Teresa finally said it was ok for me to try school again. So, I sent in my application to WGU. They normally charge 65 bucks to apply, but they sent me a free app code, so its all good there.
Anxiety has already started though 😦 Anxious about taking the Readiness Exams. You know the tests to determine if you know enough for the basic courses. When I went to start at DMACC I did ok on the math, but sorta bombed the English part.
Dealing with new anxiety and my therapist is out of town. Hmmm, I think I may need a new therapist to help me get going on this. I need somewhere to vent and talk thru what is going on inside my head. I think I will text my therapist (and hope I don’t disturb her too much, she is with her husband who is being treated for leukemia) and see about getting a new therapist from the same place.
Anyhow, at the last moment of the application filing I changed the security emphasis to network administration. Not sure why. Just seems right. Again, its all good, I can change my major at any time during the first 3 terms because classes are the same for all IT majors. Judging by the jobs available at rht.com, there are about 50 times more network admin jobs than network security jobs available in Des Moines. And besides, Teresa can help me with a lot of the network admin stuff.
So now, I am hoping to be a 46 year old Freshman. And hoping to finish my first Bachelor’s degree at age 50. Just roughly 30 years later than originally planned. But a school like WGU didn’t exist 30 years ago. So, I am gonna try this now.
Like I said before, I am hoping to start on May 1st. It will mean my terms are May-October and then November-April. Since its all self-paced, they start people any month they want. I like this setup. I know they hold commencement ceremonies in Utah twice a year. My mom had declared we have to go if I do graduate. It’s all good, I look good in purple and white (the schools robes are a deep purple color and the tassels are white). But I am getting way ahead of myself. Have to start school before I think about graduation.
Let me see, tonight I will force myself to take the readiness exams. I sure hope I do ok on them. Would hate to be told I can’t attend because I am too unprepared for college. It has been a long time since I have solved for x or even figured out what 1/2 of 2/3 is. But I can figure this stuff out. And I get to write an essay. First essay I have written in over 20 years. FUN FUN FUN.
I grumble, but I got this. It’s all good. Seriously, if it is meant to be, I will pass these readiness exams, upload my resume, and get admitted to school. If its not, then I am no worse for wear. If I can’t get in, I just give up and go back to the original plan (well, the original of a couple weeks ago).
And so I come to another entry in my blog. Sorry for boring you few who are reading, but this is how I am dealing with the anxiety. Writing about it has always helped. My old livejournal blog was driven by anxiety. I hope this blog becomes full of goodness and rightness and not just anxiety driven blather.