Woot and Argh

Teresa finally said it was ok for me to try school again.  So, I sent in my application to WGU.  They normally charge 65 bucks to apply, but they sent me a free app code, so its all good there.

Anxiety has already started though 😦  Anxious about taking the Readiness Exams.  You know the tests to determine if you know enough for the basic courses.  When I went to start at DMACC I did ok on the math, but sorta bombed the English part.

Dealing with new anxiety and my therapist is out of town.  Hmmm, I think I may need a new therapist to help me get going on this.  I need somewhere to vent and talk thru what is going on inside my head.  I think I will text my therapist (and hope I don’t disturb her too much, she is with her husband who is being treated for leukemia) and see about getting a new therapist from the same place.

Anyhow, at the last moment of the application filing I changed the security emphasis to network administration.  Not sure why.  Just seems right.  Again, its all good, I can change my major at any time during the first 3 terms because classes are the same for all IT majors.  Judging by the jobs available at rht.com, there are about 50 times more network admin jobs than network security jobs available in Des Moines.  And besides, Teresa can help me with a lot of the network admin stuff.

So now, I am hoping to be a 46 year old Freshman.  And hoping to finish my first Bachelor’s degree at age 50.  Just roughly 30 years later than originally planned.  But a school like WGU didn’t exist 30 years ago.  So, I am gonna try this now.

Like I said before, I am hoping to start on May 1st.  It will mean my terms are May-October and then November-April.  Since its all self-paced, they start people any month they want.  I like this setup.  I know they hold commencement ceremonies in Utah twice a year.  My mom had declared we have to go if I do graduate.  It’s all good, I look good in purple and white (the schools robes are a deep purple color and the tassels are white).  But I am getting way ahead of myself.  Have to start school before I think about graduation.

Let me see, tonight I will force myself to take the readiness exams.  I sure hope I do ok on them.  Would hate to be told I can’t attend because I am too unprepared for college.  It has been a long time since I have solved for x or even figured out what 1/2 of 2/3 is.  But I can figure this stuff out.  And I get to write an essay.  First essay I have written in over 20 years. FUN FUN FUN.

I grumble, but I got this.  It’s all good.  Seriously, if it is meant to be, I will pass these readiness exams, upload my resume, and get admitted to school.  If its not, then I am no worse for wear.  If I can’t get in, I just give up and go back to the original plan (well, the original of a couple weeks ago).

And so I come to another entry in my blog.  Sorry for boring you few who are reading, but this is how I am dealing with the anxiety.  Writing about it has always helped.  My old livejournal blog was driven by anxiety.  I hope this blog becomes full of goodness and rightness and not just anxiety driven blather.











More on School

Well, Teresa hasn’t said No to me going to school.  Lack of no means I am treating it as a yes.  I will be starting school hopefully in May.

Which will have my terms going May-Oct, Nov-April.  I can handle that setup.

Have been trying to do my FAFSA to get student loans but the link to the IRS to pull tax info for the FAFSA is down for maintenance…  for 3 days now.

Its all good though, I talk to Kelsey, my enrollment counselor tomorrow at 2:40 or was it 2:45, oh well, doesn’t matter 5 minutes, I will just be sitting on my butt anyway.

Tomorrow I will also be filling out my application for admission, WGU gave me a code to wave the 65 dollar fee that normally is required.  That was mighty nice of them.

I have decided I am going for a BS in IT-Security.  It was that or Software Development.  I thought about it, and I don’t see myself as a programmer.  Sitting at a desk for 8+ hours a day sifting thru code would probably drive me more insane.  Cyber Security really interests me.  So that is where I am gonna go with this.

If things go as planned, I should graduate in 2021.  Heh, I didn’t think I would live that long.  Leukemia odds are very against it, but hey, I am doing well there.

Anyway, I hope to get my FAFSA done today or tomorrow.  I may have to fill out the tax info myself (with help from my mom) on the FAFSA.  And hoping I get my application in tomorrow.  And I hope I get all my ducks in a row so I can get started in May… application, acceptance, financial aid, orientation class, all of it.

I will be exceptionally happy if I can pull this off.  Not just getting set up to start in May… I am talking the whole thing.  Finally getting a degree.  Despite everything that has put this off for oh so many years.  I think it might actually happen this time.  And if it does, I will traipse all the way to Utah to walk in the graduation ceremony.  LOL.  Make my mom proud.









Hectic Has a Blog

Heya guys, those few lucky(?) soles who will actually read this.  Some of you know me as Jeff, some of you know me as Hectic, some of you know me as Mother, some of you might know me as Damon…  Anyhow, its me.  And I have a new blog here at Hectic.blog and I am actually gonna try to keep it up.

This post is gonna be about me going to try school AGAIN.  Yes, I know I will be 47 years old in August and I am disabled cuz I am nuts.  I also know I have tried school over a dozen times and failed miserably (eventually) every time I have tried.  Well, I found a school that is different than traditional schools.

Western Governor’s University, out of Utah (and a few other states) is a fully accredited University offering several different programs which I am interested in.  I haven’t quite picked which one I want to do, but Information Technology -Security is in the front so to speak.

WGU offers all their classes over 6 month semesters.  So 2 semesters a year.  That have a flat fee for each semester, not a per credit hour fee.  So the price to take 12 credits is the same as the price to take 20.  12 being the minimum that they allow.

All of their classes are pass/fail/keeping trying until you pass.  Which is one of the things I really like about it.  You can test out of any class as soon as you feel you are ready, be that 2 days in, 2 weeks in, 2 months in or 6 months, however long it takes as long as its not over 6 months.

If I take 20 units a semester (they don’t call them semesters, I forget the word they used).  I can finish the degree in 3 years.  If I went to DMACC it would be 2+ years for an AA.  Here its 3 years for a BS.

Being as they are fully accredited, the federal government offers financial aid.  Yeah, T makes too much money for PELL grants, but Student Loans will work just fine.

Everyone I have talked to has said to get ANY job in IT, you need a degree and certifications.  WGU offers both.  You get the certifications as you are getting the degree.  BONUS.

Yeah, I might totally screw this up…  odds are I will screw this up.  But I have to try.  I just have to.   And you never know, I might actually do this.