Better now.

My mood is much much better today.  You could even call it a good mood.  I am not angry or depressed anymore.  This is a good thing because we got a lot of stuff to get done before next Wednesday and being depressed and angry was keeping me from getting things ready.  And a good thing I am not angry at nothing anymore cuz if I was I would have wigged out at the roofers next door this morning.  Yeah, I know they were only doing their jobs, but early morning wakeup of BANG BANG BANG really sucks.  Anyhow, here it is almost 2:30pm and they are still pounding on my neighbor’s (the other half of our townhome) roof.


Went and got a blood test today, as I do every week.  My hemoglobin is still down to 10.6, my white blood count is still 2.9 and my platelets are down a few points to 15 (from 17 last week).  Pretty much what I expected them to be.  All the numbers are down from where they are supposed to be, so thus the transplant is a necessity.


As of now, I have 8 appointments on May 7th.  Only know about them cuz I clicked on the appointment tab on Mayo’s patient app.  They haven’t called me or emailed me, just populated my appointments.  But I guess it’s alright, this means it’s more definite even though we haven’t gotten the confirmation of the transplant date yet.  I am supposed to start treatment on the 8th, so the 7th for a bunch of appointments sounds reasonable.


Again for those who care.  8th and 9th are anti-seizure meds (pills) 10th-13th chemo 14th-15th other harsher chemo 16th a day off(?) 17th the transplant.  The transplant itself is a no brainer, they just pump the platelets in through the port I will have.  Takes about an hour, then they pump in 6 hours of fluids.  The whole day is like a 12 hour day.


With the exception of when I am getting chemo, I am staying at the Gift of Life Transplant House.  That is where all cards and such are to be sent.  I will post the address with our room number when we get there on the 6th.  The room number should be the same for all 110+ days we are stuck in Rochester.


Oh yeah, the reality of the 100 days, it may be up to ridiculously longer than that.  There is a better than average chance that we will be stuck there into or thru winter as well.  Especially if I have to have multiple rounds of chemo after my transplant.


Tomorrow is the Great Royal Rumble of All Time.  Starts at 11am Central Time.  Should be a cool show, I wonder how many hours they are gonna run?  But, not because we are totally sick of them, they are putting Brock Lesnar vs Roman Reigns yet again as the main event.  Doesn’t WWE know that we don’t want to see the same thing over and over?


WILL THIS POUNDING FROM NEXT DOOR EVER STOP?


The only problem with our neighbor getting his roof replaced is that our roof is going to look worse.  Hopefully our insurance company doesn’t do a drive by and say our side needs to be replaced.  Just can’t afford that right now.


It’s gonna be nice to see my mom and brother next week, even though it’s not due to the best of reasons.  I miss them, I want to see them before my transplant, and we need to drop Pucky and Mojo off.   Thankful to Teresa that she is willing to spend a few days there.  And good timing cuz we are going to be there on my brother’s days off.  So, it’s all good.


Off to do some work towards getting things ready.  Readers, you all have a good day.


Yeah, a very subjective list.  Feel free to bash the list as I have in my head.  PEACE.

A Bunch of Babble

Still dealing with this stupid depression.  Stupid stupid stupid.  I know I have nothing to really be depressed about, but I am down.  I don’t think Teresa’s hypothesis (which I mentioned yesterday) is a factor in keeping me down.  It might have been the trigger, but it’s pure bipolar crap that is keeping me this way.  I should be in a good mood, I am getting what I wanted, but no, I am down in the dumps, thinking the world would be better without me in it.  No, I am not suicidal, I never get suicidal, I just got really down depressed, which is where I am now.

Furthermore, I know if I came off my Nimodipine this mood would flip in a heartbeat or two.  But I am not that stupid.  Cycling like a madman is not preferred over being depressed.  Just another crazy thought that goes through my head when I am down.  Heh, my filter must be off today.  Don’t mind me, I’m just the crazy guy in the corner wishing he wasn’t alive but not going to do anything to reach that wish.


I did go to lunch with my good friend Drew.  Yes, finally, the lunch we scheduled months ago finally happened.  Beirman Furniture (the business furniture store he works for) picked up the tab…  Thanks Nate.  We did go to HuHot and it was exceptionally good today and not very crowded.  So we had a nice lunch and a nice chat.  I almost forgot I was depressed, hanging out with my friend was good for me.


Then the dryer vent cleaner guy came.  He was a really nice guy.  If you live in central Iowa, then use Central Iowa Duct Cleaning, Gary is a stand up guy, did a great job, came out next day and didn’t charge extra for coming out to Adel, and his flat rate (including tax) was 106.00 dollars and he really had to work for it on our dryer vent.  Two major plugs, it took him almost a whole hour to unclog our vent, but now air flows through cleanly.


Now, after playing happy for a few hours today, I am feeling drained.  I am thinking of taking a nap between when I finish this blog entry and when Teresa gets home.  I don’t normally take naps this late in the day, but today I might just do it.


Well, I heard back from Mayo, May 17th is Transplant Day, Day 0.  Which makes the 8th day -9, when I first have to show up at the hospital to take some anti-seizure pills.  2 days of pills, then 5 days of 1 chemo, then 2 days of the other chemo, then a day off, then the transplant.  Then we find out if I have to have extra chemo after I get the transplant.  I hope not, that would truly suck, but Dr Alkhateeb has mentioned this possibility several times.


May 17th also is the day that the dietician people rescheduled the class from May 3rd.  DOH.  They obviously didn’t look at my schedule when they rescheduled the class.  Well, the class is mainly for Teresa and I will be having a lot of prep before the transplant, so maybe she can go while I am getting prepped.  Or maybe then can move it til the 31st when it’s offered again if they really want me to be there for it.


We are going to try to leave here the evening of the May 2nd and head to my mom and brother’s place.  It’s a 6 hour drive and Teresa plans to work a full day, then drive it.  OUCH.  But if anyone can do that, it’s her.  Us going depends on 3 things.  1.  We get all packed in time.  2.  Sumpter Pharmacy can get permission to fill my meds a day early and gets them filled in time.  And 3.  We get official word from Mayo that the donor is on board and it’s all a go.  (Yeah, we still haven’t gotten that).  I’m not too worried about the first 2, packing I can do while Teresa is at work and Sumpter Pharmacy has never let us down.  The 3rd item might be an issue, but I will start harassing them soon to get official notice.


The plan is to get to my mom and brother’s with the dogs LATE on the 2nd.  Then spend the 3rd, 4th and 5th there, seeing friends if they are up to it, spending time with my family, and I would say trying to get the dogs adjusted, but 3 days isn’t enough for that.  Then the 6th driving the 6 hours to Rochester from Portage.  Then taking the 7th off to just relax.  Then start my treatment on the 8th.   Seems like a solid plan if you ask me.  Everything seems reasonable except the 6 hour drive after a full day of work on the 2nd, I think that is borderline insane.


Oh yeah, Drew said he’s going to come visit me up in Rochester.  I told him it has to be after 20 days after transplant.  I will be pale, bald, and wearing a mask, but I will be happy to see him.  But he said he was coming, I said he didn’t have to, and he said that he was coming anyway.  That’s the kind of friend I have in Drew.


I have a couple other friends who were talking coming up to visit me, I do not know if they are still planning on it or if it’s even crossed their minds in the months this has been pending.  I guess I will have to reach out and find out for myself if they still want to come.  You know friends seeing you when you are at your absolute worse, fun fun fun.


Room in the car is going to be tight for the trip up.  Teresa has already blackballed a couple things I was planning on bringing.  However, she has agreed to my D&D books. Since I am only taking 4 or 5 and then having Modenkainen’s Tome of Foes delivered up there.  The case I am taking them in will fit without much problem.  I just get the feeling that the 2015 Dodge Dart was not meant to haul 2 peoples’ stuff for 4 months.  I think there is more room in the Neon, but Teresa doesn’t like to drive it cuz it’s a stick, well maybe not more room, but different shaped room (squarer trunk).


I’m also taking my big book about Skyrim.  It’s about the size of 3 D&D books.  I will make room for it.  Yup.


I can’t seem to get my head around being away from home for 4 months.  And that is assuming I get out on time.  Everyone that I have mentioned the 100 days to has basically chuckled and said, “OH, your on the 100 day plan” inferring that most people get stuck in the transplant house longer than 100 days.  Oh well, this is my mental block, I guess I will just have to live it.


Damn, I have been blathering for 1200 words or pretty close to it.  I think I will go grab something musically and then sign off.


Yeah, I usually try to find a video which means something or is special to me.  In this case, you get a video.  Sorry.

Just another Monday, nothing manic about it.

Today I went and got a cat scan of my brain.  Having low platelets and a headache for 13 days triggered some alarms.  And better safe than sorry, off I went to have my cat scan.  It too about 10 times longer in registration than the test took.  lol.  Yeah, the registration ladies were slammed, the waiting room was practically standing room only.  Busiest I have ever seen them.  But I waited my turn, almost took another Jeff’s turn but that was only a little screw up on their part.  My turn was 2 people later.  heh.  Anyhow, I got registered and plopped my butt back down in the seats and waited for my cat scan.  The other Jeff went before me, he was in there for about 4 minutes, I was then called and was in there for even less I think.  Heh, I will take a cat scan over an MRI any day.


I also let my therapist go.  I didn’t want a huge fight over Mayo.  See her husband had AML shortly after I did.  He went to Mayo and they treated him like he pooped gold according to her.  Well, I have been very vocal about how Mayo treated me, so needless to say, it would have been awkward for me to be bashing Mayo to her while she holds them in such high regard.   I still think I need therapy, but I don’t think I can continue with my current (now ex) therapist.


The rest of the day, all of the morning and into the afternoon, I relaxed and did nothing.  OK, not nothing, but nothing truly constructive.  I didn’t even play any Skyrim or anything.  I just laid in bed like a lump.  It was a very fine way to spend most of a Monday.  But I am glad I had to go out, it was 43 degrees today, beautiful for winter in Iowa.


Tomorrow night is the 2nd session of my D&D game.  I believe I am ready for it.  If not, I will get ready tomorrow during the day.  I like which direction the party chose to go.  It should be a fun and interesting time, and have our first taste of mumble combat (which is always a mess for first time mumble players of which we have 3).  It’s all good.  We will have some laughs and they will get some treasure and they will be quasi-low level heroes.   Works for me.


This Friday should be session 3 of the Friday Night game.  First two sessions were a lot of fun, I don’t forsee there being any difference in this session.  The DM has decided that he is gonna give us items which grow in power as we level.  Cool, I like that idea.  Too much work for me to track so I probably wont be stealing it.


Pucky and Mojo got into Teresa’s candy stash and proceeded to mow down a lot of chocolate.  They seem ok, but a little sluggish.  We will watch them closely.  The biggest thing that has happened any other time they have gotten into chocolate is diarrhea and you’d be surprised the amount 2 Chihuahuas can put out.


I feel good.  That has been iffy in recent times, but I feel good now, right this minute.  And you know what?  I’ll take that.  I Feel Good.


Yesterday, I started a female wood elf character in Skyrim, named her Lilly.  The only reason I made a female character is their is a perma-buff you can get in the game which gives you major plusses vs boss type enemies of the opposite sex.  Since 95% of the boss type enemies are male.  I decided to play a female.  And it’s totally funny that they (Bethesda, the company who made the game) changed the way people talk to a female vs a male.  The male computer characters are all nicer.  lol.  Lilly is only level 12 right now, doesn’t have that perma-buff yet.  But is cruising along nicely.


Tomorrow I think I am going to drive up to Grimes to see Quality Marble & Tile to get a price quote on getting tile put all over our main floor.  Teresa originally wanted heated tile but that turned out to be cost prohibited.  Now she just wants tile everywhere.  I got her to agree to throw rugs over said tile, she agreed “as long as they are washable”.  I can agree with that.


Wednesday I am going to lunch with Drew the business furniture guy I have mentioned several times.  We do lunch every now and then, taking turns who is buying.  Well, he thinks he is buying this time, got news for him, he gave us a really expensive chair, I am buying his lunch this time and next time and maybe the time after that.


And Thursday I see my Cancer Doc, Dr. Wehbe.  I have about a zillion questions for him now that my platelets have tanked and I have started platelet infusions.  Teresa has a bunch of questions for him to.  After all, this is gonna be our life for the rest of my life, however long that happens to be.


Music for the masses………


They liked it, they really liked it.

It’s Day 13 of my headache.  Teresa thinks it’s migraines.  I think it’s stress.  I am finally going to see a doctor tomorrow.  I sent an email to my cancer doc’s nurse asking if it could be related to low platelets.  Doc said he didn’t think so, but wants to run an MRI of my brain.  I said NO to that.  I have had too many MRI scans done of my head in my life.  Plus since the lithium fiasco of a few years ago, I can’t hold my head still if I have to.  I shake.  So, in order to get an MRI of my brain, I have to dope myself up with 3 clonazepam which will effectively knock me out.   He wants to rule out cancer or tumor in my head.  I don’t want to know if I have either of those, really I don’t.  So no MRI right now.  Lets give the regular doc a chance to stop them and if she fails, we will revisit the MRI route.


In better news, my D&D game was a rousing success.  The players all said they have a great time and I had a great time too.  It’s all I could ask for.  It was 2 hours of laughing and playing sleuth to 2 puzzles and getting their proverbial butts kicked by the 3rd.  LOL. It was fun.  And remember, it’s all fun and games until someone gets hurt.  And luckily, no one got hurt as there was no combat and no one cared.  Hey, I got a role playing liking party.  OMG, I have missed those.  Most parties want hack and slash.  WOOT, I can still run 2 hours with no combat and keep the party entertained, I am happy.


I am playing Skyrim again finally.  I am playing it with the volume turned way down and subtitles.  Stupid headache.  Anyhow it’s the best game I have ever played.  So much to do.   If you remotely like RPGs, either paper or on the computer.  Skyrim is definitely worth getting.  It’s a couple years old, you can get it super cheap and I have somewhere near 2000 hours invested in it since I got it last Christmas.  LOL.  It’s a really good game.


I have also played some Civ4 Warlords lately.  It’s a game that I believe has really stood up well over time.  Not as complex as 6, or as stupid as 5.  Civ4 Warlords was simple compared to the complexity of it’s following games.  I own 5 and 6 but my love is Civ4 Warlords.  I like being Augustus Cesar and building a bunch of cities off the bat, his leadership traits make it possible to not lose too much research quickly.  Research is key to winning in my opinion.


Pucky and especially Mojo are not liking winter.  They liked being able to go out on their own.  Now the dog door was taken out and they are stuck inside like me.  It’s just too cold for Chihuahuas right now.  It’s supposed to warm up later in a week or so, maybe the dogs will get their door back for a few days.


I’m not liking winter very much either.  I don’t like the cold any more than I like the hot of summer.  Still have zero ability to control my internal temperature.  If I get cold, I am cold for a very long time.  Luckily, I have a big coat that can keep me warm enough down to like -60 Fahrenheit.  And even luckierly it still fits.  LOL.  I have put on weight but I guess not in my gut, weird.


Teresa wants heated tile throughout the main floor of the house.  I have a friend in the tile business, when I told her how big of an area Teresa wanted done, she flipped.  Said it would cost probably around 25,000 dollars low end.  I chocked on that.  In maybe 20 years we can afford that.  So instead Teresa now wants to know just how much is it to tile the whole floor.  Now I am not a big fan of tiling every room.  Gonna be interesting the discussion we have about this when the reality of the project comes to pass.  I happen to like carpet.


I seem to have lost most of my WordPress readers.  I got 1 new one, but overall the tracker thing says all my readers are coming from Facebook.  Not that it’s a bad thing, just wondering what changed so the WP Readers stopped being interested.  Oh well, I write these for me, so for me they will be.  And because it’s my blog…….


It’s Thursday, right?

Well, mom just left to go to the airport to head home.  I am already missing her.  The visit was really nice.  I love my mom.  She is the greatest.  I do wish that she and my brother lived closer than 6+ hour drive away.  Yeah, I know its an hour flight, but that costs a bunch and money is well, money is what it is.  Anyhow, I know my mom doesn’t read my blog, but just in case she decides to….  Thanks for the visit, MOM.  We love you.


Got the results of my cat scan.  I have 3 gall stones of various sizes, which are doing much of nothing.  So, since they aren’t causing any problems, don’t worry about them until/unless they do.  OK.  I have 1 kidney stone, a little tiny 1mm (yes, 1 millimeter) kidney stone, which should eventually pass on its own.  Chris, my PA, offered to set up a kidney specialist appointment for me to see if they would recommend anything, I said nah, so I get pain every now and then, no biggie.  Certainly isn’t worth a copay to find out there is nothing to be done.


Wife’s car is in the shop, she is gonna take mine to go to work (if she goes in today, so far she has been working from home), which leaves me car-less.  Wouldn’t normally be a big deal, but today I have Physical Therapy at 3.  I should call and cancel.  But there is a small chance that her car will be fixed before then.   All that is wrong with it is the passenger side rear tire has a slow leak.  Not rocket science.


I’ve been having nightmares lately, I rarely have nightmares.  Not scary ones, but highly disturbing ones.  I think the pain is causing them… or maybe the flexeril I am taking to keep the muscles from freaking out.   Anyhow, disturbing is the correct word, I wake up thinking the most obscure thoughts and have trouble falling back asleep.  I will be happy when my back is “fixed” and I don’t have to take meds or deal with pain anymore.  Ha Ha Ha, a boy can dream, right?


I still haven’t been able to win a game of Mutant Football League (except the first when the other team had to forfeit for too many dead players).  I have scored in every game, but my defense sucks and whichever team I am playing against scores many more points.  It’s not getting frustrating yet, I am learning, I am getting better.


I am already back to CIV 4 Warlords.  Yeah, I didn’t get burned out for very long.  Still trying to beat the game in conquest mode.  I can get to 8 or 9 enemies defeated, but the last 1 or 2 are just annoyingly impossible.  UGH.  I don’t want to resort to NUKES, but that might be the only way.


I tried to play Skyrim some last night, but still suffering from Skyrim burnout.  So, I won’t be playing that for a while.  It’s ok, I will get back into it sooner or later.  I have no worries about that.  In the mean time I have MFL and Civ4 Warlords to keep me busy.


It wouldn’t be a Hectic.blog post if I didn’t mention my back.  I have found the times to take my flexeril which keep my back from hurting the most.  Yeah, the morning one knocks me back out for an hour or two, but for no pain its very worth it.  And the evening one just helps me fall asleep and lets me sleep thru the night.  I haven’t touched a pain pill in several days.  Woo Hoo.


I still haven’t written a letter to my old doctor letting her know that I am seeing a new medical provider.  I really should do that.  I got labs coming up in October and I don’t want to be called by her office when I am getting them done somewhere else.  Besides she did right by me, she is the one who discovered my leukemia.  However, it was definitely time to move on.


Teresa has this dream of putting heated floors throughout the living area.  I thought she was just talking about it, dreaming.  Nope, she is saving money specifically for that and wanting me to save my disability money too for the cause.  Personally, I think we need a new washer and dryer first, but since I don’t do the laundry and I do walk on the floors, my vote only 1/2 counts.  So, some time in the nearish future, we will have heated floors and no carpet.  I can live with that.


I think I have given up bipolar chats.  It’s always the same stuff every time I log in.  Same trolls, same whiners, same oblivious people.  It’s not that I am any better than these people, it’s just that I am tired of it, and have been for a while.  So, I don’t think I will be going back anytime soon.


Now, leukemia chat is a different story.  As long as they don’t start talking about how successful they are even though they have/had leukemia.  I am good.  I just always seem to forget it’s Thursday and miss the chats.  Really bad about that.  I know today is Thursday, but by this evening, I will probably forget AGAIN.


I took my morning flexeril a little late so I wouldn’t be so sleepy when my mom was getting ready to leave, you know, so I could spend a little extra time with her.  Anyhow, the sleepiness is hitting me now.  So, I am gonna split.  You all have a great day (whichever day you end up reading this).

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Still hurting after all this time…

Pain is still the operative word of the day/week/month/months.  My back is still killing me.  I think on Monday I will call the pain doc’s office and double check that there hasn’t been any cancellations and I am still on the list.  The pain is getting worse.  All I really want is to be able to sit in a chair for 2 hours without a lot of pain.  I don’t think that is asking too much.  2 hours, 2 measly hours.

When I went to the pain doc in June, I had one point for trigger point injections.  Now I have like 6 spots on my back.  Easier to point on where it doesn’t hurt.  Plus my neck issue is acting up and its shooting pain down my right arm.  Grrr.  Pain sucks.  Sucks very much.  And it all started with one jerk who barely tapped my back bumper at a yield sign back in 1999.  Yup, for most of almost 20 years I have been in mild to severe pain, that is the back problem.  Not sure when I messed up my neck, possibly as far back as high school, so 30 years for that pain.

The first time I got trigger point injections they last 3 months.  This time the pain relief in that spot was 6 days.  Not good.  I am gonna end up back on pain meds, I just know it.  I am not happy about it, but if that is what it takes to get me to where I can sit, so be it.  So be it.


Pain was so bad tonight that I had to cancel my Friday night D&D game.  It was to be the final session of this story arc.  But no, I could not sit at my desk for 2 hours to run the game.  I just was hurting so bad.  I needed to be laying pretty much flat in bed, which is what I am doing now.  My laptop might be a POS, but it works for writing this blog when I can’t sit at the desk.


Mojo had a slight infection in both ears.  Got goop put into each ear and smeared around.  Was kind of expensive, but the little guy is worth it.  Next vet visit is for Pucky to have a deep teeth cleaning, one where they knock him out, he’s officially elderly now, he turned 7 on the 4th of July.  Beyond having his teeth cleaned they are gonna remove 2 loose teeth that aren’t/haven’t fallen out on their own.


I called to confirm with the movers for Monday morning.  The guy was all shocked that I called.  I guess no one else ever calls to make sure.  I also wanted to make sure to remind him that the place doesn’t open til 9:30.  I lost the keys to the lock, luckily the place I rent the storage locker at will cut locks off for customers as long as they have proper ID.  So it’s all good.


It’ll be cool to have nice furniture to set up on.  A big desk 72″x36″.  And the 2 cabinets and a bookcase.  I have a lot of stuff that needs to be stored.  Getting these pieces into the bedroom is going to be interesting.  Glad I am not the mover.  We just have to move them into place, once we figure out how the are gonna be placed.  For the desk and the printer cabinet we have a good idea of where they are gonna go.  So it just matters if the other cabinet and the bookcase will have enough room to sit side by side next to the desk. I think there is enough room, not sure.  I don’t remember exact measurements.  So its all gonna be put in place on the fly so to speak.


The remainder of the stuff from storage is going downstairs.  Not that there is a whole lot of space down there, but there really isn’t that much in storage after you remove the big furniture pieces.  A small fridge.  A toaster oven.  A 36″ round table (would have went in the bedroom, just ran out of room).  4 visitor chairs.  Probably a box or two.  A 4ft folding table.  I don’t remember much else.  The giant map of the world is going on the ugly wall here in the bedroom.  Basically anything else besides the earlier mentioned furniture and the map are going to the basement.  I guess this weekend I will go make some room down there when my back will let me.


I cancelled my therapy appoint, my shrink appointment, a dentist appointment and lunch with a friend so far cuz of this problem with my back.  Something has got to give.


Have I mentioned how much I love my wife lately?   Well, for the record, I love my wife.

While cleaning the back 40 we came across some old pictures of us and had a nice chuckle about how skinny we used to be.  LOL.  Oh so many years ago.  Now plump is the polite word for us.  But then again, most of us around my age are plump.


Disturbed’s – Sound of Silence.  It’s kind of my wife’s new go to song for testing anything electronic.  She got a new Bluetooth speaker for her Echo Dot.  She is testing it out in the bedroom, its 11:35 at night, we share a bedroom wall with our neighbor.  The song gets LOUD.   Teresa, I love her dearly, has little to not concept of how loud is loud.  I hope Gordy and his wife (whose name I have forgotten again) don’t complain about how loud it got tonight.


Speaking of Disturbed’s Sound of Silence, here ya go.

We did it…

Well, my mood improved drastically today.  Love when my mood cycles out of crap fast, a benefit of being Ultradian Bipolar.   Nimodipine, the med I take as a mood stabilizer actually slows down my cycling to a couple days from much less time.  No, you didn’t read it wrong, I said I am on Nimodipine, a calcium channel blocker, for mood stabilization.  I am like 1 in 3 in the US on it and we 3 really like it.  Works as good as lithium for me without the wicked side effects.

 


 

As I talked about yesterday.  We cleaned the rest of the “back 40″ today.  Only took 3 hours because we took some long breaks.  If we had fought straight thru it would have only been an hour and halfish.  I had forgotten just how big this room is.  Its like 20×20, if not more.  The biggest bedroom I have ever seen in a house this size.  So we are turning the back half into an office/crafting area.  Teresa’s computer setup has always been back here, my computer and stuff moved back a week or so ago.

Now we are ready to get movers to move the stuff from my storage unit to here.  It’ll be nice having a BIG desk again.  36″x72”.  With lots of storage on the desk.  Then the printer table has a  bunch more storage, plus the bookshelf.  Gonna have lots of places to put stuff.  Much nice then the hodgepodge of furniture I have available to me now.  A kid’s desk, 2 different nightstands and a cardboard box.  I have to store most of my D&D books across the room.  It will be nice to have them close at hand.


Teresa discovered I am not a packrat or a hoarder.  I am just lazy and don’t want to go thru the trouble of throwing stuff away.  She made the distinction today as she is a pack rat.  I am just one to throw stuff I am not using into a pile.  Not really caring if its useful or trash, then I forget that it even exists.  In my defense, I do have a mental disorder with a lot of idiosyncrasies, being lazy is just one of them.


I have been toying with changing the idea of my Sunday afternoon D&D game to make it a Saturday afternoon D&D game.  Just not sure at this time and that is ok, cuz its gonna be 3 or 4 week before I decide to start looking for players seriously.  Passively looking I think I have 1 already and to him it doesn’t matter which day.

Really do wish I could find an in-person game instead of running a 3rd online game, but hey gotta take what I can get.  I don’t get to the gaming stores very often (been a couple years, pre-leukemia) since I stepped into one.  Gaming stores are the only way I know how to get localish playing games.   Mayhem comics runs a onine bbs, but its not very active.  I am betting they have contact info in the store for gamers.  Just would have to get off my lazy butt and go down there and see, also Jay’s Hobbies and the new place I can’t remember the name of, they both sell gaming stuff, so they might have a list of players too.  Once I get my back fixed.


Speaking of getting my back fixed, still haven’t heard from the pain doc’s office about getting me in earlier.  August 17th is looking FAR away.


Hmmm, gotta figure out where to put my current setup when the movers bring the office setup in.  I am kinda in the way.  So is some of Teresa’s stuff for the matter.  Have a few days at least to think about disposition of the stuff.  Plus we desperately need to vacuum.


I can tell my platelets are still low, this bruise is taking FOREVER to go away.


And finally, for the record:  I LOVE MY WIFE.

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Actually got off my butt and went out with Teresa this afternoon/evening.  She asked several times today if I was up to going to HuHot and I kept saying No.  Still really depressed, still in a lot of pain.  But come 4:10pm or so, I decided that going out is what I really needed to do.  So, out we went.

First stop was HuHot, was good as per usual.  Only complaint I had was the cook burned my noodles a bit.  Happens from time to time. Also though, the pain in the back got worse.  That happens from time to time too.

Second stop was Penzey’s Spices.  55 bucks for the smaller bottle of double strength Pure Vanilla seems excessive to me.  But hey, it is what Teresa wanted, so its all good.  Teresa also go whatever it is that makes pastrami, she plan to make some for me.  I love homemade pastrami, so I look forward to this.

Then we went to Office Depot, Teresa wanted a new shelf for the front closet.  Office Depot had exactly what she wanted for 10 dollars less than Amazon.  Go figure.  I guess sometimes it pays to shop around.  I got 2 new surge protectors for my computer, the ones I have are OLD and have long sense became power strips.  So now, when I get set up with my desk and everything, I will be set.

Last stop was HyVee (which is a grocery store for those that don’t know).  Why?  Cuz eggs were on sale for 69cents a dozen.  And we got some Adel Dierdorf corn, happen to be some of the smallest ears I have ever seen, but Dierdorf corn is gonna taste good anyway.  Teresa kept asking if there was anything I wanted, by this point I was still very full from HuHot and in a whole new dimension of pain.  So I said no to everything, I am sure I will regret that later.

All in all, my depression is better, my pain is worse but it’s getting better cuz the 6pm ibuprofen is kicking in.


We have decided to hire movers to move all the stuff from my storage unit to the house.  50sq ft storage 80% full.  Only took them 2 hours to move my stuff from my office to the storage unit, should take them less to move from the storage unit to my house as my house is a good 20 miles closer.  So with tip it should cost us about 250 bucks.   Not too bad if it keeps me from melting when the temperature goes up this week.  Gotta call the movers tomorrow if they are open or Monday and get an appointment.


I have decided that I am gonna hold of on starting a Sunday game until after I have run the Wednesday night game for a few weeks along with the ongoing Friday night game.  Just makes sense to make sure I can handle 2 games before going into a 3rd.  I’m sure I can, but want to make sure.

I am going to be advertising for the game on reddit’s Looking for Group page.  And on a couple of Facebook groups.  Should have no problem getting players once I decide to start looking.  The Sunday group will be the first group I run without someone I know playing in it, EVER.  A little intimidating, but its all good.

And I have decided that I do not like roll20.net .  Well, it’s definitely not for me.  All the games being advertised on reddit seem to use roll20 and Discord.  I know I don’t care for Discord.   Roll20 is a website that lets you track all the players and rolls dice and shows maps and so forth.  Lazy DMmanship.  I can pain the picture in my players heads and I trust my players to roll dice and I trust players to keep track of stuff themselves.  I talked about Discord yesterday I think, does things I don’t know how, but I can’t record it.  And I really like having the option to record the game sessions.  So I will use pencil and paper (computer) and good old D&D Dice for playing and Mumble for the talking part cuz it allows me to record.


Oh, I am thinking of taking my wife’s old computer (remember I mentioned she commandeered my Mac) and turning into a mumble server.  Then I wouldn’t have to worry about using my friend’s mumble server.  Not that he minds, he offered actually.  But I would feel better running it on my own.


This weekend we are cleaning the rest of the back 40.  Most people use the term to refer to their yards, we use it to refer to the back half of our bedroom.  Yes, it’s that big.  We cleaned 1/2 for my set up now.  Need the other half cleaned out to bring my Desk and stuff from storage.  Lots of junk is piled there as of now as its been a collecting point of “stuff” for the 13 years we have lived here.

It shouldn’t take too long too clean out.  Throwing most of this junk away.  Just need to sort of the few gems in the pile and find a home for them.  I figure we will be done in about 3 hours like the first half of the back 40 took.


Slowly taking a class from Udemy.com (they have video classes for just about everything).  The class is on web development.  Supposedly, it will give me the ability to get a job as a website designer.  Don’t want a job.  Don’t need a job.  Do want to build at least 1 really cool website, which I will talk about in another post or six later.


Ah, the ibuprofen has fully kicked in.  The only pain that is still severe in the pain in my neck/shoulder area.  NOTHING I have ever done has taken care of that pain when it has decided to hurt.  Not acupuncture, not shots, not dilaudid, NOTHING.  I hurts and it hurts severely when it does.  The rest of the back feels ok now.


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Need a new desk

Painwise I have hurt most of the day.  My back can’t take sitting or standing very well.  Only recourse is to lay down, which will lead to excessive napping, which will mean I won’t sleep at night, which means I will disturb Teresa. oh, this goes on and on.  Basically, any way I work this I end up hurting.  I’m hoping that the pain doc’s office will call soon so I can get the pain taken care of.


My mood took a turn down today.  I guess I look forward to the D&D games more than I realized and it thru my bipolar brain into a not so slight downswing.  Everything is going so well in my life, got nothing else to complain about.  Has to be cuz of the stupid D&D games being cancelled.  Trying to look forward to next week, but its blah this week.


We did get a second monitor hooked up to my system today.  That was a bright spot in an otherwise gloomy day.  Now I can be doing stuff on one screen while reading Facebook on the other.  Cool Cool, so very cool.


My new computer set up is kind of nice.  Although my desk is entirely too short (hey, it was free).  Gotta replace the cardboard box table with another table from the Family Dollar store.  But beyond those 2 little things, its very comfy and very practical.  Maybe for Christmas or my Birthday I will get a big boy desk (craigslist) and then I wouldn’t need so many small tables.


I think I may be crazy, but I am thinking seriously about setting up 1 more online D&D game.  This time on Sunday afternoons, so that my west coast friends that play have the option of joining the game.  Gonna probably switch to DISCORD for voice chat software.  Then I won’t be tying up my friend mumble server and using his bandwidth.  DISCORD is free and somehow runs locally on everyone’s computer.  Really beyond my feeble brain capacity to figure out how it works.  Anyhow, if we use DISCORD we won’t be able to record the sessions.  So, I gotta think about this.  And furthermore, gotta think about if I really can handle a 3rd session a week.  Heh, it’s not like I have anything else to do with my time, might as well play D&D.


Our dogs are definitely getting used to me not being in bed all the time.   They still get confused when Teresa tells them to “Go see Daddy” for a treat.  They start to run to the bed, then turn around slowly, and then run back to me.


I still miss my Mom and Brother, but not as much as I have recently.  It’s right after seeing them when it’s bad, now its just a generalized miss.  I tell ya though, if Jet Blue flew in to/out of Des Moines, I would have flown to see them again on Jet Blue’s special they are having.  But nope, no Jet Blue around here.  So, it’ll be November when I see them again.


We LOVE the new stove.  It rocks.  We have barely touched what it’s capable of doing, but it’s wonderful.  Had to cut down cooking times of everything we cooked in our old stove.  3 to 5 minutes usually.  The difference from the old stove which wasn’t close to correct temp or the new stove which holds the correct temp like a champion.  Whirlpool made a great product there.


Oh hell, I almost forgot.  I got a big adult type desk in storage.  Don’t really know how to get it here or how to put it together.  But hey, I own a big desk that would hold all this stuff and then some.   It’s totally the wrong color for this room, but hey, it’s already paid for.  I guess it might be time to bug Drew to come do me a solid.  Below is the desk I have in storage.  Would be nice to put it back in use somewhere… why not here?


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Blah… with promise

In what promised to be an excellent week of D&D gaming, both games get cancelled.  Yup, the Wednesday night game was cancelled due to 2 people having family emergency issues and the Friday night game was cancelled due to the main player of the storyline’s computer being ill.  Technically we could still play on Friday but I don’t have time to redo the storyline so it would just kinda be a blah ending to 3 weeks of good adventure.  I’m glad it was decided to cancel.


Teresa is going on travel again the end of the month.  I hate when she goes on travel, and since I “got better” she has been going on more and more travel.  I guess I shouldn’t complain too much, she is getting paid good money to do her job and I think her work looks at travel as kind of an award for doing good work.  I forgot to ask her where she was going, probably New York again.


My back is still thrashed.  I don’t know if I can take this level of pain until August 17th.  I hope they call me in sooner, wish people would cancel appointments.  It’s not like I need much notice, 2 hours notice is good enough for me, but they always give at least 24 hours, so it’s all good.  I hurt, I hurt badly, but I will get thru it, I always do.


My new nightstand/bookshelf arrived today.  Teresa assembled it.  It’s the perfect size for D&D books.  And the top is big enough to hold all my stuff that I kept of my desk that I use.  CPAP, fan, wallet, keys, ipad, cell phone.  All of it fits on top just fine with room for extra stuff.  I’m happy.


I still am trying to find an in person D&D game locally that I can play in.  Yeah, I love DMing, but I miss playing.  I will find one eventually, there has to be one somewhere for a forty something gamer who loves to play.


Teresa ordered me a cable so I can have a second monitor on my computer.  Have a nice 24″ Acer monitor which would very much fill the bill.  Just don’t have the proper cable at this time.  The proper cable will be here Friday.


Pucky and Mojo are a bit confused with me not being in bed all day.  They come rushing in to the room and run onto the bed, do a quick look for me, then it dawns on them that I am over at the computer area and they come over for treats.  It’s funny, it’s cute.


Our first payment on the house cleared the bank today.  YAY.  Payments are still less than what we were paying in rent and we will own the house in less than 15 years.  Yeah buddy.


I still haven’t called to make a payment towards the vacation.  Gotta get on that for this month, just feeling lazy.


Yesterday was Pucky’s birthday.  He turned 7.  So happy to have him and Mojo in my life.

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