Where did it go?

The weather turned beautiful here, mid-70s to high-60s.  We had a day of storms.  But the aftermath of that is wonderful cool clear days.  The weather guy says the 90s are definitely gone.  He even inferred that 80s are history too.   I can deal with that.  Just hoping my mood doesn’t crash hard again this year.  Not fair that my mood goes to hell during my favorite season.

I was gonna write something yesterday, but I drew a total blank of anything to talk about.

After blowing off physical therapy last week, I went today.  I am half-ass doing my stretching exercises when not there.  I even forgot one that he had taught me.   But a half job is more than I have ever done before.  Anyhow,  I have no clue if pt is helping or not.  Flexeril is keeping me out of pain, since all of it is muscular.  Heh.  I will keep doing pt until I a. get bored with it or b. Doc realizes it’s doing nothing for me.

I messaged my mental therapist last night, have an appointment for tomorrow.  I got some stuff to get off my chest, she is good for that.  And since my back started really hurting I haven’t sat in a chair for an hour.  This should prove interesting.

I also have a shrink appointment on October 13th.  Called and got that appointment on Monday.  I haven’t seen him in a LONG time.  Kinda sorta have to see him now and then or he will stop prescribing meds.  No mental meds means a really crazy me.  So, I will see him on the 13th and then again in January… every 3 months.

I came off my blood pressure medicine as my pressure at the cancer doc’s office last time was 76/44.  Again my blood pressure yo-yoed.  It was 150/120 4 months ago.  So I went on the med, now its back to normal, so off the med.  It cycles funny.

I got my highest score ever on Civ 4.  13,474 points.  Ranked me Abraham Lincoln.  Only 2 guys higher on the ranking scale.  True that I did it on Diplomatic, after taking out 5 other civilizations, I had enough votes to carry me to victory after I built the UN.  So, if I work to built the UN quicker while still killing off other civilizations, I should be able to break the 15,000 mark.

I still haven’t won a conquest game.  Now I am getting frustrated with the game.  I get down to the last civilization and they go back and attack my early cities which I have a tendency to leave under-defended.  Then I get mad, and quit that game.  I should learn from my mistakes, but NO, I do the same thing over and over expecting a different result (the definition of insanity).

While my mom was here, I caught my arm on the car door.  Gave myself a hell of a bruise.  With my low platelets, this bruise is gonna be here a month of longer.  At least I didn’t cut myself.   I wonder how low my platelets are now, last time they were 39 down from 41 which was down from 44.  Supposed to be 150 at least.  So I am not just a little low, I am a lot low.  I find out if platelets are up or down on October 12th.  (Need to put that in my phone calendar).

I think Teresa is thinking of using some of the money we have saved up so we can go to Disneyland or Disneyworld.   I prefer World, but Land is much cheaper.  Why I think this is last night she brought up the topic that we haven’t done Disney since we left California.   Not even while we lived in Vegas (VEGAS SUCKS).  Just once or twice or three times to Disneyland every year we lived in California.  It would be nice to go on said vacation.  I know, I will price out both for her.  I will present her with little packets of why we should do each and how much each would cost.

A moment to clarify my comment about Vegas Sucking.  Vegas does not suck to visit.  Vegas does not suck if you are wealthy.  Vegas sucks if you are of the average or lower classes.  It’s definitely a city of haves and have nots.   Don’t believe me?  Go into a Hotel Restaurant and let a celebrity walk in right after you.  You will literally be pushed aside so they can cater to the celebrity.  We had this happen twice in the 9 years we lived there.  The only good thing that came out of living in Vegas is that it is where we got married.  A real wedding.  No we didn’t do a drive thru and our preacher wasn’t an Elvis impersonator.  The Las Vegas Tennis Club is a beautiful setting and Reverend Dianne was wonderful (sorry, I don’t remember her last name).

I haven’t touched Mutant Football League all week.  I’m not sure why.  It’s just when I break out the computer to play a game, I play Civ 4.  MFL just hit open beta on steam.  If you have any interested in computer football with a lot of gore, you should check it out.

Is it me, or has this year just flown by?  I mean, in 4 days it will be October.  Seems like just last week there was the big hubbub about Fireworks on the 4th of July.  And prior to that it seemed like a week before they were talking about all the snow we didn’t get last winter.  Let’s have the last 3 months of the year blow by too.

Watching Dancing with the Stars with Teresa.  It’s something we enjoy together.  Again they cast ones you knew were gonna suck and get voted off quickly and then they have one guy who sings and dances and acts… notice I said Dances.  Yup, he is a trained dancer just not ballroom style.  But he knows the basics already.  Not really fair.  But its funny watching the blurbs before the dances and some of the dances are very good already.

Welcome to Fall 2017.

Welcome Fall, let’s not make my mood crash and avoid the Seasonal Affective Disorder crap I go thru every year.  It’s September 22, the first day of Fall and it was 92 degrees outside today.  They say that the seasons come when they want to here in Iowa, I tend to believe that whole heartedly.  It is supposed to cool down on Monday or Tuesday along with a storm or two.  Just a few anomalous days of ridiculous heat and humidity to make us appreciate the cooler days when they come.

Mom made it home safely, about 12 hours after she left our house.   She got to the airport too early, had a 2 1/2 hour wait there, boarded the plane, plane had a problem, so they deboarded the plane.  She waited another 2 hours or for them to fix the problem.  She finally got to Chicago only to miss the bus home by less than a minute.  Had to wait another hour for the next bus home.  Then on the way home, she and my brother stopped for dinner.  Anyhow, she finally got home around 10pm after leaving our home around 10am.  LONG day for her.

I am back to missing my mom terribly.  She means so much to me.   I am so lucky to have her as my mother.   I will see her again around Thanksgiving, not too far away.  And she has plans to come visit again in February.  So it’s all good.  I talk to her on the phone a lot, 2 or 3 times a week, sometimes every day, some days several times those days.  Wish she hung out on Facebook, then I could just chat with her, but she plays on POGO and that is about all she does on the computer.

Another Thursday passed and another missed leukemia chat.  DOH.  Got to catching up with the Orville, only to realize that I missed chat.  I had EVERY INTENTION of logging in, but dammit, I forgot until 2 minutes after it was over.  Here’s to hoping that  next week I will remember to log in.

I came off my blood pressure medicine because my blood pressure was 76/44 at the last cancer doc appointment.  I feel a lot more energized now.  I probably should check my blood pressure and see where it is now, but heh, laziness prevails, I’ll just assume it’s normal and go about my day.

I called to get an appointment with my Shrink, running out of meds, not a good thing.  I see him on Friday, October 13th.  I still haven’t made contact with my Therapist though, supposedly I can’t see my Shrink without seeing my Therapist first.  But I have been going to the same place so long, they let me bend the rules a bit.  I guess on Monday I will message her and see when she can see me, I am sure it will be before the 13th.

I blew off physical therapy yesterday.  I just didn’t feel up to it moodwise.  I am still going thru some depression because of the pain, but it is getting better.  I can feel the changes happening.  So maybe physical therapy is working.  I am sitting up now writing this and not feeling any pain where he is treating,  pain in the neck and shoulders yes, but the mid and lower back feel good.  This is gonna be a LONG road to travel.

My wife works too much.  She is too dedicated to her job.  Yup, they don’t pay her enough for the crap she does for them.  Don’t get me wrong, she loves her job and doesn’t mind putting in the long hours.  I am the one with the problem.  I see her put in a 9 hour day (eating lunch at her desk working, not taking any breaks) and then doing a maintenance that night from 10pm to 2 or 3am, the getting up and doing it again the next day.  Come the weekend, she is exhausted.  The problem is that she is the only one who can do certain parts of what needs to be done, there is no one else to do these things.  Talk about job security, be the only one who knows how to fix 2 of the major systems that the company runs on.  It behooves them to treat her well, headhunters court her daily.  Facebook has made her an offer at 10% above her current salary.  She doesn’t want to leave where she is.  She loves what she does and doesn’t want to start over somewhere else.  I can see that.  I just wish the job was 8 to 5 and that was it.  Oh well, I can wish, but unless she changes her mind about switching employers, she is there for the long haul.  She’ll probably retire from there in 20+ years.

Next week I am gonna start the process to get rid of the white car.  It is long since DEAD.  Just been occupying space in our garage for a couple years.  Not drivable, not even currently tagged.  Stuff is piled on top of it.  Anyhow, we can not find the title for it anywhere.  So I have to go down to the DMV and pay 65 bucks for a title trace, which take a couple weeks.  Once we get clean title, I get to contact the Teen Services place, who pays Cash for Cars running or not.   Well, this one is definitely NOT.  I hope they bring a tow truck.  Need to get this done before winter hits cuz I don’t want to have our neighbor have to snow blow around Teresa’s car again.  Yes, we live in a townhome and share a driveway.  Our neighbor, very nicely, blows the snow off the whole driveway and doesn’t charge us anything for it.    He’s a real nice guy.


That’s a picture of the Adel (Dallas County) Courthouse.  It was built in 1848 and still in use today.  The light post out in front of the courthouse is also a Pokegym, so it is often busy around there.

It’s Thursday, right?

Well, mom just left to go to the airport to head home.  I am already missing her.  The visit was really nice.  I love my mom.  She is the greatest.  I do wish that she and my brother lived closer than 6+ hour drive away.  Yeah, I know its an hour flight, but that costs a bunch and money is well, money is what it is.  Anyhow, I know my mom doesn’t read my blog, but just in case she decides to….  Thanks for the visit, MOM.  We love you.

Got the results of my cat scan.  I have 3 gall stones of various sizes, which are doing much of nothing.  So, since they aren’t causing any problems, don’t worry about them until/unless they do.  OK.  I have 1 kidney stone, a little tiny 1mm (yes, 1 millimeter) kidney stone, which should eventually pass on its own.  Chris, my PA, offered to set up a kidney specialist appointment for me to see if they would recommend anything, I said nah, so I get pain every now and then, no biggie.  Certainly isn’t worth a copay to find out there is nothing to be done.

Wife’s car is in the shop, she is gonna take mine to go to work (if she goes in today, so far she has been working from home), which leaves me car-less.  Wouldn’t normally be a big deal, but today I have Physical Therapy at 3.  I should call and cancel.  But there is a small chance that her car will be fixed before then.   All that is wrong with it is the passenger side rear tire has a slow leak.  Not rocket science.

I’ve been having nightmares lately, I rarely have nightmares.  Not scary ones, but highly disturbing ones.  I think the pain is causing them… or maybe the flexeril I am taking to keep the muscles from freaking out.   Anyhow, disturbing is the correct word, I wake up thinking the most obscure thoughts and have trouble falling back asleep.  I will be happy when my back is “fixed” and I don’t have to take meds or deal with pain anymore.  Ha Ha Ha, a boy can dream, right?

I still haven’t been able to win a game of Mutant Football League (except the first when the other team had to forfeit for too many dead players).  I have scored in every game, but my defense sucks and whichever team I am playing against scores many more points.  It’s not getting frustrating yet, I am learning, I am getting better.

I am already back to CIV 4 Warlords.  Yeah, I didn’t get burned out for very long.  Still trying to beat the game in conquest mode.  I can get to 8 or 9 enemies defeated, but the last 1 or 2 are just annoyingly impossible.  UGH.  I don’t want to resort to NUKES, but that might be the only way.

I tried to play Skyrim some last night, but still suffering from Skyrim burnout.  So, I won’t be playing that for a while.  It’s ok, I will get back into it sooner or later.  I have no worries about that.  In the mean time I have MFL and Civ4 Warlords to keep me busy.

It wouldn’t be a Hectic.blog post if I didn’t mention my back.  I have found the times to take my flexeril which keep my back from hurting the most.  Yeah, the morning one knocks me back out for an hour or two, but for no pain its very worth it.  And the evening one just helps me fall asleep and lets me sleep thru the night.  I haven’t touched a pain pill in several days.  Woo Hoo.

I still haven’t written a letter to my old doctor letting her know that I am seeing a new medical provider.  I really should do that.  I got labs coming up in October and I don’t want to be called by her office when I am getting them done somewhere else.  Besides she did right by me, she is the one who discovered my leukemia.  However, it was definitely time to move on.

Teresa has this dream of putting heated floors throughout the living area.  I thought she was just talking about it, dreaming.  Nope, she is saving money specifically for that and wanting me to save my disability money too for the cause.  Personally, I think we need a new washer and dryer first, but since I don’t do the laundry and I do walk on the floors, my vote only 1/2 counts.  So, some time in the nearish future, we will have heated floors and no carpet.  I can live with that.

I think I have given up bipolar chats.  It’s always the same stuff every time I log in.  Same trolls, same whiners, same oblivious people.  It’s not that I am any better than these people, it’s just that I am tired of it, and have been for a while.  So, I don’t think I will be going back anytime soon.

Now, leukemia chat is a different story.  As long as they don’t start talking about how successful they are even though they have/had leukemia.  I am good.  I just always seem to forget it’s Thursday and miss the chats.  Really bad about that.  I know today is Thursday, but by this evening, I will probably forget AGAIN.

I took my morning flexeril a little late so I wouldn’t be so sleepy when my mom was getting ready to leave, you know, so I could spend a little extra time with her.  Anyhow, the sleepiness is hitting me now.  So, I am gonna split.  You all have a great day (whichever day you end up reading this).



Still no answers, such is my life

Mom has been super while being here, she took us out to Famous Dave’s tonight.  Very nice of her.  She is only here for 2 1/2 more days.  Not nearly long enough of a visit but longer would drive her nuts, so I understand.  Tomorrow we are going shopping at Kohl’s and Best Buy for shoes and a mouse, respectively.  She has coupons for Kohl’s that expire on the 21st so that is a must.  Best Buy was my suggestion for a mouse over Wal-Mart.  Just seemed to make more sense as Best Buy should have a bigger selection.

Went to get my x-ray today at the Adel Mercy Clinic, where my new PA works and where they told me I could get it done.  I got there on time only to find out that their x-ray person was off today… DOH.  So, we ended up driving to Mercy West and getting the x-rays there.  No problem other than I told my mom to park in the wrong lot and we had a long walk to the imaging department.

Nothing found on the x-ray or the urine test, so the Cat Scan tomorrow is hopefully going to find something because otherwise I have more mysterious unexplainable pain.  I haven’t had a Cat Scan in 30+ years.  lol.  I don’t even remember what to expect.   But onward we go.  We know my pain isn’t an infection, no fever and no system to fight an infection.  If it was an infection, I would be really sick (like on the live side of dead sick).  There is not much else that causes longish term pain in one kidney.  So, Cat Scan just has to find something or frustration will ensue.

Teresa dumbed down the explanation of what THE CLOUD is for me.  I kind of knew most of it already, but I did not know that it was FREE to set up in and use for 12 months. More start up companies that want a web presence of size should go this route.

Still haven’t won a game in Mutant Football League.  But I almost always score.  So I getting better.  My defense leaves something to be desire.  Working on that in Practice mode starting tomorrow.

Oh yeah, I reported the penalty call on every completion error and it was fixed the next day, bravo to the developers.  Now I can make completions and first downs and only get called on penalties when the other team bribes the ref or the random number generator decides to get me.  I can handle that.

I think I may be a bit burned out on Civ4 now.  I start a game and then go “Blah, I don’t want to play this”.  So I think it’s going on the shelf with Skyrim for a while I think.  Rocket League never got on the list.  Age of Wonder III requires signing up for yet another game company list, I am not sure about that right now.   Which leaves Mutant Football League as my game of choice.  It’s still in Beta for another month, but it’s super fun to play.

Teresa has decided that saving our pennies to get heated tile floors is the next thing.  I think I would rather have a new washer/dryer.   But hey, it’s primarily her money, she gets first decision, but nothing says I can’t try to weasel my way in and change her mind.  We need a new washer and dryer more than we need the heated floor.

Short one tonight, I am tired.  You all have a good day tomorrow.  I will let you know what the Cat Scan says.



Luckiest Man Alive

Mom being here is going great.  We went to HuHot on Thursday night.  HuHot is always a good dinner and being with my wife and my mother is wonderful.  Friday night we stayed in and had this potato/sausage/cheese stuff that my wife makes.  Tonight, mom took us to the Machine Shed.  The company I am with is great.  They both really enjoyed their dinners.  I had flavorless mac and cheese, big disappointment.   But hanging with the 2 greatest women in the world makes it all worth while.  I love my wife, I love my mom, and I am so happy that they get along so well.

I am doing the stretches that the physical therapist gave me.  Doing them according to his instructions.  Not hurting while I am doing them.  But a half-hour or so after I am done, I am in a lot of pain.  As of day 3 of doing the stretches, I don’t seem to be going anywhere with them.  I see my physical therapist again on Monday.  Should be an interesting conversation.  But like I have said, I am giving this a go.  Really trying PT this time.  I hope this works.

My back is still thrashed.  Even Teresa has given up trying to get me to use my desk, at least right now.  So I am playing everything on my laptop right now.   It’s all good.  My new laptop has a more powerful processor and a similar video card to what my Desktop has.  Translation, with the exception on not seeing things on a 34″ monitor, it’s pretty much just as good playing games on my laptop.

With my back being thrashed, I can’t sit out in the living room with mom very much.  I feel kind of bad about that.  But I do go out and visit when I feel up to it.  And Teresa has really stepped up and is sitting chatting with my mom a bunch.  I wish I could go out there and join them, but after sitting for 2 hours at dinner, I just don’t have it in me to sit any more right now.  I know that mom understands, she is cool.

Mutant Football League is FUN.  I got good in practice, so I decided to try a game.  Every time I made a 1st down, I got a stupid penalty called on me.  EVERY TIME.  I wonder if this is a glitch or something I am doing wrong?  I had 3 touch downs called back for penalties.  But I did win the first game I played, by surviving longer than the other team.  Wow, it was wild, the field we were trying to play on was super deadly.  There was 8 yards of offense for the whole game.  lol.  Then I went to play another game and that is when the penalties started.  Really frustrating.  Gonna try another team and see if it was just the team I was playing or something else.  But even with the penalties, I was having fun playing.

I am not liking Rocket League very much.  Car soccer is just not my thing.  But it looks really pretty.

Still taking a break from Skyrim.  I think I burned out on the game for a while.  I know it’s there when I want to go back.  And I will go back, I have no question about that.  Civ4 Warlords is still my go to game.  That and screwing around with MFL.  Talk about 2 very different games.   MFL is a wild, intense, hands on game… while Civ4 is a turn based, mellow, casual game.   But hey, I am having fun with both.  So screw it, I will play what I like when I like and no one can say anything bad about it.

We finally got around to making an appointment for Pucky and Mojo to have their teeth cleaned.  Their teeth are not bad by any means, but it is time for a professional job on them.  Plus they both have teeth that have to be extracted.  It’s gonna cost us a minor fortune, but we love out fur babies and this is needed.

It’s the middle of September,  Thanksgivingfest is 2 months away and Sam and Shel who are hosting this year haven’t let me know if it would be ok to bring Pucky and Mojo to their house.  I asked originally in July or so.  I bet Sam forgot to ask Shel and thus the reason no one has gotten back to me.  They were so good last year at John’s house.  No accidents whatsoever.  But I would never assume it was ok to bring them.  So I guess I will get ahold of Sam and ask again.  Or maybe go straight to Shel.  One way or the other, I will know in a couple days.  Yup, I won’t put it off, or forget

Looking forward to seeing the Gang again at Thanksgivingfest.   It’s a tradition that I look forward to every year.  It’s the only chance I have to see the Gang every year.  And now that Teresa has taken to coming with me.  It’s doubly good.  I don’t miss her terribly and I still get to see my friends.

And the lunch with Andi and Shawn the day after Thansgivingfest is looked forward to as well.   Shawn is NOT going to cancel on me again.   Even if he has the bubonic plague from his kidlings, he has to come.  Andi has only cancelled on me once, and that was because it fell on her brother’s 40th birthday.  Anyhow, it’s always great to see the two of them.  And one year Tommy met up with us.  Brian said he might want to drive down to join us this year.  But Brian barely spoke to me last time I was in the Region, I don’t know if he is mad at me or if that just happened cuz it happened.  Oh well, no matter who shows up, it’s always a nice lunch.

Oh, my mother-in-law has decided that she can’t come to visit right now.  So, D&D might resume much sooner than I originally announced.  No promise to that at this point, but things are definitely looking that way.   I will be installing Mumble on my laptop, and getting things ready to run here on the laptop as opposed to the desktop cuz I can’t sit in my chair for 2+ hours.  It’ll be fine.   I actually have more room here in bed that I do at my desk.  Go figure.  I will let you all know as soon as its been decided.

Oh, for those keeping tabs, my platelets, white blood cells, and hemoglobin were all down yet again.  Biggest concern being the platelets.  I barely had a little cut on my thumb and it bled for 6 hours, not gushing but oozing blood for 6 HOURS.   This sucks, I am scared of where this appears to be heading.  I don’t want to go back to the infusion center.

And finally, I have an x-ray scheduled Monday morning.  Then a Cat Scan Tuesday morning.  All to find out IF I have a kidney stone or something else wrong with my right kidney.  A little scared about this too.  Especially scared at what can be causing the pain if it is NOT a kidney stone.  But hey, it’s me, and I am weird.  What does not kill me only makes me wish it did, sometimes.

Peace, Love, and Gummi Bears.


What a couple of days…

Oh what a couple of days………………..

Yesterday, I saw my new PA.  His name is Chris.  We chatted for a bit and I wowed him some with my medical history.  Barely got into it, so I figure I will wow him a lot more in the near future.  We discussed my possible kidney stone.  I did the whole pee in a cup thing and am waiting on the results call.  I hope he is going to call my cell phone and not the home phone cuz nothing is attached to the home phone number.   Anyhow, when he tapped my kidney area, I jumped.  We talked a whole lot about kidney stones and how the treatment plan goes.  Just waiting to hear from him now.

This morning was the nurse visit at my Cancer Doc’s office.  Got to visit with yet another nurse, who confirmed with us that there is nothing else to do to try to fix my falling blood numbers.  Platelets were back down to 39, WBD was 2.6, and Hemoglobin was 12.1, all down from where they were a month ago which was down from where they were a month before that.  Kind of disheartening to know there is nothing to do if they keep falling, until they fall far enough to warrant some action.  Teresa’s theory is that the marrow that used to be producing cancer cells stopped working all together and the good marrow is overtaxed.  As good of theory as any I have hear.  The problem is besides me being a bleeder, I also have like minimal ability to fight infections.  SUCKAGE.

This afternoon I went to my first physical therapy appointment with Todd.  Two new stretches and 20 minutes on a tens machine.  The stretches are pretty basic, I can do them, and I plan do them like he suggested.  I have nothing to say about the tens machine, it was 20 minutes of sitting there reading Facebook on my phone.   Todd seemed like a nice enough guy.  He asked pertinent questions and got to the point fairly quickly.  I liked that, more time to do stuff, less talk about it.  I have 2 appointments with him next week.  I will happily go, even though……

My mom is here to visit.  YAY.  I do not get to see her enough.  She came to visit for a whole week.  She is going to take us out to dinner two nights, once to HuHot and once to Famous Daves.  Beyond that we have nothing planned.  Teresa and I are not one to plan in advance.  Oh well.

The problem is I can’t sit out in the living room with my mom.  I can’t sit comfortably for any length of time right now.  Therapy today just made it worse it seems.  5 minutes sitting out there was all I could handle.  I did hook up her computer for her, so she has POGO to play.

Today was an eventful day for me for packages.  I got a new CD from Publisher’s Clearing House.  Another 70s music CD.  I like 70s music.

I also got my stuff from Amazon Prime Pantry.  Big heavy box.  Eventually tonight I will get around to unpacking it.

And finally I got my gizmos from Steam.  A game controller, and a thingy which puts my Steam game on the TV.  The controller was a necessity to play Rocket League and Mutant League Football Beta.

Mutant League Football is something I LOVED back on the Sega in its day.  I would play for hours on end.  Well, it seems they have updated the crap out of it and added a whole lot to it.  Release date is some time in October.  Right now is closed beta.  But open beta starts next week.  I haven’t hook up the controller yet or fired up the game, but I hope it’s as cool as the videos show it to be.

I’m hurting pretty bad right now and I haven’t even done my stretches yet.   No fair and no fun.  I really wish that my pain doc would have given me something beyond Flexeril to deal with my back hurting.  But I understand there is a huge push not to prescribe opiates, and he wants me to give physical therapy a real go.  So, that is what I am doing.  Giving physical therapy a go.  The prednisone trial just threw a wrench into getting physical therapy started weeks go so I would be better now.  Grrr.

Well, my pee in a cup test came back normal.  No blood to be found.  Chris has decided to go ahead with a CAT Scan to make sure I do or don’t have a kidney stone (You guys are getting a real time report on this).  I don’t know when this will happen yet, but hey, it’s all good I guess.  At least they are ordering it at the close Mercy Hospital, so we don’t have to drive all the way down town to the main Mercy Hospital.   Good thing we have good insurance cuz my life would be costing us a minor fortune right now.



6 of 13. And my doggies too.

My back is really bad, especially since coming off the pain free existence of prednisone.  I knew my back was going to hurt again, but OMG, this pain is ridiculous.  Sitting gives dimensions of pain and now laying down causes my back to hurt too.  I can go to sleep relatively pain free and wake up with my back hurting again.  Lounging in bed is the only position that I can get in that doesn’t cause pain, you know, propped up of a couple pillows.

Add to that pain, my right kidney, where I have the kidney stone took to hurting like hell again today.   Just seems my day for pain.

To that end, I am finally going to Physical Therapy on Thursday afternoon.  I have talked about my feeling about PT, but I am going to give it a real go this time.

I picked a new regular doctor place today.  Going to give the Physician’s Assistant who got me an earful when he asks me about my conditions.  I asked to see the actual doctor, but she is not taking new patients directly.  So I get he PA.  Heh.  Well, last time I went to a PA I really liked him.  Perhaps this guy will be just as good.  I will give him a try.  Instead of 10 minutes to get to see the doctor I am now about a minute away or 5 or 6 blocks.

I haven’t told my old regular doc that I am leaving her care.  I am leaving because her assistant left.  Her assistant is the only reason I went to see that doctor in the first place.  I wish I knew where the assistant ended up, if it was a family or general practitioner, I would drive for her.  She was that good.

So Wednesday I see my new PA, then Thursday morning is blood work and nurse to check my blood levels (especially platelets) at the cancer doc’s office, then Thursday afternoon is Physical Therapy.

Today is my 6 year Anniversary with WordPress.  My first WordPress blog, the one in which I blogged like 3 times and quit is still alive.  Go figure.  This blog is like 6 months old I think.  I guess I will know when it is one year when WordPress sends me a bill for next year.

I am finding this blog very therapeutic.  I will continue to post when things are going on, I find it really cool when people I don’t know read my blog, the little counter thing that WordPress supplies is pretty cool for keeping track of how many visitors come to your blog and where they are from.  I like it.

OK, I have mentioned Music Choice on cable before.  I have said the 80s are my go to.  Then classic rock.  I added the 90s after my brother introduced me to it.  Well, recently I check out Y2K and found music I really enjoy.  Depending on the year of the song,  It either reminds me of life after Vegas (VEGAS SUCKS) and then here, the early years.  We are about have been here 13 years.  WOW.

That is the longest I have lived anywhere.  We moved when I was 8 as a kid.  So 8 years and 11 years respectively in my childhood homes.   This is a strange concept for me to wrap my head around.   Not that I don’t like it here, I just never expected this to be perma-home.  Now, we have been here a lot longer than I ever guessed we would be.

I figured that some headhunter would have swooped in with an offer that Teresa couldn’t refuse and zoom off we’d go to somewhere else.  She gets the offers, but she doesn’t even look at them (Facebook offered her more money than she is making and we wouldn’t have had to move, but she doesn’t want to leave where is she is), she is happy where she is, enjoys what she does, gets paid decently, has above average insurance, and her “boss” is in New York.

Pucky has to go in for all his blood work and shots.  His elderly check up and his yearly shots.  Then both dogs will be going in for teeth cleaning.   That’s 500+ bucks per dog.  OUCH.  But hey, they need it and it’s worth it.  That includes tooth extractions for the teeth the are loose or falling out.  Chihuahuas are notorious for having bad teeth.  The only drawback of the breed that I have found.  But all things considered, they don’t really have bad teeth, Pucky had 2 (1 feel out) and Mojo had 1 tooth that is loose, that’s not bad at all.

I reported erroneously that Skyrim wouldn’t see the correct video card on my laptop.  When I installed updated graphics drivers, the graphics driver told Skyrim that it was here, and tada, major graphical upgrade on the laptop.  From Intel Mobile 630 to Nvidia 1050 TI.   Things look as almost as good as they do on my desktop.  ALMOST.

Can’t play Rocket League until I buy a Xbox controller.  We threw ours out when the Xbox died.  Anyhow, it appears that the game recommends/requires a controller for full enjoyment.  So it is installed on my machine, looks really pretty, but I can’t/won’t play it until I buy a controller.  No biggie.

The Facebook “On this Day” is really funny.  Last year, I was sitting in an open house for a house that wasn’t my listing being bored to tears.   The year before, I was starting my FINAL round of chemo.  Boy what a difference between those years.  Now this year, I am totally retired, medically and mentally.   I gave up on trying to work.  I just can’t do it.  Funny though, recruiters are looking at my information on LinkedIn.  I think if I wanted to get back into the computer service industry, I would have a much better chance than I originally thought.  But since that was the industry that caused my mental break and subsequent badness, NO, I don’t think that is going to happen again.

My wife thinks I need to talk to my therapist.  She says I have been depressed for a long time.  Well, I can tell you why I have been depressed, I have been in pain a long time.  Pain = Depression.  Don’t need to pay 30 dollars to come to that conclusion.  Been in pain basically since I moved my office into the bedroom and started sitting in the chair, that triggered all the pain, thus causing my mood to plummet.  I was grumpy/angry on prednisone, but I was actually happy when neither of those was going on.  No pain at all.  Now I am back to hurting most hours of the day, and depressed because of it.

Maybe Physical Therapy will give me some relief.  (A boy can dream).  Or if they declare me a hopeless case, then maybe my pain doc will give me something for the pain.  (A little more realistic).  Either way, I will happily pay to get OUT OF PAIN.

Well, I have written close to 1200 words, by now you guys are probably BORED with my babble, so I will say goodbye now.   Well I will when I hit 1200 words, which is now.