’m glad it was decided to cancel.


Teresa is going on travel again the end of the month.  I hate when she goes on travel, and since I “got better” she has been going on more and more travel.  I guess I shouldn’t complain too much, she is getting paid good money to do her job and I think her work looks at travel as kind of an award for doing good work.  I forgot to ask her where she was going, probably New York again.


My back is still thrashed.  I don’t know if I can take this level of pain until August 17th.  I hope they call me in sooner, wish people would cancel appointments.  It’s not like I need much notice, 2 hours notice is good enough for me, but they always give at least 24 hours, so it’s all good.  I hurt, I hurt badly, but I will get thru it, I always do.


My new nightstand/bookshelf arrived today.  Teresa assembled it.  It’s the perfect size for D&D books.  And the top is big enough to hold all my stuff that I kept of my desk that I use.  CPAP, fan, wallet, keys, ipad, cell phone.  All of it fits on top just fine with room for extra stuff.  I’m happy.


I still am trying to find an in person D&D game locally that I can play in.  Yeah, I love DMing, but I miss playing.  I will find one eventually, there has to be one somewhere for a forty something gamer who loves to play.


Teresa ordered me a cable so I can have a second monitor on my computer.  Have a nice 24″ Acer monitor which would very much fill the bill.  Just don’t have the proper cable at this time.  The proper cable will be here Friday.


Pucky and Mojo are a bit confused with me not being in bed all day.  They come rushing in to the room and run onto the bed, do a quick look for me, then it dawns on them that I am over at the computer area and they come over for treats.  It’s funny, it’s cute.


Our first payment on the house cleared the bank today.  YAY.  Payments are still less than what we were paying in rent and we will own the house in less than 15 years.  Yeah buddy.


I still haven’t called to make a payment towards the vacation.  Gotta get on that for this month, just feeling lazy.


Yesterday was Pucky’s birthday.  He turned 7.  So happy to have him and Mojo in my life.

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Pain and happier things

Yeah, this post is gonna be about Pain and me (and maybe some other stuff).  It’s not a great topic, but hey, I am getting older and pain is becoming a real daily thing it seems.


Firstly, the shot the pain doc game me did wonders for the spot he shot me in.  However, I did not think and he did not suggest that other spots were gonna freak out when I started sitting.  So now, as I sit here, I have 3 distinct trigger points going ape on my back.  One a little lower than the original, one a little higher on the other side, and then my neck/shoulder one decided it was gonna hurt like hell too.  So I called to get an appointment with the pain doc, she was all “we saw you last week”, and I am on the schedule for August 17th.  August 17th is a LONG way away, luckily they have a cancellation list and she says I should get in a lot sooner.  Let us hope, cuz I don’t want to be in pain for a month and a half.


The second pain is my stomach.  Weird thing, not sure what I did or ate.  But it has been in pain for a week now.  No, it’s not a stomach ache.  It’s constant moderate to severeish pain.  So, luckily, my regular doc has an opening at 3:15 today.  Find out if its some whacked food poisoning or something else.  All I know is that I want my stomach to not be in pain.


Oh, the last little pain thing is I can’t sit up in bed anymore.  This is gonna make watching TV very difficult.  For those that don’t know, we have a 55″ TV at the foot of our bed.  Anyhow, this is a new pain.  Not a severe pain, just a real annoyance.  Sitting propped up was my go to position in life.  Now I am gonna sit (uncomfortably, painfully) at my desk, until I can get thing straightened out with the pain doc.


On a cheerier note, Wednesday night D&D is a definite go.  Have 5 players now, and 1 more joining in August.  It’s gonna be cool.  I have the first adventure ready to roll.  I can’t tell you about it, cuz Cori is about the only person who reliably reads this blog and she is one of the players.  Lets just say, that the party is over geared so I am gonna boost the difficulty of every encounter.  I was worried it was gonna be too easy BEFORE I over geared them, now I am sure it’s gonna be too easy.  So more monsters are called for.  It’s all good.


I have decided, after talking about it for so long, that I am not going to join the gym.  I know myself, for a week or two I will go religiously, then other things will come up and I will just stop going.  Yup, that is how it always goes.  So I am gonna save some money and NOT join the gym.

Still thinking about weight watchers though.  I have lost about 9 pounds (according to Dr. scales) since I started eating more and smaller meals.  I might just be able to do that to lose my 20 more pounds and not need to bother with weight watchers.   I just don’t know.


Pucky and Mojo are confused that I am not in bed all the time anymore.  They look for me there and then come find me like wanting me to come back to where I belong.  It’s cutely funny.


If money is in my account, today I will be making my first payment towards the cruise.  I am so very much looking forward to it and it’s a year and a month and a half away.  Alaska in August… Woot Woot.  While people are melting here, I will be pulling on a sweater.  lol.  Yeah, buddy, gonna go on a cruise.


Pre-ordered the Tomb of Annihilation from Amazon, 45 bucks.  Little screwy for a D&D adventure book.  The price will probably drop here soon though and Amazon always guarantees the lowest price.  That will be good.  More ideas to steal and warp into my own special world.

 


 

We also ordered a new 81″ lamp to light up the computer area.  And a new nightstand for my bed, since I moved the desk.  These will be here on Wednesday, the 5th.  Teresa is gonna have fun putting them together while I run the first D&D session.  Amazon got a good chunk of money from us this weekend, but it’s all good.  Stuff we need at good prices…  well, I didn’t need the Tomb book, but still.  More stuff.


Tomorrow I say goodbye to Amazon Prime.  And then Hello to Teresa’s Amazon Prime.  Yeah, I have been the Prime holder since Prime started but Teresa wants it for some reason and since I don’t use it for anything but free shipping to here.  It’s all good, Teresa wants to use some of the features of Prime beyond the free shipping, who am I to argue with the logic of her being the main person.  And it just so happens that my account expires of July 4th.


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My brother put a very short introduction of his character on the Facebook group page.  Glorg, Priest of Dunder the God of Thunder.  He has a whole lot more backstory than that, but this is about all he has shared so far.  It’s all good.

I look forward to playing D&D with my brother again.  I would never have gotten into it back in the 80s if not for him bringing it home.  He used to DM all the time for our collective friends.  Now I get to DM for him for the first (I can’t remember another real game I was DM for him) time.

It’s a bit different playing over mumble than in person.  People sometimes talk over other people, and you can’t see dice rolls.  But it works in its own way.  And lets us get our gaming fix with friends from all over.  As a matter of fact, the game I am running is for 6 people in 4 locations in Indiana, while I am in Iowa.  We were to have 1 from California originally, but he backed out, his loss.


Teresa still doesn’t know if she is definitely losing her Mac at work or not.  I wish they’d make up their minds and tell her one way or the other.  It has to be getting a bit frustrating for her too… is today the day she loses her laptop.  Smartly, she backed everything up.  So if she does lose her Mac laptop and get a new one, it’ll be a no brainer to get it re-setup.


My back is still hurting, if it is hurting tomorrow I will reschedule my dentist appointment on Wednesday.  The angle they will put my back at to get at the old crown would likely hurt too much.  And to be honest, I am in no rush to have this work done as its been 15+ years dentists have wanted to do it.


The dodge dealership who had my car in the shop less than 1 week ago sent me an email saying it was time for an oil change.  DOH.  Why didn’t they think of that when they had my car already.  I am like 1500 miles below when the little sticker says it needs it, so it can wait too.


Still waiting to hear back from Sam and Shel as to whether or not Pucky and Mojo can come to Thanksgivingfest this year.  I am under the assumption that the answer will be yes, but don’t know for sure.   We’ll figure something out if they say no.  Teresa just won’t want to leave them anywhere for that long.


Still missing Mom and Jim a lot.  The first few weeks after seeing them are the toughest.  I do not get to see them nearly enough.  June and November are just about it.  Mom was talking about making a trip here, but with our vacation plans next August and her having to seriously save money to pay for her part of the trip I don’t think she is coming anytime soon.  I could be wrong.


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Home

Got back to Des Moines a little after 11.  Got to leave the airport at 11:24.  Got home shortly after midnight.  1st flight I was next to a guy who didn’t speak English, no chatting there.  2nd flight was next to a lawyer who spent the whole time with his nose in his phone reading an email article so not chatting there either.  So, the flights were fairly quick and exceptionally boring.


The buckle on my belt sets off the machines at the airport.  On the way there, it was a quick pat down along the back of my belt.  On the way back, the guy checked front back sides, all around, including checking the package to make sure I didn’t have anything extra hidden there.  But heh, I got thru it, so it’s all good.  But for the record I don’t plan on flying into Midway again unless Delta makes a direct flight from Des Moines (which is highly unlikely to happen).  I had my 2nd rudest treatment by an airline person ever by a southwest baggage check lady.  Bad enough I am tempted to write southwest a bitchfest letter.  The worst still goes to the collective bunch at United.


Had Leukemia chat tonight.  The regular moderator was absent, the replacement moderator is an old friend.  Either she has notes or one hell of a memory.  But she remembered all sorts of things about the chatters that I had totally forgotten.  But all the moderators of Leukemia chat are great.


Made the reservation for the room the day before the cruise next August.  It’s all about getting a much pre-secured as possible.  So I don’t have to worry about it later.  I would book our flights too, but airlines don’t release the info for flights til 11 months before.  So, I can’t book the flights til September, which is also about when I will get current excursion information.  Holland America gives a slight discount if you book your excursions before the cruise.  So, that is the plan.  Have everything all ready and paid for so we can just get on the boat and go.


The doggies seemed to have missed me.  I haven’t been without at least one of them since I woke up today for more than 5 minutes.  I missed them too.  I love my Chihuahuas, they are such good doggies.


Some day I might make it to England and/or Scotland, but for now that dream is put on the backburner.  My back is just too thrashed to even consider riding on a bus for 14 days, let alone the long flights to and back.  I really do want to go.  Hopefully once I get myself together, I will get to the acupuncturist and start a real treatment plan.  That costs money though that is currently being diverted to paying for the cruise.  So, for now, back treatments happen when I hurt too much to think and not a real plan to permanently fix my problems.  Plus I am not sure I trust either acupuncturist that I have seen here to do the job right.  Oh well, I am gonna have to trust one I guess.  Probably little Chinese guy, cuz the White guy never once suggested herbs or anything else.


I’m gonna start back to Ant’s bipolar chat tomorrow.  Today was mostly spent asleep.


My car is sick again.  Most annoying.  Won’t back up.  Goes into reverse real fine, just the parking break is messed up.   So they will rebuild that again, charge us a small fortune, and it’ll make my 12 year old car good for a few more years, I hope.


I was right,  I have a couple pissed off players in my Mumble D&D game.  It was bound to happen and it was nothing personal.  Wizards just made that one expansion too powerful as a whole.  So I banned the expansion, the good news for the players should be that I am not using it against them either.


I had my first experience using the new stove tonight.  ooooooooooooooooooooooooo fancy.  Having a stove actually cook at the right temperature was a pleasant experience.  It has way too many buttons and features, but hey the price was right and it’s what Teresa wanted.  So, happy wife, happy life.


After my car gets fixed, I will be joining the gym I mentioned a few blog posts ago.  With the weather getting really hot and really humid here, I have no intention of walking there.  So, when my car gets fixed, I will go.  Don’t want to be wiped out before even getting to the gym.  As for the diet part, it’s being put off a little bit too, because I have a bunch of frozen stuff I need to eat that I don’t have points for.  But the diet is going to start sooner and opposed to later.


Thanks to my brother, I am discovering late 90s music for basically the first time.  After we moved to Iowa we got cable immediately and I listened to either 80s stuff or classic rock or alternative.  Music Choice 90s is exposing me to stuff I haven’t heard before.   I had written the 90s off as bad rap and other crap music.  Turns out there really was some nice music in the 90s.  Go figure.


It feels really great to be home, even though I am missing my mom and brother really bad right now.  Home is where I feel the most comfortable.  Home is where the love of my life is.  I just wish my mom and brother still lived close.  But then my brother wouldn’t have the job he has now and both he and mom would be pretty much miserable.  So the best I can do right now is go see them twice a year and hope that one or both of them come to visit here.


Jimmy turns 50 next year, mom actually thought I would miss that.  NOT A CHANCE.  Have to be there for the big 50 for my bro.  And I have to out due my gift to him for 49, which was a gargoyle toilet paper dispenser.  Hmmm, I got a little less than a year to come up with something EPIC.

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Shocking…

I grabbed my laptops plug while it was partially plugged in and zap.  My mom laughed.  It didn’t feel good.  Heh, I guess it is kinda funny since I didn’t get hurt.


Still enjoying my vacation here in the Region.  Sitting here now relaxing with mom watching another Cubs game while my brother is getting ready for work.  Well, I am relaxing and she is all keyed up for the game.  Like said yesterday, she is funny while she cheers the Cubs on.


Mom and I have a plan for next August.  We are hoping to go on a 14 day tour of England and Scotland thru Gate1Travel.com.  I already ran it by Teresa once and she said I could go, but I don’t know if she thought I was really serious.  And I asked her if she wanted to go and she said no.  So mom stepped in and said she’d go with me.  It sounds like a really fun trip and I am really looking forward to it.  Also I will get to meet Ant on Day 2 of the tour and Nun on Day 13 of the tour, both of which will be cool to actually meet.


My brother decided that his party will not be held in Ruby’s clubhouse next year.  He figures that that the camaraderie that exists in the backyard would be lost in the more formal setting of the clubhouse.  So back to the backyard next year.  I think backyard is a better idea, but I will still stay inside until the sun goes down.  So most of my brother’s friends will continue to think I am anti-social.  Oh yeah, he also decided to not start his party til 5pm instead of noonish, this is good too.


I’m almost ready to head home.  Got things to do, people to see, places to go all back home.  Plus I am really missing Teresa and the dogs.  I forget how much I miss her when I am gone from home, even more than I do when she is gone and I am home.  Skype is goodly, but its not the same as face to face.  In case you didn’t know, or you need a refresher, I really love my wife.


I think I am ready for the Mumble D&D game to resume.  I have stuff planned out for about 3 sessions.  I just hope I didn’t make all these encounters too tough for the party.  Cuz as much as they have chewed thru what I have laid out before them, I don’t want to just kill them outright.  Cori approved a CR6 encounter, we shall see if that is too tough.

I am thinking of changing a ruling I made for the first 3 sessions, this will probably make 2 of the players very unhappy.  But I think will remove something that is annoying me somewhat.  I probably wouldn’t mind 1 of them doing this, but 2 is 1 too many.  So, I might be removing the Elemental Evil add on spells from the game.  I have to think a little more on this though.


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